Love resurrected, p.2
Love, Resurrected, page 2
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In the months that followed, she found herself experiencing another uncustomary sensation: irritation. She played a game where her opponent had her outwitted at every turn, as though he could read her mind. As Balthus once had.[this had more punch for me if broken into its own sentence]
Her opponent taunted her. Every few days another feather appeared. Laid atop her pillow, on the tray beside her breakfast, drifting on the windowsill. A marker in her book, turned a few pages beyond where she had been reading.
She burned them in the fireplace but said nothing to Balthus.
Inside you is your worst enemy. What did that mean? The thought ate at her like a parasite. Was she at odds with herself? Was she overlooking the obvious, making mistakes she should have realized? She found herself outside her actions, watching them with a critical eye.
She faltered sometimes. The fine lines around Balthus' eyes meshed and deepened when he frowned at her, but he said nothing aloud.
But he wanted the Falcon captured, and soon. He was angry about the losses, the time that would be necessary to create more Beasts. For the first time he did not communicate his plans, but expected her to guess them in a way that left her scrambling to catch up at times, trying to figure how to incorporate each creature he created. He did not consult her. She could have used more winged Beasts, to replace lost scouts, but she did not dare request them. Or dray animals to move supplies, and yet, as though mocking this need, he gave her a troupe of Unicorns, too fine-boned and delicate to be hitched to wagons.
***
It shocked her when Balthus, finally making a move, caught the quarry she had sought so long. Little consolation that his victory came by cheating, not the sort of thing she would have ever embarked upon.
She could see why Balthus had moved with such efficiency, though. Was not all fair in war, as in love?
It was through an exchange of hostages, one of the sacred customs. By doing it, she thought to pay the Falcon tribute, let him see she respected him as an opponent, perhaps lure him into complacency. It was not until they had been dispatched that Balthus revealed that one had been a Siren, a woman created to entice, who would cast her magic over them.
"She even looked a little like you," he said with a smile. Then added, "As you were, I mean."
She made no reply aloud, but had he been able to read her thoughts, his smile might have faltered.
***
Aife went to the cell where they kept the Falcon. She took two guards with her, trailing her like hounds as she made her way down spirals of stone. On the third landing, a torch burned beside his door.
Her hand spread like an elderly starfish on the door's surface as she leaned forward. She found herself trembling like a hound ready to be loosed on the scent.
He had been sitting on the bunk. He sprang up as her shadow crossed the rectangle of light on the stone floor, approached the door till he was inches away from the bars and the hood's edge shrouding her face, but not far enough. He recoiled as he saw her fully, recovered, stood still, but this time not as close.
She looked at him all the while. Rumors had not lied about his handsomeness. Slim and brown-skinned, his hair as black as ink, a few white strands at the temples somehow making it seem even darker.
Aife could have loved this man, long ago, in her soldier days, before the weight of death had settled on her shoulders. He was young and beautiful, so beautiful. So alive. She wanted him as she had not wanted anything for so long. She put a hand to the bars, looked at him, hoping to see the same recognition there.
Only horror and revulsion
She had thought her heart dead, but that was not true, else how could she feel it aching now?
Still, she had to question him. She took two guards in with her, but motioned them back when they would have seized him. Leave him his dignity for now.
"How did you know what I was doing for so long?" she said.
He sneered. "Are you not a dead thing, to be commanded by magic, like all dead things that walk must be? I have had my necromancer working for months, trying to find a way inside your mind. On the night of the year's third moon, he succeeded.
"After that, all was clear to me. His magic let me take control of you from time to time. We could not risk it for long, though, so I used it to trouble you, making you lay down clues for yourself: a feather to stir your thoughts, send them in the wrong direction. And it worked, until your master chose to trust you no longer."
Had Balthus realized what had happened? That closing her mind to him had opened it to other magical controllers? Surely he had not known it at first, but only later, had used it to infiltrate the Falcon's camp, discover his plans in order to catch him?
"Your compatriots," she said, "including any magickers with them, are dead. You are here in Balthus' castle, and will be wrung of information as a sponge is of water. Will you yield it up easily or will you force him to twist you hard?"
She watched him as he considered her words. She thought that it would be hard to kill him, but she'd do it nonetheless. She had killed pretty men before, and seen many of them used to coaxing their way from women die as quick and efficiently as the ugliest man.
Sometimes they were a little more theatrical about it all. He seemed like he would be the theatrical sort.
She touched the silver chain. She had refused jewelry for so long. It was something that made you a target, or gave enemies a chance to grab at it. And here it had happened, just as she had always feared. Her worst enemy had been in her head, and it was not herself.
She thought, though, that if she could have freed him, she might have. He was that pretty. It would have made her happy, to know that he lived somewhere, that he knew it was by her mercy. If only that was possible.
Footsteps, coming down the stairs. Who?
The Falcon twisted at the air with his hand. She felt the chain constrict around her throat, puppet fingers slipping into her brain.
"It seems my necromancer's magic lingers after all, after all," he said. "I suspected you could not resist coming close enough that I could control you, even without his assistance. What shall I have you do? Kill your master seems the most obvious step, doesn't it?"
"Perhaps," Balthus said from where he stood on the stairwell.
Aife was pulled upward, her limbs someone else's, a loathsome intimacy that made bile burn in her throat. The guards were on their knees, choking, hands at their throats, trying to pry away invisible cords. She was thrust towards the door, trying to keep her arms out to maintain balance.
Balthus raised his hand, palm towards her. The green blotch had grown like a bracelet around his wrist. A blob of silvery liquid covered the center of his hand, like the moon, pulling her forward, a mystical tide washing through her, making her heavy, restoring her to herself. She shuddered, shaking off the last of the netting over her senses.
"You are not one sixteenth as clever as you think you are, puppy," Balthus said contemptuously.
"Enough to rid you of your most powerful tool," the Falcon exclaimed. She twisted away as he flung something at her that dispersed in the air, a handful of motes. She felt it settling on her back and shoulders, saw red sparkling dust riding the breeze, falling on her gray skin and setting it smoldering wherever it landed.
Where was water, anywhere close at hand? The privy pot in the cell was dry. The guards were recovering, as she had, and so she discarded the thought of quenching anything in their blood.
Fire blazed along her skin, burning deep, too deep to extinguish. She staggered towards the door, where Balthus stood. His face was stricken. She saw herself, a fiery angel, reflected in his pupils, saw the thick velvet of the cloak gone lacy with flame. She opened her mouth to appeal to him and felt it fill with flaming dust, go hiss-flickering out, the heat stealing any chance at words.
Fire, and more fire, and then final darkness.
***
Only to awake, agonized. Balthus' face above her yet again.
Was that all it would ever be, from now on?
She was bone now. Bone and some sort of spectral, invisible flesh that netted her limbs into order and gave her the power of sight. She moved her fingers and they clacked and clicked against the planes of her face as she tried to touch whatever held her together.
Opposite her a standing mirror, green-lit, presenting her rippled and obscured as though drowning. Her skull, wavering in the reflection, capped with a tiara-- a golden hawk, wings stretched out to cup the bone.
Wolf was there past the mirror, pressed against the wall of the chamber. Watching her with loyalty. Whatever she became, he would follow. It was reassurance. She would always be a leader, no matter what.
Truly a monster now. She would have to give up some of her illusions: the pretense of meals and cosmetics and clothing. What good would armor be, except to hang on her as though she was some sort of display rack?
"I have made you a present, my dearest," Balthus said. His fingers stroked her skull, bumped along her teeth. He released her and stepped aside.
Undead, skin already graying. Ah, the fine dark hair, the silver strands like penmarks in reverse. The once-piercing eyes now blue and cloudy marbles.
Marbles full of hate and spite and helpless malice. Hers forever more, her handsome toy, given her by her master, perhaps to torment, perhaps from love and an impulse to please. Would she ever know his motives, would she ever understand if she was puppet or lover, source of amusement or font of something else?
Endless days stretched before her, in which she would never find the answer.
About the Author
Cat Rambo lives, writes, and teaches in the Pacific Northwest, with occasional excursions elsewhere. Her 200+ fiction publications include over 150 original stories, as well as audio and foreign reprints in over a dozen languages. She has been nominated for the Nebula and World Fantasy Award, and has served as the editor of award-winning Fantasy Magazine. She is the current Vice President of the Science Fiction and Fantasy Writers of America and once won a hula contest judged by Neil Gaiman. Find out more about Cat, her work, and her online classes at http://www.kittywumpus.net
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Near + Far (SF collection)
Eyes Like Sky and Coal and Moonlight (fantasy collection)
A Seed on the Wind (SF novella)
A Halloween Quartet (fantasy collection)
Creating An Online Presence for Writers (nonfiction)
Short Story Series:
Altered America (steampunk)
Her Windowed Eyes, Her Chambered Heart
Rappacini’s Crow
Clockwork Fairies
Rare Pears and Greengages
The Towering Monarch of His Mighty Race
Snakes on A Train
Closer Than You Think (near future SF)
Peaches of Immortality
English Muffin, Devotion on the Side
Tortoiseshell Cats Are Not Refundable
Zeppelin Follies
Therapy Buddha
Flicka
All the Pretty Little Mermaids
Memories of Moments, Bright As Falling Stars
On the Bigfisted Circuit
A Man and His Parasite
Boys and Grlz Come Out To Play
Legends of the Gone
Mother’s World
Not Waving, Drowning
RealFur
The Mermaids Singing, Each to Each
Farther Than Tomorrow (slipstream & space opera)
Bus Ride to Mars
Grandmother
Elsewhen, Within, Elsewhen
Five Ways to Fall in Love on Planet Porcelain
Angry Rose’s Lament
Seeking Nothing
Surrogates
Fire on the Water’s Heart
A Querulous Flute of Bone
Superlives (superheroes)
Ms. Liberty Gets a Haircut
Superhero Art
Acquainted with the Night/TickTock Girl
Tales of Tabat (secondary world fantasy)
Narrative of a Beast’s Life
How Dogs Came to the New Continent
Events at Fort Plentitude
Sugar
Love, Resurrected
A Frame of Mother-Of-Pearl
In the Lesser Southern Isles
A Brooch of Bone, a Hint of Tooth
I’ll Gnaw Your Bones, the Manticore Said
Pippa’s Smiles
A Twine of Flame
The Bumblety’s Marble
The Silent Familiar
Twicefar Station (far future SF)
Kallakak’s Cousins
Amid the Words of War
I Come From the Dark Universe
Timesnip
On TwiceFar Station, As the Ships Come and Go
Bots d’Amor
Villa Encantada (urban fantasy/horror)
Eagle-haunted Lake Sammammish
Villa Encantada
2611 (forthcoming)
Women of Zalanthas (secondary world fantasy)
Aquila’s Ring
Mirabai the Twice-lived
Karaluvian Fale
The World Beside Us (dak fantasy/ horror)
Jaco Tours
Can You Hear the Moon?
So Glad We Had This Time Together
Of Selkies, Disco Balls, and Anna Plane
Small Demons
Heart in a Box
Magnificent Pigs
The Dew Drop Coffee Lounge
Centzon Totochin
Fisherman’s Child
Whose Face This Is I Do Not Know
Close Your Eyes
A Connection to Beyond
Eggs Of Stone
Swamp Gas
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