Delphi collected works o.., p.582
Delphi Collected Works of Marie Corelli, page 582
part #22 of Delphi Series Series
For one blinding second, Ronsard, buffeting the wild waves, saw the face of Gloria, — that best-beloved fair face, — angelic, pitying, loving to the last, — shine on him like a star in the darkness! — the next he was whelmed into the silence of the million dead worlds beneath the sea! So at last he paid his life’s full debt. So, at last his atonement was fulfilled. If it was true, — as he had in an unguarded moment confessed, — that he had once killed a King, then the resistless Law of Compensation had worked its way with him, — inasmuch as he had been forced to render up what he cherished most, — the love of Gloria, — to the son of a King, and had ended his days in an effort to save the life of a King! For the rest, whatever the real nature of his long-hidden secret, — whatever the extent of the torture he had suffered in his conscience, his earthly punishment was over; and the story of his past crime would never be known to the living world of men. One sinner, — one sufferer among many millions, he was but a floating straw on the vast whirlpools of Time, — and whether he prayed for pardon and obtained it, whether he had worked out his own salvation or had lost it, may not be known of him, or of any of us, till God makes up the sum of life, in which perchance none of even the smallest numerals shall be found missing!
Wilder grew the night, and more tempestuous the sea, while the sky became a mountainous landscape of black and white clouds fitfully illumined by the moon, which appeared to run over their fleecy pinnacles and sable plains like some scared white creature pursued by invisible foes: The vessel on which the corpse of Lotys lay, palled in purple, and decked with flowers, flew over the waves, to all seeming with the same hunted rapidity as the moon rushed through the heavens, — and so far, though her masts bent reed-like in the wind, and her sails strained at their cordage, she had come to no harm. Tossed about as she was, rudderless and solitary, there was something almost miraculous in the way she had weathered a storm in which many a well-guided ship must inevitably have gone down. The purple pall with its heavy fringe of gold, that shrouded the coffin she carried, was drenched through and through by the sea, and the flowers on the deck were beaten and drowned in the salt spray that dashed over them.
But amid all the ruined blossoms of earth, by the side of the dead, and full-fronted to the tempest, stood one living man, for whom life had no charm, and death no terror — the King! What had been reported of him was true — he had resigned his Throne and left his kingdom for the sake of adventuring forth on this great voyage of Discovery, — this swift and stormy sail with Lotys to the Land of the Unknown! Whether it was a madness, or a sick dream that fevered his blood, he knew not — but once the woman he loved was dead, every hope, every ambition in him died too — and he felt himself to be a mere corpse of clay, unwillingly dragged about by a passionate soul that longed, and strove, and fought in its shell for larger freedom. All his life, so to speak, save for the last few months, he had been a prisoner; — he had never, as he had himself declared, known the sweetness of liberty; — but for the sake of Lotys, — had she lived, — he would have been content to still wear the chains of monarchy, and would have endeavoured to accomplish such good as he might, and make such reforms as could possibly benefit his country. But, after all, it is only a ‘possibility ‘that any reforms will avail to satisfy any people long; and he was philosopher and student enough to know that whatsoever good one may endeavour to do for the wider happiness and satisfaction of the multitude, they are as likely as not to turn and cry out— “Thy good is our evil! Thy love to us is but thine own serving!” — and so turn and rend their best benefactors. With the loss of Lotys, he lost the one mainspring of faith and enthusiasm which would have helped him to match himself against his destiny and do battle with it. A great weariness seized upon him, — a longing for some wider scope of action than such futile work as that of governing, or attempting to govern, a handful of units whose momentary Order was bound, in a certain period of time to lapse into Disorder — then into Order again, and so on till the end of all.
Hence his resolve to sail the seas with Lotys to that ‘other side of Death’ of which she had spoken, — that ‘other side’ which an inward instinct told him was not Death, but Life! He could not of himself analyse the emotions which moved him. He could not take the measure of his grief; it was too wide and too painful. He might have said with Heine: “Go, prepare me a bier of strong wood, longer than the bridge at Mayence, and bring twelve giants stronger than the vigorous St. Christopher of Cologne Cathedral on the Rhine; — they will carry the coffin and fling it in the sea, — so large a coffin needs a large grave! Would you know why the bier must be so long and large? With myself, I lay there at the same time all my love and my sorrow!”
Sovereignty, — a throne, — a kingdom, — even an Empire — seemed poor without love to grace them. Had he never known the pure ideal passion, he would still have missed it; — but having known it — having felt its power environing him day and night with a holy and spiritual tenderness, he could not but follow it when it was withdrawn — follow it, ay, even into the realms of blackest night! Like the ‘Pilgrim of Love,’ delineated by one of the greatest painters in the world, he recked nothing of the darkness closing in, — of the pain and bewilderment of the road, which could only lead to interminable, inexplicable mystery; — he felt the hand of the great Angel upon him — the Angel of Love whom alone he cared to serve, — and if Love’s way led to Death, why then Death would be surely as sweet as Love! A great and almost divine calm had taken possession of him from the moment he had fulfilled his intention of boarding the ship which carried away from him all that was mortal of the woman he had secretly idolised. The wild turbulence of Nature around him had only intensified his perfect content. He had pleased himself by taking care of the sleeping Lotys — such tender care! He had tried to shield her coffin from the onslaughts of the fierce waves; he had protected many of the funeral flowers from destruction, and had lifted the gold fringe of the purple pall many and many a time out of the drenching spray cast over it. There was a strange delight in doing this. Lotys knew! That was his chief reflection. And ‘on the other side of Death,’ as she had said, they would meet — and to that ‘other side’ they were sailing together with all the speed Heaven’s own forces could give to their journey. Oh, that ‘other side’! What brightness, what peace, what glory, what mutual comprehension, what deep and perfect and undisturbed love would be found there! He smiled as he watched the swollen and angry sea, — the rising billows shouldering each other and bearing each other down; — how much grander, how much more spiritual and near to God, he thought, was this conflict of the elements, than the petty wars of men! — their desires of conquest, their greed of gold, their thirst for temporal power!
“My Lotys!” he said aloud; “You knew the world! You knew the littleness of worldly ambition! You knew that there is only one thing worth living and dying for, and that is Love! Your heart was all love, my Lotys! Deprived of love for yourself, you gave all you had to those who needed it, and when you found my love for you might do me harm in the People’s honour, you sacrificed your life! Alas, my Lotys! If you could but have realised that through you, and the love of you, I a King, who had long missed my vocation, could alone be truly worthy of sovereignty!”
He laid his hand on her coffin with a tender touch, as though to soothe its quiet occupant.
“My beloved!” he said, “We shall meet very soon! — very soon now! ‘on the other side of death’ — and God will understand, — and be pitiful!”
The storm now seemed to be at its height. The monstrous waves, as they arose to combat the frail vessel in her swift career, made a bellowing clamour, and once or twice the ship reeled and staggered, as though about to lurch forward and go under. But the King felt no fear, — no horror of his approaching fate. He watched the wild scene with interest, even with appreciation, — as an artist or painter might watch the changes in a landscape which he purposes immortalising. His past life appeared to him like a picture in a magic crystal, — blurred and uncertain, — a mist of shapes without decided meaning or colour. He thought of the beautiful cold Queen, his wife, — and wondered whether she would weep for his loss.
“Not she!” — and he almost smiled at the idea— “Perhaps there will be a ballad written about it — and she will listen, unchanged, unmoved — as she listened that night when her minstrels sang:
‘We shall drift along till we both grow old
Looking back on the days that have passed us by,
When “what might have been,” can no longer be,
When I lost you and you lost me!’
That was a quaint song — and a true one! She will not weep!”
Then he went over in memory the various scenes of his life — brilliant, useless, and without results — when he was Heir-Apparent; — he thought of his two young sons, Rupert and Cyprian, who were as indifferent to him as young foals to their sire, — and anon, his mind turned more tenderly to his eldest-born, Prince Humphry, and the fair girl he had so boldly wedded, — the happy twain, who, returning homeward, would find the Throne ready for their occupancy, and a whole nation waiting to welcome them.
“God bless them both!” he said aloud, lifting his calm eyes to the wild heavens— “They have the one shield and buckler against all misfortune — Love! And I thank God that I have not the sin upon my conscience of having broken that shield away from them; or of having forced their young lives asunder! Wiser than I, they took their own way and kept it! — may they so keep it always!”
Then a thought of ‘the People’ came to him — the People who had latterly taken to idolising him, and making of him a hero greater than any monarch whose deeds have ever been glorified since history began.
“They will forget!” he said— “Nowadays Nations have short memories! Battles and conquests, defeats and victories pass over the national mind as rapidly and changefully as the clouds are flying over the sky to-night! — the People remember neither their disgraces nor their triumphs in the life of individual Self which absorbs each little unit. Their idolatry of one monarch quickly changes to their idolatry of another! I shall perhaps be regretted for six months as my father was — and then — consigned with my ancestors to oblivion! Nothing so beautiful or so gladdening to the heart of a Monarch as the love of his People! — but — at the same time — nothing so changeable or uncertain as such love! — nothing so purely temporal! And nothing so desperately sad, so irremediably tragic as the death of kings!”
Rapidly he reviewed the situation — the new Ministry, the new Government members were elected — and business would begin again immediately after the Crown Prince’s return. All the reforms he had been prepared to carry out, would be effected, — and then would come the new King’s Coronation. What a dazzling picture of resplendent beauty would be seen in Gloria, robed and crowned! His heart beat rapidly at the mere contemplation of it. For himself he had no thought — save to realise that the strange manner of his disappearance from his kingdom would probably only awaken a sense of resentment in ‘society,’ and a vague superstition among the masses, who would for a long time cling to the belief that he was not dead, but that like King Arthur he had only gone to the ‘island valley of Avillion’ to “heal him of his grievous wound,” — from which deep vale of rest he would return, rejoicing in his strength again. Sergius Thord would know the truth — for to Sergius Thord he had written the truth. And the letter would reach him this very night — this night of his last earthly voyage.
“When his great sorrow has abated,” he said, “he too will forget! He has all his work to do — all his career to make — and he will make it well and nobly! Even for his sake, and for his future, it is well that I am gone — for if he ever came to know, — if he were to guess even remotely, through Zouche’s ravings, or some other means, the reason why Lotys killed herself, he would hate me, — and with justice! He loves the People — he will serve their Cause better than I!”
The moon stared whitely out of a cloud just then, — and to his amazement and awe, he suddenly perceived the black shadow of a man lifting itself slowly, slowly from the hold of the ship, like a massive bulk, or ghost in the gloom. Unable to imagine what this might be, or how any other human creature save himself would venture to sail with the dead on a voyage whose end could be but destruction, he advanced a step towards that looming shape, and started back with a cry, as he recognised the very man he had been thinking of — Sergius Thord!
“Sergius!” he cried aghast.
“King!” and Thord looked scarcely human in the pale fleeting moonbeams, as he too stared in half-maddened wonder at the face and form of a companion on this dread journey such as he had never expected to see. “What do you here in the midst of the sea and the storm? You should be at home! — playing the fool in your Palace! — giving audiences on your throne! — you — you have no right to die with Lotys, whom I loved!”
“With Lotys whom you loved!” echoed the King; “You loved her — true! But I loved her more!”
“You lie!” said Thord, furiously; “No man — no King, — no Emperor of all the world, could ever have loved Lotys as I loved her! These great waves waiting to devour us — dead and living together — are not more insatiate in their passion for us than I in my passion for Lotys! I loved her! — and when she scorned me — when she rejected me, — when she openly confessed that she loved you — the King — what remained for her but death! Death, rather than dishonour at your Royal hands, Sir!” And he laughed fiercely — a laugh with the ring of madness in it. “I rescued her as a child from starvation and misery — and so I may say I gave her her life. What I gave, I took again — I had the right to take it! I would not see her shamed by you — dishonoured by you — branded by you! — I did the only thing left to me to save her from you — I killed her!”
With a loud cry the King, no longer so much king as man, with every passion roused, sprang at him.
“You killed her? Oh, treacherous devil! They said she killed herself!”
“Hands off!” cried Thord, suddenly pointing a pistol at him; “I will shoot you as readily as I shot her if you touch me! She killed herself you think? Oh, yes — in a strange way! Her last words were: ‘Say I did it myself! Tell the King I did it myself!’ A lie! All women are fond of lying. But her lie was to protect Me! Her last thought was for my defence, — not yours! Her last wish was to save Me, not you! — King though you are — lover though you craved to be! I say I murdered her! This is my Day of Fate, — the day on which it seems that Heaven itself has drawn lots with me to kill a King! Why did I ever relax my hate of you? It was inborn in me — a part of me, — my very life, the utmost portion of my work! I called you friend; — I curse myself that I ever did so! — for from the first you were my enemy — my rival in the love of Lotys! What did I care for the People? What did you? We were both at one in the love of the same woman! And now I am here to die with her alone! Alone, I say — do you hear me? I will be alone with her to the last — you shall not share with us in our sea burial! I will die beside her, — all, all alone! — and drift out with her to the darkness of the grave, to meet my fate with her — always with her, — whether her spirit lead me to Hell or to Heaven!”
His insensate frenzy was so desperate, so terrible, that by its very force the strange mental composure of the King became intensified. Quietly folding his arms, he took his stand by the coffin of the dead in silence. The dashing spray that leaped at the masts of the vessel, — the wind that scooped up the billows into higher and higher pinnacles of emerald green, might have been soundless and powerless, for all he seemed to hear or to heed.
“Why are you with us?” cried Thord again— “How came you on this ship, where I thought I had hidden myself alone with her, voyaging to Death? Could you not have left her to me? — you who have a throne and kingdom — I, to whom she was all my life!”
“I came — as you have come” — answered the King— “to die with her — or rather not to die, but to find Life with her! She loved me!”
With a savage curse, Thord raised the pistol he held. The King looked him full in the eyes.
“Take good aim, Sergius!” he said tranquilly— “For here between us lies Lotys — the silent witness of your deed! Go hence, if you must, with two murders on your soul! There is no escape from death for either you or me, take it how we may; — and I care not at all how I meet it, whether at your hands or in the waves of the sea! Give me the same death you gave to Lotys! I ask no better end! For so at least shall we meet more quickly!”
Half choked with his fury, Thord looked at him with fixed and glassy eyes. He was jealous of death! — jealous that death should of itself seem to reunite Lotys and the man she had loved more closely together! Standing erect by the purple pall that covered the one woman of the world to them both, the King looked ‘every inch a king,’ — the incarnation of pride, love, resolve and courage. With a sudden wild-beast cry, Thord sprang at him and caught his arm with one hand, the pistol grasped in the other.
“Too near!” he gasped; “You shall not stand too near her! — you shall not die so close to her! — you shall not have the barest chance of resting where she sleeps!”
