“Trust me, baby, it will be even better than you imagined. I promise.”

  I take the time to make sure she’s wet for me. I’m not a small guy and I have no idea how many guys she’s been with. Getting this right with her is crucial.

  I look into her eyes after I roll on the condom. The tip of my dick pushes up against her. My teeth clench at the tightness of Lexi’s pussy. I knew she’d be tight, I fucking knew it, but this? It’s too fucking good for the likes of me. I don’t deserve a sweet little pussy like Lexi’s.

  I pull back and push gently again. She moans but it sounds off.

  “You ok?” I ask.

  “Yeah, you’re so big Tuck. Just a little at a time, ok?”

  The cocky part of me swells. Nothing like finding out you are the biggest she’s ever been with. “Yeah baby, we can go slow. You’re so fucking tight.”

  I rock into her a couple more time, making sure my tip is coated thoroughly with her wetness to lubricate it.

  This time I give her a little more of me to start to stretch her out.

  “Ow,” Lexi grimaces and puts her hands against my chest to stop my advances.

  What the fuck? I know I’m big, but I’ve never caused actual pain before and I’m barely inside of her.

  I immediately pull out. Her face has changed like something is horribly wrong and I pull up to look between us. There’s a little blood, not a ton, but a red tinge to the fluid between us.

  She was on her period and didn’t tell me? Her time of the month wouldn’t have stopped me if that’s what she was worried about. I just would have suggested the shower for this activity, or at least a towel under us. But something tells me this isn’t what just happened.

  I try to remain calm. I don’t want to embarrass her. That’s a good way to never get another chance with Lexi again.

  “What’s going on Lex.”

  I look at the tiny blood spot on the white sheets between us and on the blood on the condom still covering my dick.

  “Don’t be mad.”

  Oh fuck me, that’s not a good opening line.

  “Lexi…”

  “I knew you wouldn’t if I told you...” Her voice trails off and I quickly try to comfort her.

  “I don’t care if you are on your period, Lexi.”

  “I’m not,” she whispers and horror floods through me. No. I shouldn’t be her first. Fuck I want to be but I am not good enough to be her first.

  Shit.

  “You’ve had boyfriends before this. That Vince kid…and…”

  I have nothing else. Just the Vince kid. Luca and I ran all the others off, or at least I think we did.

  “We messed around but...”

  “Lexi, this is something you tell someone before you have sex with them. So much for trust, safety, and protection. That’s a bit one sided don’t you think?”

  I pull back even further as I need a second to think. I walk to Lexi’s bathroom and discard the bloody condom.

  I’m pissed and blindsided, but also relieved and possessive. It’s all fucked up. I hate that she lied to me. But I can’t be mad that I’m the first… the only…I hope to God, the only, ever.

  She’s kneeling on the bed when I walk back out, her hands by her side as she stares down at the flower pattern on the duvet.

  “I’m sorry, Tucker. I am. It was selfish. I wanted to do it with someone I felt safe with. I should have told you, but I knew you’d say no. For stupid reasons. You’re the only one I’ve ever felt safe enough to do it with. I knew you’d take care of me.”

  “Stupid reasons? Like what?” I say defensively keeping a small amount of space between us.

  “Like, that I’d be stuck on you forever since you were my first.”

  I only wish I’d be lucky enough for you to be stuck on me forever.

  “…That I should wait to do it with someone I’m in a relationship with.”

  That one I probably would have said. But I want that relationship she’s talking about, so that wouldn’t have stopped me.

  “Or…”

  “Or?”

  “That my brother would kill you if he ever found out.”

  If there is ever a boner killer to kill all boners, it would be to bring up her brother. Luca won’t be happy about this.

  “Perfect, thanks for that Lexi.”

  I turn to head back to the bathroom, but Lexi jumps off the bed, barreling toward me and I turn in time to catch her against my chest.

  She’s in my arms again, and as bad as I want to be mad, I just fucking can’t. I’ve wanted this girl for so long and now, I’ve had her. Not in the way I planned, but still. She’s giving herself to me because I am her protector and it’s all I want to be.

  “Please don’t hate me Tucker.”

  A tear glides down her cheek. I’m not prepared for her to cry. Now I feel like a dick…even if I did have reasons to be pissed at her for pulling this stunt. She wanted to give me her virginity, but she didn’t want me to feel morally implicated in the process.

  I understand the plan, but the execution sucked. Did the end justify the means? I hate to say it, but since this one sort of worked out for me, I guess it did.

  I wipe her tears. I’d promised her that day in the truck as Lucas drove mock three towards the ER, her bloodied head in my lap, that I would never let anything bad happen to her again. And here I am, giving her the worst experience for her first time. She’ll remember this forever as the worst fuck she’s ever had.

  In all the years and all the women I’ve been with, I’ve never taken anyone’s virginity. I am against it full heartedly. Obviously, there is a moral implication here. Taking a girls virginity with no intentions of dating her is an asshole move, and since I don’t date girls in the typical sense, it seems too slimy for my taste. Too emotionally loaded when I could have my pick of anyone else who already had that experience with someone else.

  I’ve been asked more times than I can count for me to take a girl’s virginity, as if all dudes kept score and these girls thought it was some type of token they were offering, so I could get into an elite club of douchebaggery. Nope, no thanks.

  I wasn’t thinking I’d get into heaven right away with all my shenanigans. I was thinking maybe I could hang in purgatory for a little while with the cool kids? V card collectors should get an express ticket to the bad place.

  So, taking Lexi’s virginity is my first time, too. Even the first girl to pop my cherry was an upperclassman with a black belt in jock fucking.

  Lexi deserves better. And I want to be the man to do it. I lead her to the bed, and I climb in after her.

  “Do you still want to do this?” I ask.

  She nods, a little unsure.

  “We can stop. Maybe you should sleep on it until…”

  “No, I want you and I want it tonight. It just hurt a little so I’m nervous.”

  “Causing you pain isn’t hot for me. So, if you want to wait, I’m fine with it.”

  “Please, Tucker.”

  “Ok. Do you want to be on top. You can decide how much you take and when?”

  “No, I want you in control. I trust you.”

  She reaches up and kisses me. The kiss feels like the beginning. The beginning of our new bond. This is the first test of how I can take care of her the way she needs me to. I will pass. I can’t fail.

  I lay into her kiss and decide to slow things way down as I lay her down beneath me. I settle between her legs carefully. I’m going to work her up until she begs for it and not a minute sooner.

  Chapter Nine

  Lexi

  Tucker has every right to be upset with me. It isn’t ok that I haven’t been open and honest with him about my virginity.

  I know I’ve made the right decision to give it to him when he sets aside his frustration to make sure I am ok. He put my feelings above his but I still feel badly for putting him in that position.

  Tucker’s lips press against mine as he lays me back on the bed.

  I know I can trust him to take care of me and I’m pretty sure the worst is behind us at this point.

  He pulls away from our kiss. “We’re not in any rush. We have all night to do this right. Just tell me what you need to make this good for you. If you need to stop, just say it.” He smiles down at me. “Do you want a safe word?”

  I know he’s serious but we both laugh after he says it.

  “I think STOP will work just fine.” I giggle and then pull his mouth back down to mine.

  “Stop is perfect,” he says over top of my lips.

  His hands descend slowly down the side of my body. His body adjusts slightly to the side to allow his hands access to the apex between my thighs.

  I moan into his mouth as his thumb begins to circle over my sensitive clit.

  “Is that good?” he asks.

  “Yes, God yes. Keep going,” I say as I squirm under his fingers.

  I can barely keep still under Tucker’s expert hands.

  “I need you soaking wet, Lex.”

  The way his says it has my body priming his fingers with warm liquid.

  “Tucker, I need more,” I beg.

  “What do you want me to do?” he asks, ready to fulfill any need I tell him.

  “I need you.”

  “Not yet baby. You’re not ready for me.”

  “Tucker…” I begin to argue.

  “Don’t worry, I’m going to help you get there.” He begins to slowly lower himself, planting soft kisses down my sensitive skin as he goes.

  Before I know what’s happening, Tucker’s mouth is between my thighs.

  “Oh my God, Tucker.” I moan as his tongue licks the sensitive nub, swirling and sucking until my legs begin to shake. The telling signs of my building climax.

  “Wait…I’m going to come.” I try to warn but he doesn’t slow in the least. Instead, he adds two fingers to stretch me, causing my body to get ever wetter.

  “Tucker!” I scream as I come on his tongue and fingers. My fingers wrap in his hair as I hold on for dear life.

  My body is thrumming as Tucker licks up the last of my arousal. I’ve never had oral that good, and I can’t imagine anyone else gives it as good as Tucker.

  He climbs back up my body and presses his lips to mine.

  “I think you’re wet enough.” He smirks.

  “I’m absolutely positive I am,” I pant through the lasting effects of the orgasm.

  He chuckles. “When you’re ready-”

  “I’m ready,” I interrupt.

  He takes a minute to judge my sincerity but I’m not lying. I am ready. So ready.

  “Ok.” He reaches for a new condom on the nightstand. He rips the packaging and then slides the condom on.

  He lines himself up with my opening but stops to look at me. “At any point that you want to stop…”

  “I know.”

  He nods and then lightly presses against me.

  I truly am the wettest I have ever been. There is no mistaking that I want Tucker more than anything.

  His head slips inside as it coats itself in my arousal.

  A soft moan escapes my lips. There’s a little pain, but unlike last time, there’s so much pleasure, too.

  He stalls. “Are you ok?”

  “Yes. I’m more than ok. Keep going, please.”

  He nods again as his eyes lock on mine. He’s studying my reaction carefully with each advance he makes as he pushes, a little deeper each time.

  “Goddamn it, Lex.“ His jaw tightens and he swallow hard. “You’re fucking unreal,” he says about the tight grip on my inner walls around his huge cock.

  The deeper he gets, the better it feels. My body is stretching to accommodate his size and the friction has my body shaking again.

  “How does that feel?” His eyes are hooded as they stare down at me.

  “So good. It feels like we fit together.”

  “We do, baby. We were made for each other,” he says as he picks up his rhythm.

  My stomach flips at his admission. I’ve never wanted to fit with someone more in my life.

  Was this really happening?

  More need bursts through me at the idea of belonging with Tucker.

  “Tucker…I’m…” I whisper as I break off into a moan.

  My body is barreling towards another release and I can’t stop it.

  “Come, Lexi. Come on my dick,” he challenges.

  My orgasms erupts from me as I hang onto Tucker as tight as I can. Tears of pure ecstasy prick at the corners of my eyes. I’ve never come so hard before.

  I’m panting through the after effects as Tucker dips down to kiss me.

  “Watching you come is fucking unreal, Lex,” he says as his pace picks up even more.

  “I want you to now,” I plead.

  “You want me to come in you?” he asks, our eyes locking again.

  “Now, Tucker,” I demand.

  “Hold on,” he instructs as he bucks wildly inside of me, groaning as he releases into the condom.

  He collapses on top of me as he attempts to catch his breath.

  “Holy shit.”

  It’s the last thing I remember before being pulled against Tucker’s chest as I fall asleep, dreaming of what tomorrow will bring for us.

  Chapter Ten

  Tucker

  I skip my morning run. I haven’t done that since I got a stomach flu three years ago and couldn’t make it to the door without throwing up. This morning, my time will be best spent cultivating another future. A future with Lexi.

  Last night was tricky. One of the toughest positions I’d ever been in. I had no idea if the decision I made to continue sex with Lexi after what had happened was the right call. This morning, when I wake to Lexi still in my arms and her radiant smile when she turns to look at me, everything feels right.

  The sun is shining, my girl is in my arms, and we still have one more day of fucking and fun ahead of us before I will have to leave and head back for camp.

  She will go back to her job. Somehow, I am going to convince her to make long distance work. Before I leave to head back to Mississippi, Lexi and I will have a plan. We’re going to be together. I left Chicago without her the first time, I’m not doing it again. Not until I know that this isn’t the end for us.

  Unfortunately, fate is a bitch and doesn’t like me much.

  Lexi’s phone rings. She reaches over to the bedside table and answers.

  “Luca.”

  Shit.

  I can hear Luca on the other line.

  “Hey sis. How was your birthday? I’m sorry I missed it.”

  “It was good.” She glances over her shoulder at me. “Lilly was here for the week. Mom and dad too. We missed you.”

  “I know. I promise I wouldn’t have missed it if it wasn’t important. I don’t want to get into it over the phone. They’re still going through something but it no longer requires my assistance.”

  He sounds a little bitter at that last comment.

  Bitter isn’t a typical Luca reaction. Something is definitely up. Especially for the fact that Luca would miss his kid sister’s eighteenth birthday. It’s uncharacteristic of him.

  “We all understood. It’s not a big deal.”

  “Actually, it is a big deal. And I’m going to make up for it. I’m heading to the lake house for the last couple of days you’re there.”

  “Wait what?!” panic sets up in Lexi’s voice. I hold her tighter against my chest. “You don’t need to do that. Really…” she tries to reassure him.”

  “Too late. I’m already on my way. I’m an asshole for missing my only sister’s birthday…no matter what someone else is going through. Especially when they don’t seem to want to put a little faith in me.”

  Now things are starting to align. This is shaping up to look like a girl problem.

  “Oh, how far away are you?”

  “I left campus last night. I stayed at a friend’s house overnight. I should be there in a couple hours. I’m stopping for fuel and to grab a bite to eat, so I’ll let you go. Just wanted to give you a heads up. I’ll see you soon sis.”

  “Ok, drive safe. Love you.”

  “I will. Love you too.”

  He hangs up first.

  And just like that, I lose two days to work up a solution Lexi would agree to. This isn’t enough time…but it will have to be.

  “That sucks,” she says as she turns her body around to face me.

  “Yeah, damn. I should pack. Then we can spend an hour or so by the lake.”

  “That’s not enough time,” she grumbles.

  “Not even close,” I say, kissing her forehead and pulling her tighter against me on the bed.

  A silence drifts between us for a few minutes as we both let my impending departure sink in. Neither of us says the obvious.

  I shouldn’t be here when Luca shows up.

  This isn’t the way I want him to find out about us.

  “I don’t want to leave this bed.”

  “Me either,” she says as she presses her lips to mine.

  The kiss builds and before I know it. I’m inside her again, giving her everything I have. Hoping she can read how much I need her in every thrust of my body. In every kiss I tattoo on her skin.

  This girl is my home. She’s the only place that truly feels like it. There is nothing I won’t give to get more time with her.

  Lexi

  I walk hand in hand with Tucker down to the water. A large wisping breeze swirls around us.

  He turns to face me and he takes my other hand in his. I can’t look up at him because I know this is goodbye.

  “Lexi…”

  “Please don’t leave.” I finally look up and a tear runs down my cheek. He brushes his thumb over it gently to wipe it away.

  “I have to…you know I do. I have to go back, and this isn’t the way Luca should find out about us. On top of which, he really needs you right now. I can feel it.” He pushes a rogue strand of hair behind my ear. “Before I go, I need to know what happens next.”

  When I finally look up him, he looks hopeful.

  “What do you mean, what happens next?”

  “What happens with us? I don’t want this to end.”

 

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