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Borrowed Pain: MM Romantic Suspense, page 22
Marcus looked up from his pad. "We need someone with the authority to override institutional protections."
"I have an old friend from Virginia, Agent Victoria Sadler," I said, finding her number. "She worked on corporate fraud when I was in behavioral analysis. If anyone will listen to conspiracy theories from a washed-up podcaster, it's her."
The phone rang four times before connecting.
"Ashcroft? Fucking hell, I haven't heard from you in three years. Please tell me you're not calling about another unsolved murder that the Bureau supposedly covered up."
"Victoria, I need five minutes of your time. It's about medical fraud, human trafficking, and federal agencies being used to protect criminal activity."
She was silent for a moment. Her tone was professional when she spoke again. "You have my attention. Make it count."
I breathlessly explained our predicament.
"Slow down, Ashcroft. Federal protection protocols for medical research are standard procedure when—"
"When the research involves breakthrough treatments for veteran PTSD, right?" I cut her off. "When the facility has received credible threats from domestic extremists who want to sabotage therapy that could help thousands of soldiers?"
She was silent again. Marcus and Matthew watched me pace, their expressions sharpening as they recognized the implications of my words.
"How did you know that?" Victoria asked, her voice cooling by degrees.
"That's precisely what they'd tell you to get federal protection. You're not guarding breakthrough research—you're providing security for human experimentation disguised as legitimate therapy."
"That's a serious accusation, Rowan. You're suggesting federal agents are—"
"I'm suggesting federal agents are doing their jobs based on falsified intelligence. Someone fed you a story about protecting vital PTSD research from terrorist threats. Someone with impressive credentials, institutional backing, and bulletproof documentation."
I heard a keyboard clicking through the phone. "Multiple federal agencies have reviewed Dr. Celeste Harrow's research. National Institutes of Health funding, Institutional Review Board approval, oversight from Johns Hopkins, Mayo Clinic, and UCLA trauma centers. This isn't some back-alley operation."
Something Miles said before he left came back to me. "The Johns Hopkins connection—did a Dr. Gwendoline Humphries provide a testimonial?"
More keyboard sounds. "Dr. Humphries submitted a comprehensive evaluation supporting the research protocols. Highly enthusiastic about the breakthrough potential."
Matthew caught my attention, pointing toward Dorian's workstation, where multiple screens showed incoming calls. Unknown numbers and blocked caller IDs, communication patterns that suggested someone was desperately trying to reach us.
"Victoria, I need you to do something for me. Call Dr. Humphries directly and ask her to repeat that endorsement in real time. Don't use any contact information from your case file—look up her direct line through Johns Hopkins."
"Why would I—"
"Because I think you'll discover that Dr. Humphries has been trying to contact someone about this research all afternoon. Someone who might help her correct a terrible mistake."
Dorian gestured frantically. He'd answered one of the incoming calls, and his expression suggested the conversation was urgent.
"Victoria, I have to go. But please—make that call. Find out what Dr. Humphries really thinks about Celeste Harrow's research."
I ended the call and moved toward Dorian, who was scribbling notes while speaking rapidly into his headset.
"Yes, Dr. Humphries, he's right here." Dorian looked up at me. "It's Dr. Gwendoline Humphries from Johns Hopkins. She's been trying to reach Miles all afternoon."
I grabbed the headset. "Dr. Humphries, this is Rowan Ashcroft. Dr. McCabe is currently—"
"Mr. Ashcroft, thank God. I saw reports that federal agents were guarding a trauma study at Harborview. When I realized it was Celeste's facility…" Her voice bordered on panic. "Dr. McCabe contacted me yesterday about collaborative research. I thought it was routine professional networking. Then I saw armed federal agents protecting breakthrough trauma therapy research, and I knew."
"Knew what?"
"That she was finally implementing the protocols. The ones I helped legitimize through my testimonial." Her breath caught. "Mr. Ashcroft, I've been a coward. A collaborator. But I can't let another researcher walk into what I helped create."
She explained that her testimonial recording session lasted three hours. They distilled her words into a two-minute clip that made it sound like she'd personally implemented the protocols with remarkable success.
"Mr. Ashcroft, I never treated a single patient using Harrow's methods. The edited testimonial suggests I've transformed hundreds of lives."
"Why didn't you correct the record?"
"I tried. My department chair received a call from Meridian's legal team, suggesting that retracting my testimonial could impact Johns Hopkins' federal research funding. They had documentation of my voluntary participation in the testimonial process." Her voice dropped to a whisper. "Mr. Ashcroft, they threatened my entire department."
"Dr. Humphries," I said, "we believe Dr. McCabe is currently undergoing whatever protocols you helped legitimize. Time is critical."
"No." Her voice cracked. "How long has he been in their facility?"
"Two hours."
"Mr. Ashcroft, based on the pharmaceutical documentation I reviewed, neurological changes become irreversible after four to five hours of continuous intervention. You need to get him out of there immediately."
Matthew looked up from his medical supplies. "Can the process be reversed?"
"If caught early, yes. Benzodiazepine antagonists, antipsychotics, and intensive supportive care. Still, the window closes rapidly." Dr. Humphries's academic composure finally shattered completely. "I helped create a torture protocol disguised as breakthrough therapy. Now someone you care about is experiencing it firsthand."
The warehouse door chimed. Michael strode through carrying a tactical bag. Alex followed with Luna on a tight leash.
"Status," Michael demanded, dropping his bag and scanning the room for immediate threats.
"They've got Miles, and they are—" I couldn't say the rest.
Michael's expression shifted from tactical assessment to something approaching horror. "My brother. Are we fighting the entire system here?"
"Not the entire system," I whispered.
Dr. Humphries spoke again. "Mr. Ashcroft, I've been sending messages and making calls as we speak. Medical ethics committees, NIH oversight boards, and institutional review coordinators. There are people in the system who can override Meridian's protections if they understand what's happening."
"How fast can they move?"
"Academic bureaucracy isn't known for speed, but medical emergencies can accelerate everything. If I can demonstrate immediate patient harm..." Her voice trailed off. "I need to contact the FBI agent coordinating protection. Make her understand that the research she's guarding violates every ethical standard."
"Speak with Agent Victoria Sadler. I just spoke with her."
"Mr. Ashcroft, I will put my professional reputation on the line to save Dr. McCabe. It's the least I can do after I unwittingly enabled his capture."
"Rowan," Alex said quietly, "what do you need from us?"
"We need the FBI to understand that their intelligence sources are compromised."
Two minutes later, my phone buzzed with an incoming call. It was Agent Sadler.
"Ashcroft, I just spoke with Dr. Humphries. We need to talk."
I stepped into the guest room. "What did she say?"
"Dr. Humphries painted a disturbing picture. But I need you to understand—the intelligence we've been operating on suggests you're not a reliable source."
I pressed the phone tighter against my ear. "What kind of intelligence?"
"Financial records showing payments from foreign sources to your podcast. Communication intercepts suggesting coordination with domestic extremist networks. Psychological evaluations indicating obsessive behavior and a possible break from reality following your partner's death."
Someone had built a comprehensive dossier designed to discredit everything I'd discovered. "Victoria, those are fabrications—"
"Maybe. But they're from sources the Bureau considers reliable." I heard papers rustling.
"Victoria, how long have you been operating under these assumptions?"
"The Intel package arrived six weeks ago. We've been monitoring potential threats to breakthrough veteran therapy research since then." I detected a crack in her professional tone. "Ashcroft, if Dr. Humphries is right about systematic academic coercion..."
"Then every piece of intelligence you've received came through compromised sources."
Before she could respond, Victoria shared, "Dr. Humphries is requesting direct communication with the supervising agent. I'll call you back."
When I returned to the living room, Michael was unpacking his tactical gear and listening to Marcus coordinate with Seattle Fire Department contacts through his radio.
My phone buzzed with a text from an unknown number:
Unknown: Dr. McCabe's research participation has been extended due to promising initial results. Estimated completion tomorrow evening. Visitor access remains restricted pending federal security review.
I showed the message to the room. Matthew's medical expertise kicked in immediately.
"Tomorrow evening means they're planning twenty-four to thirty hours of continuous pharmaceutical intervention." He pulled out his phone and began calculating drug metabolism timelines. "Neural pathway changes become permanent after prolonged exposure. We're not only racing against time—we're racing against irreversible brain damage."
Dorian pulled up Miles's GPS tracking data on his largest monitor. The signal had moved deeper into Harborview's basement levels, areas marked as high-security medical isolation.
"He's been relocated," Dorian announced. "Medical isolation ward, Sublevel 2."
4:53 PM.
My phone rang again—different number.
"Ashcroft here."
"Mr. Ashcroft, this is Dr. Eileen Lemon from Harborview Research Ethics. I understand there are concerns about Dr. Harrow's current study protocols."
The administrator who'd dismissed Marcus's earlier call was now reaching out directly. Someone's pressure was working.
"Dr. Lemon, we believe Dr. McCabe is being held against his will under false pretenses of voluntary research participation."
"Mr. Ashcroft, I've been reviewing the documentation more carefully following some concerning inquiries from NIH oversight committees. There are irregularities in the approval process that require immediate investigation."
"What kind of irregularities?"
"The IRB committee that approved Dr. Harrow's protocols hasn't met in six months. The approval signatures appear to be forgeries." Dr. Lemon's professional composure cracked. "Mr. Ashcroft, if Dr. McCabe is participating in research that wasn't properly approved..."
"Then federal agents are protecting criminal activity disguised as legitimate medical research," I finished.
The institutional machinery was shifting, but it took time we didn't have. Miles was trapped in basement isolation, undergoing pharmaceutical manipulation that grew more dangerous with each passing minute.
The warehouse door suddenly opened. Ma McCabe stepped through carrying two canvas grocery bags. She assessed the room in seconds—Michael's tactical gear spread across the dining table, Marcus coordinating through emergency radio channels, and Matthew organizing medical supplies.
She stared directly at me. "Where's my son?"
Everyone stopped talking.
"Ma," Marcus began, "we're coordinating with federal—"
"I didn't ask about coordination. I asked where Miles is." She set the grocery bags on Matthew's counter. "And don't tell me he's participating in voluntary research. Miles wouldn't disappear for two or three hours without contact unless someone prevented him from calling."
"I've got Sadler on the phone again," I whispered.
Ma McCabe gestured for my phone. I complied. "Agent Sadler," Ma began, "I'm Miles McCabe's mother. I raised four boys who risk their lives to save others. I understand the difference between legitimate protection and bureaucratic games."
A pause.
"Agent Sadler, do you have children?"
We all waited.
"Then you understand that mothers know when their children are in danger. Miles has never missed a family check-in during a crisis. Never. If he could call me, he would call me. Someone is preventing my son from contacting his family. That's not voluntary research participation."
Ma McCabe handed the phone back to me. Victoria was already gone.
Through Dorian's monitors, I watched data streams flowing between federal agencies. Someone was rapidly verifying everything they'd been told about protecting breakthrough research. The institutional machinery was questioning its assumptions.
My phone buzzed with another update from the unknown number:
Unknown: Patient showing excellent therapeutic response. Medical team requests permission to extend intervention phase for optimal outcome achievement. Estimated completion delayed to Wednesday morning.
"They're extending the timeline," I announced to the room. "Now claiming completion won't be until Wednesday morning."
Matthew grabbed his phone and began calculating pharmaceutical metabolism timelines with emergency room precision. "Forty-eight to fifty hours of continuous intervention. That's not treatment—that's systematic neurological destruction."
Ma McCabe studied the text message. "In legitimate medical research, do timelines extend without patient consent?" she asked the room.
Alex spoke up. "No. Protocol modifications require ethics committee review and participant re-consent."
Ma McCabe turned toward me. "Rowan, get me your Bureau friend again."
Victoria answered on the second ring.
"Agent Sadler," Ma McCabe said with quiet authority, "proper channels have been compromised. Someone fed you false intelligence designed to make you protect criminal activity. The only way to verify the truth is to go around the people lying to you."
I reached for the phone. Let me put her on conference.
Dorian gestured toward his workstation, where federal communication logs showed systematic manipulation of information flows. Someone had intercepted, modified, and redirected official communications to create false institutional consensus.
"They've been spoofing federal communications," Dorian announced. "Agent Sadler, the intelligence briefings you received were generated by the same network you've been protecting."
Victoria announced, "I'm calling NIH program officer Dr. Ivan Nunez directly. He signed off on Meridian's trauma research grants."
Hold music filled the warehouse while Agent Sadler navigated federal phone systems. Ma McCabe used the time to unpack her grocery bags, unveiling enough comfort food to feed a small army.
"Dr. Nunez? This is Special Agent Victoria Sadler, FBI Corporate Fraud Division. I'm calling to verify federal approval for trauma therapy research conducted by Dr. Celeste Harrow." Pause. "What? You've never heard of Meridian Wellness Group?"
The institutional facade was crumbling in real time.
Ma McCabe moved around the warehouse distributing sandwiches, ensuring everyone remained fed and functional. She handed me turkey and Swiss on sourdough.
Victoria spoke again. "Dr. Nunez confirms that NIH has no record of funding or approving any research conducted by Meridian Wellness Group. The documents we've been operating on are fabrications."
Michael looked up from organizing tactical equipment. "Agent Sadler, what's the timeline for modifying federal protection protocols now that you know they're based on fraudulent intelligence?"
"This changes everything. If the research isn't legitimate, then we're not protecting breakthrough therapy—we're enabling kidnapping and assault."
Ma McCabe spoke. "Agent Sadler, how quickly can you get my son out of that facility?"
"I'm calling hospital administration right now to demand immediate access to verify participant welfare. If Dr. McCabe can't demonstrate voluntary continued participation..."
5:07 PM. Half the sandwiches were untouched; none of us tasted what we chewed.
Ma McCabe sat beside me, pressing a warm cup of coffee into my hands. "Agent Sadler is going to help us," she said with quiet certainty. "She understands now."
I raised a question. "Agent Sadler, what happens if hospital administration continues to deny access?"
"Then we treat this as a federal crime scene and override their institutional protections." I heard new determination in her voice. "I'm mobilizing federal resources right now. The hospital administration has agreed to work with us to avoid facing obstruction of justice charges."
Ma McCabe smiled with maternal satisfaction. Sometimes the system did work when good people understood what was really happening.
Michael packed his tactical gear with systematic efficiency. "Agent Sadler, what's the extraction protocol? Are we treating this as a rescue operation or welfare verification?"
"Both. We document and withdraw if Dr. McCabe demonstrates voluntary continued participation and clear mental capacity. If he shows signs of coercion, impairment, or involuntary detention, we initiate immediate extraction with medical support."
Dorian pulled up building schematics on his largest monitor. "Miles's signal is still stationary in Sublevel 2, the medical isolation ward, but power consumption has increased significantly in the past thirty minutes. I'm in Harborview's building-management panel—Sublevel 2 just pulled enough juice for a small OR."
"Surgical intervention?" Matthew asked, professional dread coloring his voice.
Ma McCabe approached my chair and placed her hand on my shoulder. "Rowan, we're on this. You're not losing another partner, and I'm not losing a son."
Her hand felt nothing like Miles's fingers tracing the same path two nights ago, mapping the tension I carried between my shoulder blades. "You hold everything here," he'd whispered, thumbs working at knots I hadn't realized existed. I'd turned in his arms then, catching his mouth with mine, tasting the future we were building one kiss at a time. Now that future hung by threads in a basement I couldn't reach.












