Love struck, p.1
Love Struck, page 1
love struck
CHANTEL GUERTIN
ecw press
chapter one
It happened on a Thursday, an ordinary Thursday like any other. Except on this Thursday my life was changed forever. And, just like so many things in life, it came when I least expected it. When I had no idea that it could ever happen. At least, not to me.
It was just past eight in the evening and I was sitting at Pretty Nail getting a pedicure. I’d bailed on Parker—he’d called in the late afternoon asking me to accompany him to a prospective client dinner but I’d told him I couldn’t cancel my dinner and manicure date with Elin. It was a ritual I’d initiated a few months earlier to give my best friend a reason to come in to Toronto—she’d moved to Jackson’s Point a little over a year ago when she and Terrence had found out she was pregnant with triplets—and, more importantly, it got her out of the house and out of her hospital scrubs, which she wore even though she had no plans to return to her nursing position.
Twenty minutes earlier, moments after arriving at the no-frills nail bar after having sushi and a bottle of Riesling, Elin had gotten a panicked call from Terrence saying she had to come home immediately. One of the kids had a fever and he had no idea what to do. So Elin left, and since I’d already paid for her manicure, I opted for a pedicure, too. I’d just settled into the leather massage chair when my BlackBerry buzzed and I looked down to see a frantic email from one of my newer clients, Lonette, asking what to wear on a first date with a guy she’d just met at the gym.
I mentally drew an image of Lonette, a dark-haired, skittish accountant in her forties who’d won a set of sessions with me in a charity auction. Since my job as an image consultant was, admittedly, a little superficial—helping rich people buy more clothes—I didn’t mind occasionally offering advice for free. Besides, the question of what to wear on a first date was always my favourite. Lonette had just gone through a nasty divorce (was there any other kind?), and as a result had lost more than twenty pounds (being incredibly unhappy made most people either incredibly overweight or incredibly thin, and Lonette was the latter) so she was a fairly easy client.
I texted her back to get more info on the date: when, where, who was the guy (age, occupation, likes, dislikes), then mentally went through her wardrobe, finally deciding on a pair of wide-legged, high-waisted dark denim trousers, a slinky, grey-pink sleeveless top, black kitten heels, black leather bucket bag, hair left to air-dry to maximize her natural waves and creamy-taupe and pink makeup. I was just scrolling through the rest of my emails when the girl two seats over from me asked the girl beside me if her sister was still dating that guy on the Blue Jays.
I never understood the appeal of pro sports players. Weren’t they all cheaters?
“No. Apparently she wasn’t the only girl getting to third base with him,” the Sister, who had an enviable British accent, replied, then laughed at her own joke. See? I thought. “Now she’s fixated on some married guy she works with. She actually just texted me to say she’s hooking up with him tonight. Honestly, she has no shame. The only thing that girl cares about is money.”
“So what does he do?”
“Investment banker at Feldman Davis.”
Oh my God. Parker worked at Feldman Davis. I shifted in my chair so I could catch the names of this scandalous couple and report back to Parker in case he knew them. Gossip was always more thrilling when you knew the guilty parties.
“Feldman Davis? Since when does Sienna work in finance?”
The Sister laughed cynically. “Since she realized those firms were filled with hot, rich guys, and that her commerce degree could actually get her a position as a research assistant. Which has just got to be a glorified secretary—if not, she’ll probably be fired before her three-month probation is up—but it gives her an excuse to flit around and eye her prey.”
Something in the back of my brain triggered when I heard the name Sienna. It sounded somewhat familiar, but I couldn’t put a face to it. I pictured last year’s holiday party, the summer golf tournament, the partners’ annual barbeque . . .
Had Parker mentioned a new research assistant in the office? I couldn’t recall. His executive assistant was Barb, a grey-haired grandmother of three who sent homemade shortbread home with him at Christmas.
Sienna . . .
Oh, Sienna Somers! I vaguely remembered Parker mentioning a woman named Sienna Somers. Had he told me she was new? I couldn’t recall the context of the conversation, but I did remember thinking at the time, Who has a name like Sienna Somers at an investment banking firm? Isn’t it more of a porn-star name than an analyst’s name? Maybe her parents had other aspirations for her. But now it sounded like she wasn’t an analyst at all. Not that it mattered—
“But what’s the point of hooking up with a married guy?” the friend was now saying, interrupting my thoughts.
“Challenge, maybe? And it’s no-strings-attached sex. Besides, I wouldn’t put it past Sienna to believe she could make the guy leave his wife. Anyway, supposedly this Parker guy is super hot.”
Parker? Did she just say Parker? My husband’s name? My good-looking husband’s name? No, I must have heard her wrong. She most certainly did not say Parker. She couldn’t have. Or maybe the guy, whose name is not Parker, works as a valet, parking cars, in the garage under the Bay Street tower in which Feldman Davis is located. That must be it. So he’s the parker. Because he parks cars. I used all my mental energy to will the Sister to say the guy’s name again. Just to be sure that she most certainly, definitely did not say my husband’s name.
Say his name, I wanted to scream, but didn’t. Because even though we weren’t in a high-end spa, it just wasn’t something I would do.
My heart was beating in my throat, making it difficult to breathe. And so, without thinking, I did the unthinkable.
“Excuse me.” I tapped the girl beside me on the shoulder and she turned to look at me, raising her perfectly plucked eyebrows. I wanted her to be in her mid-fifties, which would reasonably make her sister Sienna somewhere in the same decade, and effectively rule her out of being a mistress to my Parker. Because surely my thirty-two-year-old husband would not cheat on me with a woman nearly twice my age, right? Right?
Of course, what I should’ve been thinking was that surely my husband wouldn’t cheat on me at all.
The girl beside me—the Sister—was not fifty, not even close. She looked to be about my age, or maybe a little younger, and was wearing an adorable floral halter dress and had long blond hair held back with a crocheted headband. She could’ve been my friend. Except, of course, I would never be friends with someone whose sister would have sex with my husband. Obviously.
“I couldn’t help but eavesdrop on your conversation.” I paused, hoping she would suddenly smile, shrug and say not to worry, that her sister lived in Atlanta or London or Dubai. Except, Feldman Davis didn’t have branches in Atlanta or London or Dubai.
Or maybe she’d tell me I’d misheard the names, that what she’d said was her sister Sandra was having sex with Peter. Or that they knew I was Parker’s wife and Parker had put them up to it—a belated April Fool’s Day joke in May and ha ha ha, wasn’t that funny?
But Parker wasn’t the type for silly pranks.
Instead, the girl beside me stared, a mixture of confusion and annoyance on her face. She raised her eyebrows.
“That guy you were talking about . . .” I fumbled. “What did you say his name was?”
The girl continued to look at me as though I was crazy. And maybe I was. I was sure she was going to tell me to mind my own business (in not-so-polite terms) but she suddenly seemed to have a change of heart. She looked around her and then leaned closer.
“Why? Do you know him? Do you work for Hello! or TMZ? Are you an undercover investigator? Are we going to be on some hidden camera show?”
What could I possibly say to that? Actually, those were all really good excuses when you wanted to interrupt a conversation in which you weren’t included. Why hadn’t I thought of those lines?
She laughed and waved a manicured claw. “Don’t worry about it. I’ll tell you anyway. It’s Parker. Parker . . . Rose. Or Boss. Or—”
Ross. Parker Ross.
My husband.
My husband was having an affair.
And so, I did what I assumed any woman who had just learned her husband was having an affair would do. I stood up mid-pedicure, handed Ming a handful of bills, and shuffled, in my yellow sponge flip-flops, out the door onto Yonge Street, only to find that the sky was dark with miserable clouds and it was starting to rain. I turned right and made my way, umbrella-less, the five blocks home to figure out what the hell I was going to do.
Whenever I’d heard about women whose husbands were cheaters—on Tyra or in Cosmo—I always thought in exasperation: How did you not know? Late nights at the office, early-morning meetings, hang-ups on the home phone, unexplained charges on the joint credit card statement . . .
But I’d experienced none of that. Sure, Parker had early-morning meetings, but what Bay Street banker didn’t? And he often had to entertain clients at night, but he always came home to me. Of course, he didn’t really ever get any calls on our home phone, since he made most of his calls on his BlackBerry. And while we both had our own separate bank accounts—which I’d agreed to so I’d never have to justify a second pedicure in one month or another silk tunic from French Connection—it had al ways been that way.
Nothing out of the ordinary had ever happened to make me suspect that Parker could possibly be having an affair.
Nothing.
Except . . . now that I thought about it, there was the condom incident a few weeks ago. I’d been transferring a load of wash into the dryer when I’d discovered a grape-flavoured condom in a purple plastic packet, which must have fallen out of the pocket of his jeans. “Gag from Eric’s bachelor party,” Parker had explained, not missing a beat, when I’d asked him. And I’d believed him. After all, the condom was still nicely tucked into its unopened packet. If he’d been having an affair, there wouldn’t have been an unused condom in his pants. Besides, Parker would never use something as tacky as a flavoured condom. I simply wasn’t worried.
And then there was the time Elin had sworn she saw Parker coming out of the Hilton on Richmond in the middle of a workday a few months ago when she’d been downtown taking the triplets to the pediatrician. I hadn’t even asked Parker about this one. After all, I knew the Hilton had a restaurant and bar at which he could have easily been having lunch. There was nothing to be suspicious about, and asking would’ve only made me look like a jealous, neurotic, paranoid wife. Besides, aren’t cheaters supposed to have lipstick on their collar, smell of strange perfumes, or receive mysterious phone calls and emails?
Except Parker kept his BlackBerry on vibrate so I had no idea if he was getting mysterious phone calls or emails. And Parker’s office had a no-scent rule, so if he was having sex with someone in his office she wouldn’t be wearing fragrance either. And who kissed a married man on the neck while wearing lipstick anyway? That cliché was so Days of Our Lives really, wasn’t it?
Come to think of it, how on earth was any woman supposed to know if her husband was cheating on her? I had no clue.
Oh my God. Oh my God. Oh my God.
“Mrs. Ross, are you okay?”
I looked up to see Amir, our doorman, standing over me. For some reason, I was lying on the sidewalk. Amir leaned over and put a hand on my forehead.
“What happened?” Amir asked.
“I don’t know.”
“Did you slip on the pavement? Let’s get you inside.”
He put his hands in mine and pulled me up to my feet. “Where are your shoes?”
My cute little cream-coloured Betsey Johnson wedges with sky-blue ankle ribbons were still at Pretty Nail.
I shuffled into the lobby. I was having difficulty seeing. Everything looked blurry, but I pushed on toward the elevators, telling Amir I was sure I’d be fine. Inside the black and silver mirrored elevator I looked at my reflection. My face was blotchy and my eyes were red and filled with tears.
I unlocked the door to our condo.
I felt like an idiot.
How could he do this to me? I couldn’t understand it. He wasn’t a horrible womanizer who treated me like crap. And I wasn’t a bad wife—at least I didn’t think I was. We’d been happy for the past three years of our marriage and the three years we’d been together before we tied the knot at a lovely 150-guest spring wedding at the Four Seasons. (My parents had hoped to host it at their cottage-turned-home on Lake Muskoka, but Parker’s mother thought a country wedding would require everyone to wear galoshes or something equally déclassé and Parker refused to stand up to her. And I didn’t want to make a big deal of it, or have Parker think I preferred a country-bumpkin wedding to the swanky hotel wedding we had instead.) It had worked out fine and now we were happy. Happy people didn’t cheat.
Which was why this was so unfair.
I dropped my cobalt-blue leather Marc Jacobs bag—the one I’d bought myself on our third anniversary only weeks earlier (after Parker’s assistant had screwed up and bought me a crystal vase, forgetting that we commemorated with the traditional gifts rather than the modern ones, meaning she should’ve been shopping for leather)—onto the white marble floor and slumped down beside it.
I don’t know how long I sat there before I realized what I would do.
I would kill him.
I envisioned myself dressing all in black leather (though my leather collection consisted solely of shoes, belts and handbags), knee-high boots (would navy Hunter rain boots do?) and a mask (would an organic corn and oatmeal facial masque work?). Never mind the outfit. It was all about the weapon. But what would I use? The kitchen knife? We’d barely used our knives in the time we’d been married and I wasn’t sure they could slice a bagel, let alone break skin. A candlestick? I’d put a ban on candlesticks when I moved in with Parker after he’d declared my whimsical candles-in-Chianti-bottles not only collegial but messy. Instead, I’d learned to love tidy tealights. Maybe a gun? Except the only gun I owned was a glue gun for making my own thank-you cards. Perhaps I could strangle him with my bare hands, I thought. Only I didn’t have much upper-body strength—I tended to avoid any sort of exercise regime that employed free weights (I certainly wasn’t the kind of girl who wanted bulky upper arms busting out of her pretty cap-sleeve blouses).
And then I realized: I couldn’t kill Parker. I’d have to go to jail and I’d look absolutely horrible in the regulation orange jumpsuit.
But it wasn’t just that.
I couldn’t kill Parker because I loved him. I loved him more than anyone.
Which is why none of this made any sense at all.
I sat slumped on the floor, my head in my hands.
And then my BlackBerry buzzed.
I rummaged around in my bag, pulled out the pink device as it rang a second time and looked at the number.
It was Parker.
I stared as it rang a third time, knowing if I didn’t answer it on the sixth it would go to voice mail.
But what would I say? Would I tell him I knew? Would I channel a soap opera heroine and coyly ask him if there was something he wanted to tell me? Or would I just tell him I was leaving him and let him figure out the rest when he got home to an empty condo?
But I’d grown to love our condo—and more importantly, what it stood for. The person I’d become living here. I didn’t want to leave it. Maybe I’d pack his things and leave them outside the front door. Yes, that’s what I’d do. Then again, packing up someone else’s bags and leaving them outside the door in the middle of the hallway was hardly as dramatic as leaving them on the front steps of a suburban home for all the neighbours to see, was it?
The phone rang a fourth time.
Besides, why did I have to be the one to pack up his stuff? Shouldn’t he have to do that? No one likes packing. Shouldn’t that at least be part of his punishment for committing adultery? I’d tell him to pack his own things, while I called my lawyer.
Except our lawyer was Parker’s friend Eric. No matter, I’d call my father. He’d find me a lawyer. Yes, that’s what I’d do. But then I’d have to tell my parents that Parker had cheated on me and that was the last thing I wanted to do. My parents, of course, would love that I was finally opening up—they themselves were total open books, whereas I was the opposite. A closed book, if I was going to use clichés. Or one of those empty cases furniture stores put on bookshelves to show you what your living room would look like if you bought the various pieces on display. Once my parents got over the initial shocking joy that I had shared something personal with them, though, how disappointed would they be that their only offspring had failed at her marriage—after only three years?
I clicked the Talk button and took a deep breath.
“Hello?” said a breathless female voice before I could say anything at all.
“Hello?” I said back.
Oh my God.
Was it her? Was it Sienna Somers? My husband’s mistress? It had to be her. Who else would be using my husband’s phone? Maybe her sister had called her and warned her. Except I hadn’t revealed my identity to the Sister. Or maybe she sensed, using her evil temptress powers, that the jig was almost up.
“Is this Poppy Ross?” The woman’s voice was filled with panic, but I could still hear her smooth British accent.
“Yes,” I said slowly. My right hand, the one holding the phone, went numb, as though paralyzed.
“Poppy, this is Sienna Somers. I . . . I work with your husband. There’s been an accident.”
