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Delphi Collected Works of E. T. A. Hoffmann (Illustrated), page 220
Like one in a dream, Traugott suffered himself to be led into the other room. The old man was still sleeping; but all at once he started up, and staring at Traugott with eyes flashing with anger, he cried, “What do you want? What do you want, sir?” Then the youth stepped forward and reminded him that he had just been showing his new picture to Traugott, had he forgotten? At this Berklinger appeared to recollect all that had passed; it was evident that he was much affected; and he replied in an undertone, “Pardon an old man’s forgetfulness, my good sir.” “Your new piece is an admirable — an excellent work. Master Berklinger,” Traugott proceeded; “I have never seen anything equal to it. I am sure it must cost a great deal of study and an immense amount of labour before a man can advance so far as to turn out a work like that. I discern that I have an inextinguishable propensity for art, and I earnestly entreat you, my good old master, to accept me as your pupil; you will find me industrious.” The old man grew quite cheerful and amiable; and embracing Traugott, he promised that he would be a faithful master to him.
Thus it came to pass that Traugott visited the old painter every day that came, and made very rapid progress in his studies. He now conceived an unconquerable disgust of business, and was so careless that Herr Elias Roos had to speak out and openly find fault with him; and finally he was very glad when Traugott kept away from the office altogether, on the pretext that he was suffering from a lingering illness. For this same reason the wedding, to Christina’s no little annoyance, was indefinitely postponed. “Your Herr Traugott seems to be suffering from some secret trouble,” said one of Herr Elias Roos’s merchant-friends to him one day; “perhaps it’s the balance of some old love-affair that he’s anxious to settle before the wedding-day. He looks very pale and distracted.” “And why shouldn’t he then?” rejoined Herr Elias. “I wonder now,” he continued after a pause,— “I wonder now if that little rogue Christina has been having words with him? My book-keeper — the love-smitten old ass — he is always kissing and squeezing her hand. Traugott’s devilishly in love with my little girl, I know. Can there be any jealousy? Well, I’ll sound my young gentleman.”
But however carefully he sounded he could find no satisfactory bottom, and he said to his merchant-friend, “That Traugott is a most peculiar fellow; well, I must just let him go his own way; though if he had not fifty thousand thalers in my business I know what I should do, since now he never does a stroke of anything.”
Traugott, absorbed in art, would now have led a real bright sunshiny life, had his heart not been torn with passionate love for the beautiful Felicia, whom he often saw in wonderful dreams. The picture had disappeared; the old man had taken it away; and Traugott durst not ask him about it without risk of seriously offending him. On the whole, old Berklinger continued to grow more confidential; and instead of taking any honorarium for his instruction, he permitted Traugott to help out his narrow house-keeping in many ways. From young Berklinger Traugott learned that the old man had been obviously taken in in the sale of a little cabinet, and that the stock which Traugott had realised for them was all that they had left of the price received for it, as well as all the money they possessed. But it was only seldom that Traugott was allowed to have any confidential conversation with the youth; the old man watched over him with the most singular jealousy, and at once scolded him sharply if he began to converse freely and cheerfully with their friend. This Traugott felt all the more painfully since he had conceived a deep and heart-felt affection for the youth, owing to his striking likeness to Felicia. Indeed he often fancied, when he stood near the young man, that he was standing beside the picture he loved so much, now alive and breathing, and that he could feel her soft breath on his cheek; and then he would like to have drawn the youth, as if he really were his darling Felicia herself, to his swelling heart.
Winter was past; beautiful spring was filling the woods and fields with brightness and blossoms. Herr Elias Roos advised Traugott either to drink whey for his health’s sake or to go somewhere to take the baths. Fair Christina was again looking forward with joy to the wedding, although Traugott seldom showed himself — and thought still less of his relations with her.
Once Traugott was confined to the office the whole day long, making a requisite squaring up of his accounts, &c.; he had been obliged to neglect his meals, and it was beginning to get very dark when he reached Berklinger’s remote dwelling. He found nobody in the first room, but from the one adjoining he heard the music of a lute. He had never heard the instrument there before. He listened; a song, from time to time interrupted, accompanied the music like a low soft sigh. He opened the door. O Heaven! with her back towards him sat a female figure, dressed in old-German style with a high lace ruff, exactly like the picture. At the noise which Traugott unavoidably made on entering, the figure rose, laid the lute on the table, and turned round. It was she, Felicia herself! “Felicia!” cried Traugott enraptured; and he was about to throw himself at the feet of his beloved divinity when he felt a powerful hand laid upon his collar behind, and himself dragged out of the room by some one with the strength of a giant. “You abandoned wretch! you incomparable villain!” screamed old Berklinger, pushing him on before him, “so that was your love for art? Do you mean to murder me?” And therewith he hurled him out at the door, whilst a knife glittered in his hand. Traugott flew downstairs and hurried back home stupefied; nay, half crazy with mingled delight and terror.
He tossed restlessly on his couch, unable to sleep. “Felicia! Felicia!” he exclaimed time after time, distracted with pain and the pangs of love. “You are there, you are there, and I may not see you, may not clasp you in my arms! You love me, oh yes! that I know. From the pain which pierces my breast so savagely I feel that you love me.”
The morning sun shone brightly into Traugott’s chamber; then he got up, and determined, let the cost be what it might, that he would solve the mystery of Berklinger’s house. He hurried off to the old man’s, but his feelings may not be described when he saw all the windows wide open and the maid-servants busy sweeping out the rooms. He was struck with a presentiment of what had happened. Berklinger had left the house late on the night before along with his son, and was gone nobody knew where. A carriage drawn by two horses had fetched away the box of paintings and the two little trunks which contained all Berklinger’s scanty property. He and his son had followed half an hour later. All inquiries as to where they had gone remained fruitless: no livery-stable keeper had let out horses and carriage to persons such as Traugott described, and even at the town gates he could learn nothing for certain; — in short, Berklinger had disappeared as if he had flown away on the mantle9 of Mephistopheles.
Traugott went back home prostrated by despair. “She is gone! She is gone! The beloved of my soul! All — all is lost!” Thus he cried as he rushed past Herr Elias Roos (for he happened to be just at that moment in the entrance hall) towards his own room. “God bless my soul!” cried Herr Elias, pulling and tugging at his wig. “Christina! Christina!” he shouted, till the whole house echoed. “Christina! You disgraceful girl! My good-for-nothing daughter!” The clerks and others in the office rushed out with terrified faces; the book-keeper asked amazed, “But Herr Roos?” Herr Roos, however, continued to scream without stopping, “Christina! Christina!” At this point Miss Christina stepped in through the house-door, and raising her broad-brimmed straw-hat just a little and smiling, asked what her good father was bawling in this outrageous way for. “I strictly beg you will let such unnecessary running away alone,” Herr Elias began to storm at her. “My son-in-law is a melancholy fellow and as jealous as a Turk. You’d better stay quietly at home, or else there’ll be some mischief done. My partner is in there screaming and crying about his betrothed, because she will gad about so.” Christina looked at the book-keeper astounded; but he gave a significant glance in the direction of the cupboard in the office where Herr Roos was in the habit of keeping his cinnamon water. “You’d better go in and console your betrothed,” he said as he strode away. Christina went up to her own room, only to make a slight change in her dress, and give out the clean linen, and discuss with the cook what would have to be done about the Sunday roast-joint, and at the same time pick up a few items of town-gossip, then she would go at once and see what really was the matter with her betrothed.
You know, kindly, reader, that we all of us, when in Traugott’s case, have to go through our appointed stages; we can’t help ourselves. Despair is succeeded by a dull dazed sort of moody reverie, in which the crisis is wont to occur; and this then passes over into a milder pain, in which Nature is able to apply her remedies with effect.
It was in this stage of sad but beneficial pain that, some days later, Traugott again sat on the Carlsberg, gazing out as before upon the sea-waves and the grey misty clouds which had gathered over Hela; but he was not seeking as before to discover the destiny reserved for him in days to come; no, for all that he had hoped for, all that he had dimly dreamt of, had vanished. “Oh!” said he, “my call to art was a bitter, bitter deception. Felicia was the phantom who deluded me into the belief in that which never had any other existence but in the insane fancy of a fever-stricken mind. It’s all over. I will give it all up, and go back — into my dungeon. I have made up my mind; I will go back.” Traugott again went back to his work in the office, whilst the wedding-day with Christina was once more fixed. On the day before the wedding was to come off, Traugott was standing in Arthur’s Hall, looking, not without a good deal of heart-rending sadness, at the fateful figures of the old burgomaster and his page, when his eye fell upon the broker to whom Berklinger was trying to sell his stock. Without pausing to think, almost mechanically in fact, he walked up to him and asked, “Did you happen to know the strikingly curious old man with the black curly beard who some time ago frequently used to be seen here along with a handsome youth?” “Why, to be sure I did,” answered the broker; “that was the crack-brained old painter Gottfried Berklinger.” “Then don’t you know where he has gone to and where he is now living?” asked Traugott again. “Ay, that I do,” replied the broker; “he has now for a long time been living quietly at Sorrento along with his daughter.” “With his daughter Felicia?” asked Traugott so vehemently and so loudly that everybody turned round to look at him. “Why, yes,” went on the broker calmly, “that was, you know, the pretty youth who always followed the old man about everywhere. Half Dantzic knew that he was a girl, notwithstanding that the crazy old fellow thought there was not a single soul could guess it. It had been prophesied to him that if his daughter were ever to get married he would die a shameful death; and accordingly he determined never to let anybody know anything about her, and so he passed her off everywhere as his son.” Traugott stood like a statue; then he ran off through the streets — away out of the town-gates — into the open country, into the woods, loudly lamenting, “Oh! miserable wretch that I am! It was she — she, herself; I have sat beside her scores and hundreds of times — have breathed her breath — pressed her delicate hands — looked into her beautiful eyes — heard her sweet words — and now I have lost her! No; not lost I will follow her into the land of art. I acknowledge the finger of destiny. Away — away to Sorrento.”
He hurried back home. Herr Elias Roos got in his way; Traugott laid hold of him and carried him along with him into the room. “I shall never marry Christina, never!” he screamed. “She looks like Voluptas (Pleasure) and Luxuries (Wantonness), and her hair is like that of Ira (Wrath), in the picture in Arthur’s Hall. O Felicia! Felicia! My beautiful darling! Why do you stretch out your arms so longingly towards me? I am coming, I am coming. And now let me tell you, Herr Elias,” he continued, again laying hold of the pale merchant, “you will never see me in your damned office again. What do I care for your cursed ledgers and day-books? I am a painter, ay, and a good painter too. Berklinger is my master, my father, my all, and you are nothing — nothing at all.” And therewith he gave Herr Elias a good shaking. Herr Elias, however, began to shout at the top of his voice, “Help! help! Come here, folks! Help! My son-in-law’s gone mad. My partner’s in a raging fit Help! help!” Everybody came running out of the office. Traugott had released his hold upon Elias and now sank down exhausted in a chair. They all gathered round him; but when he suddenly leapt to his feet and cried with a wild look, “What do you all want?” they all hurried off out of the room in a string, Herr Elias in the middle.
Soon afterwards there was a rustling of a silk dress, and a voice asked, “Have you really gone crazed, my dear Herr Traugott, or are you only jesting?” It was Christina. “I am not the least bit crazed, my angel,” replied Traugott, “nor is it one whit truer that I am jesting. Pray compose yourself, my dear, but our wedding won’t come off to-morrow; I shall never marry you, neither to-morrow, nor at any other time.” “There is not the least need of it,” said Christina very calmly. “I have not been particularly pleased with you for some time, and some one I know will value it far differently if he may only lead home as his bride the rich and pretty Miss Christina Roos. Adieu!” Therewith she rustled off. “She means the book-keeper,” thought Traugott. As soon as he had calmed down somewhat he went to Herr Elias and explained to him in convincing terms that he need not expect to have him either as his son-in-law or as his partner in the business. Herr Elias reconciled himself to the inevitable; and repeated with downright honest joy in the office again and again that he thanked God to have got rid of that crazy-headed Traugott — even after the latter was a long, long way distant from Dantzic.
On at length arriving at the longed-for country, Traugott found a new life awaiting him, bright and brilliant. At Rome he was introduced to the circle of the German colony of painters and shared in their studies. Thus it came to pass that he stayed there longer than would seem to have been permissible in the face of his longing to find Felicia again, by which he had hitherto been so restlessly urged onwards. But his longing was now grown weaker; it shaped itself in his heart like a fascinating dream, whose misty shimmer enveloped his life on all sides, so that he believed that all he did and thought, and all his artistic practice, were turned towards the higher supernatural regions of blissful intuitions. All the female figures which his now experienced artistic skill enabled him to create bore lovely Felicia’s features. The young painters were greatly struck by the exquisitely beautiful face, the original of which they in vain sought to find in Rome; they overwhelmed Traugott with multitudes of questions as to where he had seen the beauty. Traugott however was very shy of telling of his singular adventure in Dantzic, until at last, after the lapse of several months, an old Königsberg friend, Matuszewski by name, who had come to Rome to devote himself entirely to art, declared joyfully that he had seen there — in Rome, the girl whom Traugott copied in all his pictures. Traugott’s wild delight may be imagined. He no longer concealed what it was that had attracted him so strongly to art, and urged him on with such irresistible power into Italy; and his Dantzic adventure proved so singular and so attractive that they all promised to search eagerly for the lost loved one.
Matuszewski’s efforts were the most successful. He had soon found out where the girl lived, and discovered moreover that she really was the daughter of a poor old painter, who just at that period was busy putting a new coat on the walls of the church Trinita del Monte. All these things agreed nicely. Traugott at once hastened to the church in question along with Matuszewski; and in the painter, whom he saw working up on a very high scaffolding, he really thought he recognised old Berklinger. Thence the two friends hurried off to the old man’s dwelling, without having been noticed by him. “It is she,” cried Traugott, when he saw the painter’s daughter standing on the balcony, occupied with some sort of feminine work. “Felicia, my Felicia!” he exclaimed aloud in his joy, as he burst into the room. The girl looked up very much alarmed. She had Felicia’s features; but it was not Felicia. In his bitter disappointment poor Traugott’s wounded heart was rent as if from innumerable dagger-thrusts. In a few words Matuszewski explained all to the girl. In her pretty shy confusion, with her cheeks deep crimson, and her eyes cast down upon the ground, she made a marvellously attractive picture to look at; and Traugott, whose first impulse had been quickly to retire, nevertheless, after casting but a single pained glance at her, remained standing where he was, as though held fast by silken bonds. His friend was not backward in saying all sorts of complimentary things to pretty Dorina, and so helped her to recover from the constraint and embarrassment into which she had been thrown by the extraordinary manner of their entrance. Dorina raised the “dark fringed curtains of her eyes” and regarded the stranger with a sweet smile, and said that her father would soon come home from his work, and would be very pleased to see some German painters, for he esteemed them very highly. Traugott was obliged to confess that, exclusive of Felicia, no girl had ever excited such a warm interest in him as Dorina did. She was in fact almost a second Felicia; the only differences were that Dorina’s features seemed to him less delicate and more sharply cut, and her hair was darker. It was the same picture, only painted by Raphael instead of by Rubens.
It was not long before the old gentleman came in; and Traugott now plainly saw that he had been greatly misled by the height of the scaffolding in the church, on which the old man had stood. Instead of his being the strong Berklinger, he was a thin, mean-looking little old man, timid and crushed by poverty. A deceptive accidental light in the church had given his clean-shaved chin an appearance similar to Berklinger’s black curly beard. In conversing about art matters the old man unfolded considerable ripe practical knowledge; and Traugott made up his mind to cultivate his acquaintance; for though his introduction to the family had been so painful, their society now began to exercise a more and more agreeable influence upon him.
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