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Table of Contents
Title Page
The Color of Gravity (Liminal Sigh, #1)
Dedication
Along Roads Less Traveled
Four Years, Or Eternity
Monologues And Revelations
Boundaries Meant To Be Crossed
Here Is Not There
Battles Waged, Once Upon A Time
Tales As Old As History Itself
Exit . . . Stage Left, Apparently
Trees, They So Love Their Gossip
The Devil You Don’t Know
Ghosts And Seven Endings
Gravity Always Keeps The Course
The Path Of Defiance
Two Sides To Every Story
In The Here And Now
Deeper Than Oceans
What Goes In Must Come Out
Into That Good Night, Travel Well
A Disappearing Act
The Comfort In Confession
This Mortal Coil, In Superposition
How To Rebuild A Home
Endings, And The Beginning
One Day, I’ll Tell The Story Of You
Epilogue
A Personal Note To You (Yes, You)
Acknowledgments
Author’s Notes
References & Attribution
About The Author
The Color of Gravity is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either products of the author’s imagination or used ficticiously. The roles of Asmodeus and Sarah, although creatures of longstanding lore, arose through the author’s curious (and sometimes wild) whims . . . because that’s just how she rolls.
THE COLOR OF GRAVITY (Liminal Sigh, Book 1)
Copyright © 2024 Alison Huff
Edited by Regan Brown
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First printing, 2024.
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Dedication
TO MY FAMILY: KEV, Jules, Lore, Mere, Jolyn—
Thank you for putting up with me, and for reminding me to eat every now and again. I’m alive because of you.
TO MY DAD, MY BROTHER, and all those lost too soon, taken to wherever we go from here—
I like to think that you’re proud of me and what I’ve done. Not just the writing, but the living. I’ve got them. And we’ll all see you again.
TO EVERYONE ELSE I know—
All those times I mentioned in passing that I was writing a book but it was “too difficult/weird/awkward to explain without sounding stupid . . . ” This was it. I really hope it was worth waiting for.
Along Roads Less Traveled
* * *
SOME DAYS, LIKE THIS one, Bellamy’s disappearance was more than Seralynn thought she could bear. Trudging through the forest, she clung to hope that the autumn air might clear her head and inspire her to think of something—anything—she hadn’t already.
The smallest idea, carelessly overlooked, might finally lead to an answer if she only walked far enough to find it.
Not one tangible clue emerged in the wake of her sister’s departure. Two endless months passed in what felt like the blink of an eye while everything remained in stillness exactly as Bellamy had left it, empty walls holding their breath as though she might return home at any moment.
There were no signs of foul play. No unfamiliar fingerprints marred the surface of any object she owned—the police made sure of that much. Not one item in her home appeared out of place and as far as anyone could tell, nothing was missing.
Except for Bellamy.
Seralynn hesitated to give any credit to the ridiculous notion that her sister could be a legitimate X-File, vaporized into thin air. Although, from time to time, her imagination ran wild and gave the idea a wisp of contemplation despite her better judgment. She knew that Bell would laugh at her—quite mercilessly—for entertaining the possibility of alien abduction, yet it was one Seralynn couldn’t help but consider every once in a while.
And so she walked, as she often did, alone and without any particular direction in mind.
They’d spent their entire lives in this familiar place, the comforting thousand-acre parcel of land her family owned and farmed for generations. As children, Bellamy and Seralynn explored every tree, every meadow, every curve of the shallow stream that split the land in two. The well-worn trails that still traversed the forest floor were makeshift roads the girls once named together, forging a private frontier neighborhood belonging only to them and their spirited imaginations.
More than twenty years later, the street signs they’d fashioned from scrap wood remained firmly nailed to familiar landmark trees, legible despite being weathered and worn by the passage of time. As Seralynn walked, the rustling of fallen leaves shifting beneath her feet overpowered the dissonant whispers from tree branches above, disturbing her thoughts without remorse.
Winter would be arriving far too soon.
The lowest foliage lay contorted and unwelcoming, reduced to a skeleton of what it had been a month earlier and allowing easy detour from the established trail to lesser-traveled parts of the forest. During the warmest months, the undergrowth held its barriers steadfast and impassable; roaming through the thicket was akin to navigating a Midwestern deciduous jungle. So late into autumn, even the poison ivy accepted defeat in temporary death, its angry, gnarled vines snaking around dormant trees. Wild multiflora roses invaded the land generations before but their thorny branches proved far less of a hidden threat when they no longer wore their leaves as camouflage.
Seralynn headed farther into the woods, off of the habitual path and northward in the direction of the stream she so loved to visit as a child. As she navigated the downward slope of one hillside, a ring of small boulders came into view, nestled along the bottom of a secluded and unexplored valley.
She stilled, wondering if she had walked farther than she realized. Nothing before her seemed familiar.
The pale afternoon light had not shifted enough to mark a lost passage of time, of that much, she was certain. Surveying her surroundings, Seralynn felt the faintest glimmer of recollection creep along the back of her mind like the remnants of a dream, one that slipped just beyond her grasp upon waking.
The more she tried to remember this place, the farther it withdrew, her mind’s eye losing sight of the horizon through gathering mist.
Before her lay twelve rocks, widely and evenly spaced in a near-perfect circle. A primitive hearth fashioned from much smaller, rounded stones rested quietly in the center, the ground between them barren from disuse.
Seralynn approached with caution, fearing she’d stumbled upon an ancient burial ground lost to time and memory, her insensitive footsteps threatening to wake its indigenous ghosts after centuries of peaceful sleep. She watched enough horror movies to know one generally shouldn’t disturb the dead and surmised that golden rule still held merit.
She crept around the perimeter of the larger stone circle. Every rock was similar in size, with only the forest-facing side chiseled flat. Upon closer examination of the nearest stone, Seralynn could barely make out a weathered engraving.
Two years, separated by a single horizontal line carved deeply with intent.
Twelve stones, twelve graves, and what she suspected were twelve bodies beneath the earth, rested together in stillness.
Seralynn pondered the nature of the cemetery, hidden from all in existence and found only by happenstance. Nearly devoured by the wilderness, it was exactly the type of place she would enjoy haunting for eternity if given the choice.
She walked from stone to stone, clockwise, studying each one she passed. The first three were far too worn to read with any accuracy; the fourth and fifth were dated in the 1700s. The lives of those paid tribute in this quiet glen spanned centuries and, as she surveyed the remaining burial markers and their advancing dates, the lack of names emerged as the most disconcerting observation.
She wondered why anyone might deserve to spend an eternity abandoned in the wilds, forgotten and alone—if each lay buried there by choice, to rest peacefully beneath a canopy of trees guarding their secrets, or if they were ostracized in death as punishment for horrible crimes against humanity.
Breath held tightly in her lungs, she mused upon their unknown loved ones, an intrusive thought for the countless, faceless souls left behind to mourn across generations.
She wondered if those families ever knew the hand fate dealt to those they’d lost. Or to those who had disappeared without word.
The sudden thought of an afterlife consigned to oblivion made Seralynn’s chest roil with liquid unease. Tears welled in her eyes, an involuntary response to the grief she carried. That constant companion moved in silent harmony with every step she took, always making its presence known when least expected.
She wasn’t sure if she’d ever get used to it.
She knelt before the oldest grave and began pulling the dead weeds, their threads entwined into rough, woolen fingers choking the headstone. Beneath an overcast sky, Seralynn labored among the stones until the daylight brushed against nightfall, the air becoming frigid with the impending
Before retracing her steps and making the journey home, she paused for a moment to admire her small act of tribute, and of hope.
It would be the first of many.
She needed to care for those twelve forgotten dead as she hoped someone might do for her one day. As someone might do for her sister.
Seralynn felt close to Bellamy’s presence among the stones resting in the quiet forest valley, long before she knew how her story would unfold.
Four Years, Or Eternity
* * *
THE DAWN CHORUS OF birdsong echoing through the darkness just moments before sunrise was a melody that always felt like home. When she was still a child, those early morning harmonies would drift into Seralynn’s dreams, their soft currents rousing her just enough to announce that at least one more hour of blissful sleep remained. She would tuck herself further beneath her bedcovers back then, embracing the comforting warmth of a cocoon spun from soft flannel blankets.
As an adult, her morning habits had not changed.
A casual onlooker would never assume that Seralynn was the daughter of a farmer and his wife. They rose before the sun kissed the horizon every single day of their lives, yet somehow, Seralynn had not inherited their morning-driven instincts—nor their love of agriculture and cow manure.
Quite the opposite.
After her parents passed away, leasing the tillable acreage of her family’s homestead seemed the wisest decision because she couldn’t bear the thought of selling the land any more than she could bear the thought of actually farming it herself.
She lay still, listening to excited chirrups heralding a new morn, but even their familiar sweetness could not lull her back to sleep once her thoughts began to wander over the checklist of things she had to do on this particular day. It was shortly past dawn on a Friday and Eloquence Through Artistry, her shop and studio, wouldn’t open for business until noon. Seralynn might have stayed in bed for at least another hour had there not been errands to run and a nine o’clock meeting with the biggest pain in her ass.
She stretched her body beneath radiant streams of sunlight pouring through sheer white curtains aglow with ethereal light. The remnants of a long and bitter winter had finally limped away in defeat, leaving the air temperate enough for windows to remain open at night, their breath flooding the room with the heady scent of a wonderful spring morning.
Seralynn emerged from bed despite a tugging desire to live there all day, slid a robe over her bare skin, and stepped across the chilly wooden floorboards of her two-story farmhouse in search of coffee. She chastised herself—as she did almost every morning—for not having yet learned how to program the machine to brew on its own. She knew that she would one day explore the secrets hidden within the depths of its operating manual and become a master coffeepot programmer once and for all, to have fresh coffee waiting for her each morning until the end of time. It was on her bucket list and everything.
#33: Master Coffeepot Programmery
Like the watched pot that refuses to boil, a coffeepot never brews under similar constraints. Seralynn showered and did all those mundane bathroom routines that herald the productive start of a brand-new day.
She slipped into comfortable, well-worn jeans and an old T-shirt that declared “I Survived The Mayan Apocalypse” before descending the stairs to pour the travel mug of coffee that would fuel her journey into town. It was eight forty-five already. She calculated the possible repercussions of canceling the meeting she dreaded attending.
It was April already and she had taxes to file.
When she pulled into the gravel parking lot of her accountant’s office, she parked next to a vehicle she’d never seen before. Seralynn had the first appointment of the day and a tiny black sports car was the only other vehicle in the lot—it had to be his. In a town as small as theirs, a hardworking community that relied on agriculture and manual labor for its survival, Alexander Larkin stood out like a rusty nail.
Those who knew him best were always careful to avoid his roughest edges.
Unfortunately for Seralynn and unless she wanted to drive more than an hour to reach the nearest city, Alex was her only option. Anything more complicated than a tax form designed for a five-year-old was out of her league. She could have taken a class or three to learn how to manage the land leases and business, but accounting never was—and never would be—her thing. Leave the maths to the math-minded, she’d always say. Or at least she would, if she had a reason to say that phrase often.
Seralynn heaved herself out of the old Jeep she refused to part with and stalked toward the glass door that read “Alexander Larkin, Tax & Accounting” with a stride in her step that screamed “DO NOT FUCK WITH ME TODAY, WORLD,” although she was positive it would do exactly that.
The tinkling of sleigh bells attached to the door was a festive warning system that broke the silence, declaring her entrance. Alex’s receptionist had not yet arrived and Seralynn began to choose a seat in the lobby a moment before she heard his voice echo through the building.
“If that’s my Nine O’ Clock, come on back.”
Without a reply, Seralynn walked along the only passage and paused at his doorway, thinking of something snarky to say in response to his command.
“I have a name, you know,” was the best she could come up with, knowing that she would think of a much better quip when it would be far too late to use it.
“Yes, you do,” Alex replied with a devilish smirk. “And it’s a very lucky thing, too. Can you imagine going through life without a name? How tragic an existence that would be.”
“Did you get my stuff?”
“You mean the disorganized shoebox of receipts and paperwork that you dropped on my desk like a tax-evading bandit? Yes. It’s a gift I look forward to receiving every year. By the way, it was lovely of you to leave that mess behind last week before dashing out the door without so much as a hello.”
“Hello,” she said with a wave of her hand.
“Still as charming as ever.”
“I am, aren’t I?” she replied. “Like fine red wine vinegar, I only get more bitter and delightful with age.”
Seralynn crossed the floor of his office and flung herself into the oversized leather chair in front of his desk. It was ridiculously comfortable but she didn’t let Alex know that she thought so.
Shuffling a stack of paperwork toward her and choosing a pen from a cup of uniform and high-end writing utensils, he gave her the rundown on the year’s income, her business expenditures, and all the tax write-offs that applied to her situation before telling Seralynn the amount the government expected to receive from her, along with his personal fees for compiling everything.
“I need you to look over these and then sign here and here, and initial here when you’re done,” he instructed, using the pen to gesture toward each space that required her attention.
The damage was not as bad as she expected. Seralynn knew that if she made herself more familiar with tax law she could have been able to project how much she would owe with decent accuracy, instead of always anticipating and bracing herself for the worst.
She signed where instructed, wrote a check, and slid the papers across his desk. His fingertips brushed her own when she returned his pen, and although she tried to quell the physical urge to cringe as she leaned back in the chair, she wasn’t entirely sure that she was successful in the endeavor.
“Have you given any consideration to my suggestion about the other thing?” Alex’s tone was cautious and reserved, two qualities he rarely, if ever, actually possessed.
Seralynn’s first instinct was to raise her defenses, to stand up and hurl insults that would reduce his walls to ash: No, she would not consider beginning the process of dismantling her sister’s estate, he was an asshole for even suggesting it and he should mind his own damned business because fuckyouverymuch.
She more than understood that the maintenance of Bellamy’s home required a considerable sum every year; the property taxes alone were almost four thousand dollars. She also knew that it likely seemed illogical to cling to it so tightly, or to believe that Bellamy might come back one day.
