Raw desires, p.1
Raw Desires, page 1
RAW DESIRES
CYNTHIA SAX
Raw Desires
Copyright 2023 Cynthia Sax
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This is a work of fiction. All of the characters, organizations, and events portrayed in this story are either products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual events, locales or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.
First edition: February 2023
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CONTENTS
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
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RAW DESIRES
His human female is attempting to kill him.
This cyborg finds that adorable.
Raw, a K model cyborg, is one of the lucky warriors who has located his genetic match. He hears his human female’s voice over the communication lines and immediately processes she is his.
Winning her affections will be a greater challenge. Battle has always been Raw’s focus. The rough-and-tough warrior has no idea how to engage anyone’s tender emotions.
Fortunately, he isn’t alone in the universe. His unmatched male friends help him craft a plan.
All Raw has to do is relay a few unsettlingly sweet words to his female and give her the thoroughly unfunctional wall decoration he has obtained. He projects she will then jump into his big, strong arms and beg him to claim her.
Taytu isn’t jumping anywhere. She has one mission—kill every cyborg in existence.
The huge, handsome male traveling to meet with her is her first target. His rough hands, firm lips, and sparkling, energy-infused eyes won’t save him from her vengeance. She has trained vigorously for this moment, and she won’t fail at her assigned task.
The cyborg will die.
Raw Desires is an enemies-to-lovers Cyborg SciFi Romance set in a dark, gritty, sometimes-violent universe.
CHAPTER ONE
Taytu crouched by her mom’s grave. “I buried a boy from the Semeni settlement this planet rotation.” His body had been partially hidden between the roots of a tree in a nearby forest. “I missed him on the last twelve searches.”
She uncovered fewer and fewer of the dead with each trek around her tiny home planet.
“He’ll be at peace now.” That was the least she could do for one of her kind. She’d been far away, attending an off-planet academy when the Humanoid Alliance and their heartless cyborgs had brutally slaughtered the conflict-adverse Abebans. By the time she was informed of the massacre and had arranged transport home, there was nothing left to do but bury the bodies.
And plot her revenge. Her fingers folded into tight fists.
“The enemy will have no peace.” She felt a tinge of guilt after issuing that statement. “I know you don’t approve of my plans, Mom. If you were here, you would tell me to lay down my anger before it eats me alive. But I don’t have your gentle heart.”
She’d always struggled with the serenity her kind practiced. Her parents had sent her to the academy with the hope she’d find oneness with the universe there.
That was the only reason she had survived.
“I am the last Abeban.” That truth ravaged her soul. “And my heart holds no kindness for our enemy.”
They would pay for what they’d done to her family, friends, and neighbors. She touched the carved stick that marked her mom’s final resting spot.
All around her, thousands of sticks dotted the terrain. Every one represented a soul lost.
When she arrived on the planet, the stench had been overpowering. Her nose wrinkled.
She’d buried everybody, performed a service for each being, carved their grave marker.
And she had trained. She’d studied the enemy, watching footage, replicating their movements, learning their tactics and their strategies.
With each self-taught lesson, she had become more and more like warriors she despised. Her kind’s culture of peace was cast aside. She molded herself into a being who could ruthlessly end lifespans.
The trap she’d set for the enemy was as carefully designed. Every possibility was considered.
It was…perfect. Satisfaction coursed through her.
When the cyborgs returned, they would die.
There was no doubt in her mind they would come back to Yebeti Abeba. They had forgotten two of their killers in one of the death machines they’d left on the planet.
Human corpses sporting Humanoid Alliance officer uniforms had been found on the bridge. The males must’ve misjudged the landing.
The cyborgs were sealed in the cargo hold of the vessel. They would serve as bait for her trap.
“I’ll end as many of their worthless lifespans as I can.” Taytu pressed her lips together. “I’ll lay my anger at their feet and it will consume them.” As it had consumed her. “Then I’ll join you in the land beyond.”
Her skills as a warrior were now adequate, and she’d have the advantage of surprise when the enemy arrived. She was confident she could kill at least one cyborg.
But she would be facing more than that. The warriors never operated alone. And they were manufactured for battle. The cyborgs would defend themselves. They would counterattack.
And they would kill her. She wouldn’t defeat all of them.
Taytu had accepted her impending death. It was a sacrifice she was willing, was eager to make.
There was nothing in the universe left for her. Everyone she loved was now gone.
All she had was a lifespan of loneliness, of regret.
And a heart filled with vengeance.
She straightened. “Ask the deities to forgive me, Mom.” She missed her family, her friends, and her neighbors so very much. The grief carved into the core of her. The sorrow shrouded her like a cape. “We’ll be together then.” She wiped the wetness from her cheeks. “Your goodness should offset the actions I’ll soon take.”
Abeban deities spoke of forgiveness. They should be equally forgiving of her response to the killing of her kind.
If they weren’t…
Fuck them.
Another wave of guilt swept over her. “I didn’t mean that.” She glanced upward at the cloud-filled sky. “Don’t smite me.” She paused. “Not until I’ve done what I have to do.”
And that was to kill as many cyborgs as possible.
She looked at the grave marker. “I love you, Mom. Tell Dad I love him also. And the others. I love them all, and I’m sorry, I’m sorry I wasn’t with them. But I’ll join them soon.”
Once the killing was over.
She turned and carefully navigated the spaces between the burial plots. Some of the mounds were heart-twistingly small. Her cousin’s daughter, Fana, had been born while Taytu was at the academy. She’d only seen the baby in images.
And she’d seen the infant in death. Taytu’s eyes stung. Fana had been clasped in her mother’s arms. One projectile had downed both of them.
Their enemy had no compassion, none at all. Her anger at the cyborgs flared once more, incinerating her grief, her sorrow, her guilt. She reveled in the hate. When she engaged her fury, she was spared the other, more difficult feelings.
It had kept her sane during the solar cycles of solitude, while she buried the dead and plotted the demise of those who had wronged her loved ones.
She continued to walk.
The land she trekked over was lifeless. No creatures scurried. No vegetation grew. There was no laughter of children or chirping of insects. Even the brook by the large rock was dry and silent.
The planet was alien to her. It bore little resemblance to her childhood home.
The Humanoid Alliance had destroyed everything.
Her shoulders rounded as she trudged into the small structure she’d constructed. To live in one of the dead’s homes felt…wrong. Her temporary living space was simple and shoddily put together, but it kept the rain off her face while she slept, and it ensured her few belongings remained dry.
Taytu extracted a nourishment bar from a storage container and took a swig of water from another container. While she ate and drank, she scrolled through the messages displayed on her handheld. Gezi and Kometa, two of her best friends from the academy, had both sent her multiple communications.
She sighed and plunked her ass on the fabric-covered vegetation she’d been using as a sleeping support. In twenty-one planet rotations, it would be exactly five solar cycles since she left the academy. She’d stopped talking to her friends that planet rotation.
Yet they continued to reach out to her. They didn’t know the being they’d known was gone forever, that her world now consisted of death and justice for th e dead.
She didn’t respond to their messages, because she hadn’t anything to say to them. Goodbyes had been exchanged. She wouldn’t live through the implementation of her plans.
It was kinder to say nothing. She put the handheld aside.
Dirt covered her fingers and her flight suit. Even her short-cropped hair felt grimy.
Digging the grave for the boy had been messy work.
But he deserved that labor, that act of remembrance. They all did.
Seeking comfort and connection, Taytu skimmed her fingertips over the decoration on her wrist. It consisted of small polished stones held together by finely braided vegetation.
The heirloom piece had been handed down from generation to generation, had been restrung many times.
Her mom had been wearing it when she died.
Taytu often felt her mom’s presence in the stones. Her fingers stopped on a small rectangular one. It sported grooves.
That signified knowledge.
“I hear you. I hear you.” Her mom’s message was clear. Building her skillset should be her focus.
She swallowed the last bit of the nourishment bar, gulped some water, and rose to her booted feet.
There was no one around to view her filth. She could tidy herself later.
There was training to complete now.
This planet rotation’s session required weapons. She strapped three daggers and a modified gun to her form and marched out of the structure.
A mock cyborg was situated steps away from the door. It was constructed from branches, vegetation, and fabric.
She’d also located a set of body armor in the warship the Humanoid Alliance had crashed—the ship with two cyborgs trapped inside. The faux cyborg wore that protective garment.
Breaching that shield was one of her challenges. She drew the gun she’d altered, aimed, and fired.
The projectile struck her target. It shaved off some of the body armor, but it didn’t pierce that protective garment.
“What the fuck?” That wasn’t the result she expected.
She turned the gun to study it.
The weapon resembled the image of the other gun in the database. The modifications should work. The expert had boasted about downing cyborgs using it. He’d shown a set of body armor he’d blasted apart.
Taytu aimed at her target again and pressed the trigger.
The result was the same. The projectile merely grazed the protective garment.
“That expert was full of bovine shit.” She shook her head. “Maybe I need better projectiles.” She would research the possibilities and add a container of projectiles to her next order of supplies. “My daggers won’t penetrate the body armor either.”
The blades were solely for close-range defensive maneuvers, and even their effectiveness in those situations were in doubt. Cyborgs, according to her research, moved quicker than human eyesight could track. She’d likely be dead before she extracted her daggers from their sheaths.
“I’m back to relying on the explosives.” She’d mastered the ability to craft bombs. Those should blow up anything, including cyborgs and their irritating body armor. “I don’t like that. If the explosives fail—”
An artificial droning filled the air.
“That’s a ship.” She searched the skies. “The freighter with supplies isn’t scheduled to arrive for another forty-three planet rotations.”
That meant…
“Oh shit.” She holstered her gun, ran back inside her temporary home, grabbed the detonator, and dashed out the door.
The planet was smaller than some moons. The wreckage of the warship wasn’t located far away from her makeshift domicile.
But she was racing a ship, and she was admittedly shorter than the average human.
She ran as fast as she could toward the downed ship.
That was faster than she could’ve moved at the academy. Solar cycles of traversing the planet, burying bodies, and training for battle had increased her strength and her speed.
The approaching ship was also flying very slowly. That helped her greatly.
If it was a Humanoid Alliance vessel, and she would bet her only gun the enemy had returned, the crew was likely looking for survivors they could shoot.
They wouldn’t find anyone other than herself on the planet.
Their kind had killed everyone else.
For no fuckin’ reason.
Taytu’s jaw clenched.
Her people had been peace-loving beings. They had installed no defenses, wouldn’t have reacted to the invasion with violence.
Yet the Humanoid Alliance had chosen to obliterate the Abebans, not negotiate with them.
If the deities were just, she would soon obliterate some of them.
The incoming vessel didn’t speed up.
She arrived at the warship wreckage before they did.
The bombs had already been set around the site. She’d been liberal with the explosives, wanting to decimate as many of her foes as possible.
They were fast fuckers, however. She had to catch them off guard.
Taytu palmed the detonator, hiding the device in her hand. Three taps of her fingertips against the button, followed by one long press, would activate it.
She positioned herself behind one of the warship’s exterior panels. That would serve as a shield.
And she waited.
The engine noise grew louder. An artificial wind swept over her hiding place.
There was a loud thump. The rocks near her booted feet rattled. The noise of the engines stopped.
She braced herself, preparing for the confrontation and her impending death. The pain and her sacrifice would be worth it to avenge her loved ones.
A little bit of justice would be gained for baby Fana. And for her mom. And for the thousands of other Abebans who had wanted nothing more than happiness and harmony with the universe.
“Ours.” A female voice uttered that one word. “We retrieve the human also.”
Taytu hadn’t expected a female to be part of the recovery team. Cyborg warriors and Humanoid Alliance officers were all male. She peeked around the exterior panel.
The being leading the group did appear to be female. Her breasts were prominent, were the size of Taytu’s head.
The rest of the female was also huge. She was clad in black body armor, and she had the gray skin and energy-infused blue eyes of an early model cyborg.
Female cyborgs were rare. And they weren’t warriors. They were created for the Humanoid Alliance’s failed breeding program.
Taytu’s resolve faltered.
She could blow up the others. Her gaze shifted to the left and to the right. Those cyborgs were all males. They could’ve been some of the warriors who slaughtered her family.
But killing one of their females felt wrong.
Stars. It all felt wrong.
No. She quashed that thought. Killing the enemy wasn’t wrong. It was necessary.
Cyborgs were manufactured to end lifespans, to cause pain and death.
They’d killed sweet little Fana. Images of that tiny corpse filled Taytu’s thoughts. Her baby fingers had been tangled trustingly in her mother’s hair. She’d been so small, so innocent.
Ending a lifespan like that was wrong, horrifically wrong, yet it hadn’t stopped the enemy.
She had to stop them before they killed another innocent.
Her chin lifted.
She looked around the barrier again.
The female cyborg was wearing body armor, and she held guns in both of her hands. Beings of peace didn’t carry weapons.
Fuck it.
Taytu glared at the group. She was blowing them all up.
The female cyborg’s gaze met hers.
Son of rock spider. Taytu froze in place. She’d been spotted.
It made no sense to hide from them now. They knew where she was.
