Making waves, p.11
Making Waves, page 11
Hari placed his hand in Rus’, trusting him to protect him, to care for him, and to love him. That was something Rus planned to do for the rest of his life.
“Are you sure you’re okay with this?” Hari asked for about the tenth time since they’d left the manor. “I mean, don’t guys like you prefer to…”
Even at night, Rus could see the rosy hue of Hari’s cheeks in the moonlight. Stepping up onto the bungalow’s porch, Rus turned to his mate and curved a hand over his cheek to feel the heat. Unable to resist teasing his mate, Rus lifted an eyebrow and questioned the phrase, “Guys like me?”
The heat that poured off Hari’s cheek nearly singed his palm. “I didn’t… I mean… It’s just you’re so big.”
Having been sold to the humans at six, it wasn’t a surprise that Hari didn’t know much about sex. Still, it was something most people assumed about him even when they’d been free their whole lives. “For now, I’m just going to say that even though you might believe that it isn’t true. People are people, regardless of size, or any other factor for that matter. But even if that had been true; you, my heart, are my mate. There is nothing, and I do mean nothing, I wouldn’t do with you if it’s something you want.”
Hari thought about it for several moments. Just when Rus thought he should open the door to go inside, there was something that shadowed the green in his mate’s pretty eyes. “Does that mean I have to let you inside of me?”
The shakiness of his mate’s voice as well the tremor in the hand Rus was holding nearly broke his heart. “No,” he assured quickly. “You were raped, my heart. That isn’t something I would ever ask you to just get over. There are so many ways for us to have sex that don’t require anal penetration. For the mating bond, it is the quickest way to create it, but there are other ways if you’re not comfortable penetrating me.”
“No,” Hari practically shouted, causing Rus to grin at how eager his mate was to be inside of him. “I mean, as long as you’re okay with it, I would love to…”
There was that blush again.
Not exactly wanting to spend the night on the porch having this conversation when they could be inside mating, Rus opened the door and ushered Hari inside.
Heading for the bed, Rus sat on the edge and patted the space next to him. But instead of sitting there, Hari climbed up on him and straddled his legs. The force of his kiss tilted Rus backward until his head hit the mattress.
He hadn’t expected Hari to be this assertive, but now that he’d shifted, the mating call would most likely be stronger within him. The position meant Hari once more felt Rus’s hard on. Just like before, his mate froze.
“It’s okay, my heart.” Rus stroked his hand over Hari’s back doing his best to soothe him.
Suddenly, the fear that was shining in those green eyes morphed into desire once again. “Sorry. I hope I didn’t ruin anything.”
Giving his mate a reassuring smile, Rus said, “Not possible. But if you need to put this on pause, I’ll understand.”
Instead of answering with words, his mate kissed him hard. His hand reached for the hem of Rus’s shirt and tugged it upward. It wasn’t until the material reached their mouths, which were still locked together, that Hari abandoned it.
Rus wanted to tear the shirt off, but the moment he felt those silky fingers touching his skin as they made their way down his sides, all thought fled. The only thing he knew was the desperate need to have those talented hands all over his body.
When they reached his waistband, Rus couldn’t help but buck his hips upward. Praying he didn’t just scare his mate, Rus didn’t start breathing until he heard the rasp of his zipper open. He had to find a way to gain back the control that was slipping away fast or Rus feared he’d do something that would have his mate running for the hills.
So engrossed in trying his best not to move, it had taken him several minutes to realize Hari had stopped kissing him. In fact, he was currently sitting on top of Rus staring down at Rus’s protruding cock with his brows pulled together and his head slightly tilted to one side as if he were confused.
Not entirely certain what was going on, Rus took a steadying breath. “Are you okay?”
Lashes lifted to reveal those green eyes filled with…was that awe? “I… uhm… well… it’s just that… Is that normal?”
Rus glanced down at his straining cock with its reddened tip that desperately wanted some attention. “Is what normal?”
“You seem to be…” Hari’s entire face flamed red. “I mean… before… you know… the guards…” Hari closed his eyes as if trying to block out the images of the past. “Not that I want to remem…” Shaking his head, Hari lifted one leg and got off Rus to sit on the side of the bed. “I’m screwing this up, aren’t I?”
Being reminded of Hari’s past might not exactly set the mood, but considering all he’d been through, Rus had known this was going to take time and most likely involve dealing with his history. “No,” Rus answered honestly as he sat up and took one of Hari’s hands in his.
“We are mates, my heart. That means nothing is off the table when it comes to sex.” Rus placed a finger under Hari’s chin and tilted his head to stare into those gorgeous green orbs. “This is you and me. What we are feeling, thinking, worrying about, or even thrilled about should be shared. Always.”
A ghost of a smile lifted the very corners of those lush lips. “It’s just, before, with the… you know…” Hari gazed back down at Rus’s dick, which still jutted out of his pants. “You’re so much bigger. Is that normal?”
It took all of Rus’s control not to laugh. Not at his mate, but at the fact those bastards who had raped his mate were small enough Hari had noticed a difference.
“Everyone is a different size, my heart. I’m just… me,” Rus told him. “Is that okay? Are you worried about my size?”
Hari shook his head. Then started bobbing it up and down. “It hurt when they…” Hari looked away for a moment before adding, “Will it hurt even more if I let you…?”
Rus captured Hari’s face between his hands and pressed their foreheads together. “As your mate, I will prepare you to accept my size. I would never hurt you.” That was a vow he intended to keep. “What those guards did was meant to hurt, no matter how big they were. They did nothing to make it easier on you.”
Putting the lube in Hari’s hand, Rus said, “Like using lube. Which I will teach you how to do with me. We’ll take this step by step, my mate. Once you see how much pleasure you give to me, then you’ll see what they did to you was nothing even close to making love.”
Hari gave him a real smile. “Thank you.”
Rus leaned in and kissed him. “Are you ready?”
Once again, instead of a verbal answer, Hari straddled him and kissed him hard enough to push him back on the mattress.
CHAPTER 21
There were too many strange emotions swirling around inside of Hari for him to keep track. Like this need to rub his body against Rus. No. Not just their bodies. They had to be naked. Skin on skin. It was as if he were craving it deep in his soul.
To connect from head to toe, just them. It drove him to do things he hadn’t thought himself capable of. Like lifting Rus’s shirt off his abs and chest or unzipping his pants. And had that been a surprise.
Too many times he’d seen the guards’ dicks. None. Not a one was even close to the size of Rus. As difficult as it had been to imagine that inside of his body, there was an opposite, yet equally strong reaction that he desperately wanted to feel it.
He might not have been ready to have Rus inside of his ass yet, but that didn’t mean he couldn’t touch. As he once more kissed Rus with every ounce of passion inside of him, Hari reached down and traced the length of his mate’s cock with his fingertip.
A throaty groan encouraged him to do it again. When Rus thrust his hips up as if begging for more, Hari wrapped his hand around his heat. Stroking the flesh upward, a hand clamped around his wrist as Rus hissed.
“This is where lube will help,” Rus told him. His mate reached for the tube and popped the cap. Then he pulled Hari’s hand off his dick and poured some of the viscous fluid into his hand.
When Rus put Hari’s fingers back on his prick, Hari once again wrapped them around his girth and slid his hand up and down. The dawning realization as to why lube was so important to Rus, nearly made him curse at the humans who had so mistreated him. But this definitely wasn’t the time to even think about those assholes.
Loving the feel of his hard length in his hand, Hari felt drool pool in his mouth as he hungered to know what it tasted like. Dropping down until his knees hit the floor, Hari stared at Rus’s cock standing up proudly from his groin with a slight bend toward his abdomen.
It wasn’t too often the guards had made them suck their dicks, thankfully. Some of the captives had seemed to enjoy performing the task, but Hari had always thought they did so in order to get out of having their asses fucked. Had he known anything about sex, he probably would have done the same thing. Not that he’d liked it, but it was better than anal as far as he was concerned.
What he did know was how much the guards loved to be in someone’s mouth. Even though his mouth had been watering and Hari had actually wanted to know what Rus would taste like, now that he was there, staring at his dick…
“Hey.” Rus was suddenly kneeling on the ground with him, hands cupping his face and pressing light kisses on his forehead, eyelids, cheeks, and mouth. “You don’t have to do anything you’re not ready for. Even if you no longer want to bond tonight, it’s okay.”
But he did want to mate with Rus. He frantically… No. That wasn’t the right word. “There's something deep within me that wants that connection with you more than my next breath.” He hadn’t meant to speak the words out loud, but they pushed out of his body anyway.
Opening eyelids he hadn’t even realized were closed, he stared into those dark, understanding eyes and felt most of his anxiety melt away. It wasn’t all gone, he wasn’t sure it was even possible for it ever to truly disappear, but it gave him the room to breathe.
“My mouth was watering to taste you,” Hari said honestly. “It’s just…” Feeling braver than he’d ever felt, he pushed on. “The past keeps flashing before my eyes. I don’t want it to. But I also can’t stop it. But it doesn’t mean I’m ready to give up either.”
Rus pressed his forehead to Hari’s. “I love you so damn much, my heart. You will never know just how proud I am that you have come so far. This night is about us. However it works out doesn’t matter. So long as it’s just you and me in the end.”
Pressing their mouths together softly, they breathed each other in for several long minutes. When he’d gotten his equilibrium back, Hari said, “I want to feel your body against mine.”
Rus stood up, then lowered a hand to help Hari up. When his mate sat on the bed with his pants still on but unzipped, and his shirt still around his neck, Hari shook his head. Then he stepped back and took off his own shirt. “No. I want just you and me, nothing in between.”
Those dark eyes darkened even further as Rus practically tore off his clothes. Hari loved that Rus was so excited and he found himself giggling at his antics when one pant leg got tangled up somehow and refused to come off.
Rus’s head whipped up to stare at Hari with awe. The biggest smile formed on those firm lips as his mate stared at him for several long moments. “I could die a happy man if I could hear that sound every single day for the rest of my life.”
There was no stopping his stomach from doing little somersaults, or the smile from appearing, or even the way his heart melted. Sure, it had been sappy, but it had been perfect as far as Hari was concerned.
Heat erupted in Hari’s veins, coursing through his body straight down to his cock as he watched his mate crawl up on the mattress with that ass on prominent display. He nearly wailed in frustration when Rus flipped over onto his back. But the lust that burned in those dark eyes as Rus held out his hand to Hari was all he needed to see to know exactly what he wanted.
His mate.
Anyway he could get him.
Climbing onto the bed, Hari didn’t stop until he was draped over that hard body. It sounded stupid and probably juvenile but he could have sworn electricity pulsed between them as skin touched skin.
Need clawed at him as his cock leaked fluid onto Rus’s abdomen. “You’re going to have to tell me what to do so I don’t hurt you, my mate.”
Rus lifted his head to capture Hari’s lips in a searing kiss even as he brought Hari’s hand up that already had some lube residue on it. More of the viscous liquid was poured, this time on his fingers.
When Rus dropped the lube back on the mattress, he threaded one hand through Hari’s hair while the other one guided his hand down. The strong legs that had been entwined with his suddenly spread wide. With knees bent, Rus tilted his hips and placed Hari’s fingers along his crease.
Rus took the two fingers he’d poured lube onto and placed his own fingers over them as he continued to guide Hari’s hand behind his balls to his hole.
Despite how much he yearned to mate with Rus, it was impossible to deny just how nervous and uncertain he was about what was happening. Hari had only known pain when it came to anal penetration. He would rather die than do that to Rus.
“It’s okay, my heart. I want this as much as you do.” Once more Rus seemed to sense his need for reassurance.
Trusting his mate, he let Rus show him how to work the muscles surrounding his tight pucker to loosen them. Each little moan and sigh spurred him on until Rus no longer was leading him, but just enjoying Hari’s touch.
When the muscles seemed to relax, Hari relied on his instinct as he let his index finger slip into Rus’s channel. The deep groan of need told him he was on the right path. Gliding in all the way to the last knuckle, he slowly slid it back out only to once more push back inside.
He did this several more times, until Rus broke their kiss and begged, “More. Please, my heart, I need more.”
Not about to disappoint his mate, Hari added a second finger. Pushing up onto his other hand, Hari looked down at the way Rus moved as Hari gave him pleasure. It was one of the most enthralling images he’d ever witnessed.
His head thrashed from side to side as his hand dug into the bedspread beneath him, as if he didn’t hold on he might just fall apart completely. Hips undulated with the rhythm of Hari’s fingers as he tried to get them further inside of him.
Talk about breathtaking. He could get lost watching his mate all night long. The jerk of his dick reminded him that wasn’t exactly true. The clawing need within him wouldn’t allow that, but maybe one day he’d have enough control to manage all night. Or at least an hour.
“My heart, I need…” Rus pushed down upon Hari’s fingers. “Need you.”
He got the concept of what was to happen, but was he supposed to put lube on his dick? Figuring it couldn’t hurt, he grabbed the tube off the mattress and got up on his knees. Pouring some of the liquid along his length, he used his hand to spread it.
Scooting closer, he placed the tip of his cock at Rus’s hole and pushed. At first, he thought it wasn’t going to work as his dick hadn’t slipped inside, but like magic, Rus opened up for him and the most intense heat seared his prick as he drove as deep as he could.
Certain he was going to lose his damn mind, he found himself falling against Rus’s body. His cock throbbed hard as unbelievable pleasure built within him.
“Stop,” Rus cried out. “Hari, no.”
Fingers pinched the crease between his ass and inner thigh. The sting caused some of the decadent joy to fade. It wasn’t gone, just not crashing through him any longer.
“Sorry,” Rus panted out. “I just want to feel you inside of me longer.”
That was something Hari could get onboard with. He wasn’t exactly certain why since he’d hated it when the guards were inside him, but he assumed it had to do with them being mates.
Even though none of his previous encounters had been in this position, Hari knew he had to thrust his hips in and out. Placing a hand on Rus’s abdomen, he started to pull out. Muscles fluttered around his length as if begging him to stay.
Loving that sensation, Hari drove his hips forward once more and swore his eyes rolled back in his head. Damn, but this was beyond amazing. He’d never known there was anything so sensual, so carnal, so indulgent.
But this wasn’t just about him. Looking down at his mate, who had his back arched showing off his leaking cock, Hari wrapped a hand around it and started to move his hand in time with his hips. He hadn’t known if this was what he should do, but as he had before, he’d gone with his instincts.
The deep guttural moan from Rus told him he’d been right to do so.
“Love… Need… So close…” Rus said as his head thrashed back and forth. He tilted his hips even more, allowing Hari that much deeper inside of him.
Chasing something that was building within him, Hari thrust faster. It felt like he was teetering on the edge of a cliff ready to soar, but something was holding him back.
Rus grabbed him by the back of the neck and yanked him down. Sharp pricks of pain sank into his shoulder. He couldn’t describe it but, once more instinct prodded him to plunge his teeth into Rus’s shoulder.
The taste of rich copper splashed over his tongue, propelling him to leap from that edge and fly high. Immersed in nothing but bliss, Hari felt the connection between him and Rus lock into place.
Floating on a cloud, Hari draped over Rus, who held him close. He wasn’t certain how long they lay like that, but as far as Hari was concerned, he could have stayed right there for the rest of his life.
“I love you, my heart,” Rus whispered.
Smiling, Hari pressed his lips against the hard flesh of Rus’s chest. When he moved to tilt his head up to his mate, Hari saw the mark he’d left on Rus’s shoulder. His smile grew. Then he lapped his tongue over the slightly raised area.
