Eagle elite volume ii, p.53
Eagle Elite Volume II, page 53
And like a horror movie pressing play in my mind.
I saw blood on his shoes, drip, drip, drip.
With a gasp I pulled away.
“Maya, what did you see?”
“Blood.” I gasped. “On your shoes.”
CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
Call me what you like, only give me some vodka. —Russian Proverb
Nikolai
I bit out a curse and removed my hand, her eyes were glassy with unshed tears. “Am I going crazy? Be honest.”
If only it were that simple, make a simple diagnosis about mental instability, write her a script, and we move on with our lives.
No, her reality was so much more tragic that it hurt my entire being to think about it.
“Nikolai?” She pleaded, her voice small, afraid.
“No.” I sighed, reaching for her hand, intertwining our fingers together. I could feel my heart beating as it thumped against my chest. I exhaled. I inhaled. I exhaled. And when I looked at her? It was as if all natural functions of my body needed more effort. I had to tell myself to breathe, force myself to think straight.
The information Phoenix had given me had been useless. While they’d succeeded in hacking the cameras that Petrov had… they were still having trouble tracking down the actual locations.
Each location researched was a false lead.
Phoenix believed that the actual location was trapped somewhere inside Maya’s head… I agreed with him, because I was the one that closed the door and threw away the key, damn it.
“If I asked you a favor.” I was going to lie to her… again. “But couldn’t tell you why…”
She shrugged. “It would depend on the favor.”
“Maya, I’m very good at what I do, why don’t I allow you to into an altered state of consciousness, and we can talk through the blood, possibly discover why you’re having those visions?”
She frowned. “I don’t know…” Then she looked away. “My father was always really superstitious about hypnotherapy. He said it was the devils work.”
Ironic, that the devil would warn against the devil. “It’s completely safe,” I reassured her. “And I do have an ulterior motive.”
“Oh.” She took a step away. “And what’s that?”
I prepared myself for the lie, forcing my body to relax, allowing an easy smile to cross my face. “Well, Phoenix believes that your father is still keeping girls locked away in whorehouses, but every location we check into is a dead end. By the looks of it, there are still two houses in operation… They were able to hack the live camera feed, but the location is scrambled…”
“And you think I know where it is?” She asked in a doubtful voice. “Look, my father rarely allowed me near any of his businesses, and those were the legal ones… My mom and I were trophies he paraded around at political dinners… we never kept his secrets because we never knew any. He never had a reason to tell them to us.”
I pushed her more. “But, the mind…” I licked my lips, hating myself all over again for trying to manipulate her… but I needed her to say yes… if she said no, I would do it anyway, and I wasn’t sure if I wanted to go on living knowing everything we had would be based on a lie. I wanted to tell her, and I would, after I destroyed everything, after I gave her a reason to stay.
After I proved that I would fight her father—and win.
“It’s powerful, you may have seen something and not be fully aware.”
Maya held my gaze for a few seconds of silence. “Do you love me?”
That wasn’t what I expected. Not by a long shot. At least in that I could give her an honest answer. “You know I do.”
“Then I trust you.”
She shouldn’t.
Just like she shouldn’t love me.
But I was in too deep, the dark waters washing over me, washing over us… the only way out was to inhale–together.
“Thank you.” I held out my hand again and led her out of the office, on the way out telling my receptionist to hold my messages while I took Maya up to her apartment.
I’d never been nervous about re-entering a person’s mind… because it was on rare occasions that it happened. I just needed to remember to stick to the box… that was how I brainwashed. I didn’t lock everything away together, but separated it, giving each memory a different trigger.
The main memory was the sex… seeing her father have sex with the prostitutes while men watched.
I needed to bypass that memory in order to get to the previous one, which was, how did she happen upon the whorehouse in the first place? She said she was looking for her father, meaning she knew who to ask and where to drive her brand new car.
“You look nervous.” Maya said in a tight voice then laughed awkwardly. “Should I be worried?”
I smiled confidently. “It will be just like you’ve taken a short nap. I swear it.”
She exhaled once I shoved the key into the lock and let us both into the apartment.
“So, where do I lie down?”
“You stand.”
“What?”
“Kidding.” Her stunned expression was priceless, and it put me at ease, “Why don’t we go into the bedroom?”
Her heels clicked against the marble floor. I followed the sway of her hips as she marched ahead of me then kicked off her heels and lay across the bed, her hair a crowning glory across the pillows.
I was having second thoughts.
Third thoughts.
Maybe fourth thoughts? Was that possible?
“This okay?” She asked, on a swallow.
I closed the door behind me and lowered the lights then cleared my throat. “Perfect, Maya.”
She shivered.
“You’re cold.” I noticed the goose bumps breaking out on her arms, quickly pulled the afghan from the nearby chair and covered her in it. “There’s no need to be nervous… I’ll be quick.”
“Bet you say that to all the girls in bed.” She winked. Her trusting smile nearly did me in.
Nearly.
“Very funny.” I placed my hands on her right arm, on the first cut, the pressure would be familiar… though only in the back of her mind, in the forefront I was simply touching her arm, nothing more. “Now, close your eyes.”
She did as I asked.
“I’m going to count to five, with each ascending number I need you to take a deep breath and exhale, can you do that?”
“Yes.”
“Fantastic,” I lowered my voice. “One.” She inhaled then slowly exhaled. “Two.” She repeated the process. “Keep breathing Maya, I want you to think about your favorite place in the world… I want you to go there, in your mind, right now.” She sighed. “Do you have that place in your mind?”
“Yes.”
“Three… inhale again, exhale slowly.” She followed my instructions. “I want you to sit down in this place, then as you sit, focus on your breathing in and out, in and out… you exist to breathe, you exist to simply be.”
Her body started relaxing, I pressed harder on her arm. “Four… inhale, now exhale. Your body is going to start feeling very heavy, this is normal, the pressure you feel in your arm is like sand getting placed inside your limbs, as I press your arm, imagine sand weighing you down, allowing your body to fully relax against the bed. You’re so relaxed that even your breathing has slowed down, your chest rising and falling with slowness. You feel your heart rate match your breathing as your body gets heavier.” I moved my hand to her chest and pressed down. “And heavier.”
Her breathing slowed.
“Good Maya, you’re doing so well. Remember, you’re in a safe place, nobody can hurt you here. On the count of five I’m going to snap my fingers and you’re going to go into a dreamless sleep, when I snap my fingers twice in a row, you’ll wake up refreshed and energized.” I held my right hand midair, unsure of whether I should proceed. But it was our only hope… discovering where the girls were taken, destroying them before Petrov discovered she was remembering. I had to be one step ahead of him.
“Five,” I whispered then snapped my fingers.
Her body went completely limp.
“It’s the day of your sixteenth birthday,” I whispered. “You’re so excited to meet your friends for the party in downtown Seattle. You want to drive, but your mother said you need to ask your father’s permission first… but you can’t find him, where is he?”
“I don’t know.” Maya said in a clear voice. “I’ve looked everywhere! Texted him, called, everything goes straight to voicemail.”
“What do you do Maya? Can you walk me through it?”
All I needed to know was how she discovered his whereabouts. If I took her too far past that memory we’d meet the next box, where she saw her father at the whorehouse, and all the memories I’d locked away would shatter with that trigger, they were fragile already, too fragile.
“My mom doesn’t care, and if I don’t leave soon I’ll be late… Father always refuses to let me into his office, it’s always locked anyway, but I pick the lock… the men are gone and so is he. He’s always been paranoid about technology and my mom gets him an old school planner every year for Christmas. Maybe it’s in his office.”
“Good, Maya, what happens after you pick the lock?”
“It’s easy. Too easy.” Maya moved a bit on the bed, her arms coming up off the mattress as if she was walking. “His office is very bare, no computer, just file cabinets and a desk. His desk has a lock on the middle drawer. I pick that lock too. When the drawer opens, I see his planner.”
“Do you pick it up?”
“Yes.” Maya started trembling. “I pick it up and quickly find the date… it says he has an appointment at three in the afternoon.”
“Where Maya?” Unbelievable, her mental stability was astounding.
Maya didn’t answer.
“Maya? Where is he?”
“He’s…” Her eyes squeezed as if she was trying to repel the memory. “He’s…” Shit maybe I had locked the memory away too deep. “Seattle.” She shook her head back and forth. “No wait… there’s numbers… and underneath it, it says new construction… I remember him talking about office buildings he was putting up in Everett, down by the docks.”
“Well done Maya, is there an address with the numbers?”
“It’s…” Her breathing was starting to accelerate. “So, dark.”
“Not so fast Maya, remember you’re safe, you don’t need to visit that place… just tell me where it is.”
“So dark!” She writhed on the bed. “I go in, I shouldn’t go in, but I go in. What am I walking into? It looks abandoned, but I try the door anyway. It’s dark around me, I try the first door, the second, the third building and see my father’s Lexus, then the door opens. It smells funny.”
“Maya, let’s focus on your surroundings, do you notice anything different?”
“Fish.” Her teeth chattered. “It smells like fish, and there are docks behind us, construction, but nothing’s being built or maybe it’s just too late at night. I walk in the door—”
“Maya why don’t you take a step backward… don’t go in the door.”
“I have to!” She shouted. “I have to go in!”
“No.” I sat back down on the bed and gripped her arm, pressing firmly against the scars, hoping mentally her body will remember the physical pain that manifested last time she was under, and pull back, instead she tries to jerk away from me. “Please! Please let me go in. Something’s in there, someone’s hurt.”
My gut clenched.
“I need to help her! She’s screaming!”
Maya was too far gone. I quickly released my hand and tried to talk over her. “I’m going to snap my fingers twice, when I snap my fingers you’re going to wake up feeling rested and—”
Maya let out a blood curdling scream as her eyes flashed open.
“Shit!” I yelled, pinning her hands down. “Maya, focus, focus on my voice, I’m going to help you okay. I know it’s scary.”
“They’re children!” She yelled. “Children! I babysat them once, I—” Her body trembled as her eyes rolled in the back of her head.
“Maya!” I yelled sternly in her ear. “Two snaps of my fingers, and you’re safe, two snaps, ready?” I snapped my fingers twice to bring her out of the trance.
She immediately fell against me.
But didn’t wake up.
Fear crept down my spine. Had I broken her? Was it too much? Had I failed in trying to save her? Save us?
“Damn it.” I pressed a kiss to her forehead. “You’re safe Maya, wake up.”
She blinked open her eyes. “Thirsty.”
“I’ll get you water. Just stay here.”
I rushed into the kitchen and filled a glass of water then hurried back. She was just sitting up, I handed her the glass
With shaking hands, she sipped then handed the glass back to me. I went to put it on the dresser and accidently knocked over one of the white masks. Without thinking, I picked it up then locked eyes with Maya just as she let out a scream straight from the pit of hell.
One reserved for villains and monsters.
For people like me.
Who deserved it.
CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
Love cannot be compelled. —Russian Proverb
Maya
I couldn’t stop screaming. The sound coming from my mouth didn’t sound normal, I was losing my mind, because suddenly I had visions of Nikolai hurting me, of him… taking off his mask.
“Pleasure,” he whispered.
Nikolai held out his hands. “I can explain.”
“Explain?” My teeth chattered as I pulled the blanket around my body. “Explain what, you bastard? That you tortured me when I was sixteen! The masks…” I pointed at the masks lining the dresser. “You kept trophies of it? Are you going to kill me?”
Terrified and nauseated, I tried to scramble off the bed, but my feet tangled up in the blanket causing me to fall to my knees on the floor. My entire chest hurt with the effort to breathe. I had told him I loved him! My captor! The person who’d… made me… forget.
Everything.
It was too much, the memories, as if someone had unlocked Pandora’s Box, the pain in my skull so intense I was seeing double.
“Shh.” Nikolai held up his hands in surrender and kneeled next to me on the floor. “It’s normal to feel pain after the repressed memories come forward.”
“Don’t touch me!” I shrieked.
The scars on my forearms throbbed. How was that possible?
I scratched at them.
“No, no, Maya.” Nikolai gripped my hands. “You’re going to hurt yourself if you do that. Your brain is re-living the memories… and trying to manifest something in the present so that the pain makes sense. It won’t, and… you’ll end up killing yourself.”
He pinned my hands behind my back.
I squirmed against him and screamed as hot tears ran down my face. Escape. I had to escape. I had to get out.
The apartment was white, it had always been white. Everywhere was white.
The masks.
The couch.
Bile rose up in my throat.
Before I could react any more Nikolai reached into the top of the dresser and pulled out a syringe. I flailed against him harder, but he was too strong.
“Don’t! Please!” I sobbed uncontrollably. “Please! Nikolai if you love me at all you won’t hurt me!”
His dark eyes closed very briefly as he looked away and stabbed me with a needle directly in my arm and pushed the plunger.
My vision blurred. And it was weird, in that moment, I wasn’t afraid of what he would do to me. No, instead, my heart broke, because it meant he didn’t love me.
I was tied to the chair. He had cut me six times on each arm. I counted. The pain was horrible. He said pain was one of the only ways to quickly brainwash someone because mentally you didn’t think you could handle it, even though physically you could.
I asked him lots of questions.
He answered every single one.
“Why are you doing this?” I gasped as Nik made his final cut in my arm.
“You were in a tragic car accident” he said in a low voice. “Lucky to be alive, do you feel these cuts? They’re deep, from the glass in the windshield.”
“No.” I shook my head. “No, you did this! I didn’t mean to see it, okay? I’ll tell my father, if I just explain to him that I didn’t mean to.”
“What you saw matters,” Nik said tightly. “Your father cannot trust you not to say anything to anyone… your options are die, or this.” He pressed his palm against my forearms, I was losing more blood.
“You beat me.”
“No, that was him.” Nik said sadly. “How do your arms feel?”
“Heavy.”
“That’s from the impact of hitting the steering wheel, the glass from the accident missed your main arteries, you’re lucky to be alive.”
“You already said that.”
“Repeat after me.” He ignored me.
I refused to repeat.
Then felt more pressure against my forearms. “Repeat it, Maya.”
“I’m lucky to be alive.”
“Why?”
“Because the glass.” I frowned. Why did I feel as though I was reliving something that didn’t happen? “It missed my arteries.”
“The building you ran into was empty, thank God,” he said.
“Yeah.” The building. What building?
“It was a motorcycle shop, remember? You drove by it in order to get to your party for your birthday.”
“My birthday.” I felt tears well in my eyes.
“Happy birthday, Maya.”
I felt dehydrated, tired. Wait, where was I?
“Maya,” Something wrapped around my arms, I think the bleeding had stopped. “Do you remember what happened?”
“Yeah…” I frowned against the blindfold, only able to see a sliver of movement underneath it, black shoes rocked back and forth, back and forth, they were covered in blood, was that mine? “I um, got in an accident.”
“Lucky to be alive,” we said in unison.
“So lucky,” Nik whispered. “It’s good your father found you when he did, he was so worried.”
