Before we were wicked, p.1
Before We Were Wicked, page 1
ALSO BY ERIC JEROME DICKEY
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Names: Dickey, Eric Jerome, author.
Title: Before we were wicked / Eric Jerome Dickey.
Description: New York, New York : Dutton, [2019]
Identifiers: LCCN 2018011646 | ISBN 9781524744038 (hardcover) | ISBN 9781524744045 (ebook)
Subjects: | GSAFD: Romantic suspense fiction. | Erotic fiction.
Classification: LCC PS3554.I319 B44 2019 | DDC 813/.54—dc23
LC record available at https://lccn.loc.gov/2018011646
This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, business establishments, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.
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For Carolyn. For Virginia. For Lila. For Vardaman.
CONTENTS
Also by Eric Jerome Dickey
Title Page
Copyright
Dedication
Epigraph
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Chapter 37
Chapter 38
Chapter 39
Chapter 40
Chapter 41
Chapter 42
Acknowledgments
About the Author
We are torn between a nostalgia for the familiar and an urge for the foreign and strange. As often as not, we are homesick most for the places we have never known.
—Carson McCullers
Love is an untamed force. When we try to control it, it destroys us.
—Paulo Coelho
Birds born in a cage think flying is an illness.
—Alejandro Jodorowsky
CHAPTER 1
Los Angeles, 1996
THAT FRIDAY NIGHT we’d been sent to Club Fetish by our employer, San Bernardino.
I was a bill collector, a small-time enforcer, and had to talk to a stubborn man about an overdue debt. He was ninety days late with the duckets.
That was the night I met her.
I was driving; had the top down on my convertible Benz, warm air turning cool as we moved through desert county down unforgiving La Cienega Boulevard. La Cienega was Spanish for “the swamp” and rightfully so, since it was always inundated with traffic. My coworker and I had rolled north from the edges of Culver City to the overcrowded area up into Hollywood, had left the workingmen’s zip codes around ten P.M. and mixed in with the pretenders and tourists rocking BMWs, Lamborghinis, and Maseratis. A couple of DeLorean DMC-12s were on the road with the luxury and sports cars. A Ghanaian who called himself Jake Ellis was at my side. He was my wingman. We were well dressed, fashionable, as I moved us from Leimert Park to the plastic and pretentious side of Los Angeles, the mile-and-a-half stretch of Sunset between Hollywood and Beverly Hills known worldwide as the Sunset Strip. Bright lights, six lanes of snarling traffic. Hundreds of clubs and bars existed on a snaking street that stretched from the bustle of downtown LA’s Garment District and her skid row to the ocean-side mansions of the rich and more-famous-than-rich in Malibu. One end of Sunset was poverty and obscurity, and the opposite end was fame or fortune, or fame and fortune if enough people loved your acting, your directing, or the cocaine you sold. That twenty-two-mile boulevard was a metaphor. It was everyman’s journey. Not many made it from Crackland to Cocaineville. Men like me had started in the middle but still had spent all of their lives trying to make it from one end to the other. Women had done the same. I wasn’t even halfway. Most days felt like I was still at the starting gate. But I was young. I had time.
As we crawled past the Comedy Store, Jake Ellis asked, “Bruv, we set?”
Checking out droves of foreign women as the club hopped, I nodded. “We set, bro. We set.”
“You strapped?”
“Yeah. But I’m leaving it in the stash spot. Security’s gonna search us.”
Jake Ellis nodded. “Some fine women out tonight.”
“Always. From all over the world. Every woman in the world ends up here at some point.”
“Women in Ghana and Nigeria still look better.”
“I’ll bet they do.”
“How would you know?”
“You say it over and over.”
I cruised the section of West Hollywood bounded by Doheny Drive on the west and Crescent Heights Boulevard on the east, went down a mile and a half of that metaphor called the Sunset Strip, where celebrities went to overdose curbside, hollered at a few honeys from the car, took advantage of rocking a convertible, then turned back around, headed to our official destination. The Strip was in party mode. It was always in party mode.
When the sun set, the lights were brighter than Vegas and the sky was polluted with billboards pimping out the latest up-and-coming Hollywood movie. People sat in traffic, bumper to bumper, from sundown until two in the morning. Headlights for miles; brake lights for days. The mile-and-a-half commercial strip was packed with restaurants and clubs. Sunset Boulevard was drug central, Cocaine University, the Hollywood culture on steroids.
Jake Ellis asked, “Heard from that girl you broke up with?”
“I called Lupita a few times. Left a couple of messages. Left my pager number. Nothing.”
“She’s got a new dude and she’s not looking back this way.”
“So it goes.”
“Not many women can handle what we do.”
“Never should have told her.”
“I told you that from jump street.”
With Jake Ellis at my side, I stepped into the spotlight of a swank alcohol- and cocaine-filled club near the Boulevard of Broken Dreams, blended with a twenty-one-and-over c rowd rocking it out to Biggie Smalls. Mostly white people. White people loved rap music the way people from Memphis loved Beale Street barbecue. Men grabbed their dicks if they loved hip-hop and women rubbed their tits if they loved Big Poppa.
Jake Ellis said, “Spot is hot.”
“Packed like a can of sardines every night and this motherfucker crying broke.”
“Boss man will be here tonight?”
“He’ll be here. He’s back from Cancún, and San Bernardino verified he’d be here.”
“How bad we have to hurt this one?”
“Bad enough for him to never miss another payment to San Bernardino.”
“Pretty bad.”
“Yeah, pretty bad. But not as bad as we did that guy down in San Diego.”
* * *
—
WITH JAKE ELLIS leading the way, we moved through the controlled madness. Everybody flocked to the most expensive clubs, paid a grip to park, then popped E and did more white lines than were on I-5 going north. I never understood this life. It was a spot where liberals and freaks went to prove how liberal and freaky they were by having a bathroom fling or a ten-minute parking-lot rendezvous with someone from another culture, and some performed as strangers watched the show. There was plenty of girl-on-girl action in the stalls. Hollywood men were in back seats of luxury cars giving other Hollywood men brain too. Or those same men, those male ingénues who were hungry for fame, stood on a powerful man’s designated side of a glory hole. Anything to get a movie deal. Or just to get laid.
Jake Ellis said, “Your people are wild.”
“Shit, these ain’t my people.”
“They’re Americans. You’re American.”
“I’m African American.”
“No such thing because there is no such country.”
“That joke is getting old, bro.”
“There is no country called African America on a map. All of you capitalists are Americans.”
AIDS had arrived and made people think that getting herpes wasn’t such a bad deal after all. Gays died and President Reagan turned a blind eye because he was too busy with his war on drugs, which was really an extension of Nixon’s war on hippies and black and brown people. Hypocritical religious leaders were on the air preaching and smiling and laughing that AIDS was the work of God, his way of ridding the world of homosexuals. That was until white men saw masculine men like Rock Hudson catch the virus, wither, and succumb. Then God left the equation. AIDS billboards stood high on every boulevard in West Hollywood and South Central, but the rich and famous and their hangers-on still partied like it was already 1999. Some places, anything goes. Club Fetish was one of those spots. It was a new club, and people loved new things. Our boss, San Bernardino, had fronted an ambitious foreign man part of the money to make the club happen; was owed in the five figures, and the agreed-upon payments hadn’t been made since the club opened three months ago. We’d been sent to deliver a message. Not to Cabbage Patch or chat.
But that didn’t mean we weren’t gonna party a bit and check out the talent.
Jake Ellis was a Ghanaian who could be a boxing contender. He had grown up in abject poverty and used his hands to fight himself out of what would be called his African ghetto. Both of us grew up in boxing gyms, only his had no walls and no roof and his atmosphere was the weather. When we traveled as a team, it was always about the money. It was always for money owed to San Bernardino. We were the last men you wanted to see step in a room looking for you. We had been busting heads and breaking limbs for San Bernardino for three years. That money was being used to put me through college at UCLA. I was a sophomore, in my second year. I had started a year late because of lack of money. I had found a job that paid in cash, and doing a little wrong was going to make my life a lot more right.
I hurt people, but they weren’t good people. They always had it coming. There were bad people out there, but I was arrogant enough to think I was the baddest of the bad. There were wicked people, but I could be more wicked if I needed to be. When a man was young and yet to be humbled, hurting people could seem like fun.
I was twenty-one, rocking a convertible, young, dumb, and full of come, and still a man not easily distracted.
But when I saw her standing in the crowd, when my eyes touched hers, that changed.
Long, thick, wavy hair. Brown skin, sweet like agave. Pretty enough for Tom Ford to hire her for his fall Gucci line. White short skirt, red high heels, the right amount of cleavage given up by her red blouse. She should’ve been on the cover of Vogue Paris. There were a lot of fine-ass trust-fund girls in this arena sponsored by Yves Saint Laurent, Dolce & Gabbana, Victoria’s Secret, and Louis Vuitton. But she was the one who had my attention. It was more than her looks. It was all about energy. I saw her when Jake Ellis and I crossed the dance floor, saw her tugging on her hungry miniskirt, slowed my stroll and watched her pull it down. Soon as she did, it again tried to rise over the curve of her butt. She tugged. It was a never-ending battle. An erotic battle. I prayed for the miniskirt to win. She caught me looking and I winked at her. She moved her hair from her face.
Then she smiled. All it took to start trouble was a smile. That was how Delilah got Sampson. The cutie with the booty was with a guy who rocked a suit, but she stood out in the crowd of American Express–carrying cokeheads. Cutie had some energy that tugged me her way. Her gravitational pull was a beast. That energy muted the music and made everyone else fade into the background. For a moment, it was just me and her. Adam and Eve. Only my Eve probably wore a headscarf to bed and her hair smelled like coconut oil. And maybe she liked patchouli and burned incense every now and then. The instant I saw her, I was snared, and it took my mind off the reason I was there.
I grabbed his shoulder, told Jake Ellis, “Hold up, bro.”
“What’s up, bruv?”
The cutie stood next to her date, a well-dressed bro who looked successful. He was holding her hand, but she wasn’t holding his hand in return. She looked at me, touched her hair. A man held her hand and with a boldness, she smiled at me. I knew what that smile meant. She wanted to initiate something but didn’t know how to get free.
I posted half a smile and told Jake Ellis, “Keep your eye on the target.”
“He’ll be here all night.”
I motioned toward the pretty brown skin. “What you think?”
“She’s what we call a tonga.”
“Tonga?”
“That’s a Twi expression—a dialect of my country’s Akan language.”
“Break it down.”
“It means she is a gorgeous, overwhelmingly appealing woman.”
“No doubt.”
“And women like her have the power to lead the strongest of men into hard situations.”
“I can handle her.”
“The guy with her is looking at you like he’s pissed that she’s staring at you.”
“I can whup his ass, then make him shine my shoes and wash my car.”
“Bruv, looks like pretty boy is ready to rip you a new one.”
“If a fight breaks out, don’t jump in it unless someone else helps pretty boy.”
Jake Ellis saw a hot momma on the other side of the club. A Janet Jackson type. She was checking him out and so were at least a half dozen other women. Jake Ellis went to the left and I went to the right.
Body checking people as I strolled, I swam upstream to that white skirt and stood in front of her.
I said, “Whassup?”
She responded, “Hi.”
I sized up the guy with her. He was built like a power forward, at least six foot six, weighed two hundred and some change, bigger than me, was a Gregory Abbott type, had the Al B. Sure! complexion that made panties drop, but I could knock the light skin off of that motherfucker. He looked at me, uneasy, and I put my eyes on that white skirt hiding the heaven standing next to him. He had her. I wanted her. It was the primitive part of a man aroused.
Her guy stopped sipping his drink, confused. “What’s going on?”
“I’m not talking to you.”
“Is there a problem?”
“Yeah. There is a problem. A big problem. You’re with my girl.”
“Excuse me?”
“You heard me.”
I told pretty boy that he was talking to my girlfriend and advised him to skedaddle while he could still skedaddle. He stared me down, saw this wasn’t a joke. Then the big man backed the fuck away. He was a big man, and I was a solid man. I got in his face, like boxers at the start of a fight. He knew better. He nodded good-bye to White Skirt, said something to her in a foreign language, then nervously vanished into the crowd.
