Binding ties, p.9
Binding Ties, page 9
“Ace…” She whines. “We can’t in front of Ben.”
“Why not? He’s going to find out soon enough that I’m a little more than just a friend to him. And we are definitely more than friends.”
She pushed me away, but not very hard. I knew she didn’t want to, but she was trying to stand on principle, I suppose. Deciding to change the topic, I took another inhale of the food. “When did you learn to cook?”
She shrugged like it wasn’t a big deal. “When I had a little boy who needed food that was healthier than mac and cheese every night. Believe it or not, I actually like it. I’ve grown so accustomed to it, so now I try to mix it up using new recipes I find online.”
“Well, it smells amazing. Just like you.” I kissed her neck one more time, and heard the almost moan that slipped from her lips.
“What are you doing to Mama?” I whirled around, having not heard him enter the room, to find Ben standing just inside the kitchen, staring at us quizzically. He cocked his little head to the side as if he was studying us.
“I was giving her a hug, kiddo. She seemed like she needed one. Maybe you should give her one, too.” He nodded and followed my direction. She reached down and held him as he hugged her around the middle.
I loved these two so much.
“All right, let’s eat, you two.” Anna said to me and pointed toward the cabinets. I had to assume that she wanted me to grab plates, so I opened each door until I found what I was looking for. It didn’t take too long.
I took the bundle of plates to the table and sat them down at the same time that Anna was bringing over the Carbonara. What I failed to realize was that she’d made garlic bread to go with it. Ben took his seat, Anna sat in hers, and I plopped down beside her. She took Ben’s bowl and scooped some of the spaghetti into it.
He started to dig in immediately, and I took the minute to lean over to Anna. “You know that garlic bread will not be a deterrent for me. I will kiss you, garlic breath or not.”
She kicked me under the table. “Julian.” She meant to say my name harder like a reprimand, but it almost sounded like a moan.
The next half an hour flew by in the blink of an eye. We all ate in silence, me taking peeks at Anna throughout the meal. Ben was wholly focused on his food, so it gave me a little leeway to mess with his mom.
“This food is amazing, and I’m about to speak very dirty to you. You ready for it?”
She laughed at me this time. “Ace…”
“I’m going to…” I paused. “Wash all the dishes when we’re done.” She breathed out heavily, probably expecting something more naughty.
Looking to make sure Ben wasn’t paying attention, she leaned into me and whispered in my ear, her warm breath leaving goosebumps on my skin. “That is the sexiest thing I think you’ve ever said to me.”
I chuckled. “Man, guess I really need to up my game, then, huh? It definitely sounds like a challenge, and you should remember that I don’t back down on challenges until I’ve won.”
Ben piped up. “Mama, I’m full.”
“Okay. Let’s go put your plate in the sink.” He gets up at the same time Anna does and they walk to the sink together; their strides matching each other. Putting it in the sink, she thanks him.
“You’re welcome, Mama.”
“You need to go take a bath soon so we can go to bed, but Julian and I have something to tell you before we do that. Why don’t you head into the living room and take a seat on the couch.”
He took off and was seated on the couch by the time we got there. We both sat to the sides of him. “Sweetheart, we have something to tell you.”
My heart was in my throat, and my palms were sweating. I’d been excited about this all week, and now I was about to tell him who I was.
Ever so gently, she spoke, grabbing a hold of his little hand. “Julian isn’t just a good friend of mine, he’s actually your dad.”
I held my breath, looking at Ben to see what he’d think about what Anna just told him. While I wasn’t expecting fireworks and a ton of excitement, I also wasn’t expecting complete silence. He looked at Anna and then back at me several times. He was so hard to read. I had no idea what he was thinking.
Ben turned to look at Anna. “So… he’s like Hutch is for Rex?”
She reached out and ruffled his hair. “Yeah, sweetie. He’s your dad. I know that your dad and I are a little different from Hutchison and Savvy. Julian’s been racing cars all over the world, which is why he hasn’t been around much, but he’s here to stay now. Julian is going to take over grandpa’s shop.”
“Really?”
“Yep, she’s right.” I gave him the affirmation he was looking for quickly.
“When will I see Grandpa again? I miss him.” His bottom lip stuck out and sadness overtook me. He didn’t know. I looked over the top of Ben’s head at Anna, who shook her head, telling me she hadn’t talked to him about it yet.
Reaching out to hold his hand, Anna spoke with care. “Grandpa’s in heaven now. He’s still watching over you every single day, he just won’t be here in person. He loves you so much.”
“That means he’s dead, right?” He asked quietly as if someone might overhear him.
“We call it passed away, sweetheart, but yes. Where did you learn that?”
His mouth pulled downward into a pout. “Oh… well, Rex said he heard his dad say that to someone over the phone one day a couple weeks ago.”
“And how do you feel about that?” She asked lightly.
He sighed. “I’m sad, but Rex also said if they died, they’d be surrounded by angels. So he’s in good hands, right, Mama?”
She cupped his cheek. “You’re absolutely right.”
Benjamin’s eyes met mine. “What will you do without your dad? I know how hard it is since I haven’t had mine for five years.” My stomach plummeted, and I felt sick. There was no sugarcoating with this kid.
I rested my hand on his shoulder. “He’s in a better place, bud. Besides, I’ve got you to take care of now, right?”
“Yep,” he said, popping the “p.”
Anna snagged Ben’s attention again. “So, sweetheart, how would you feel about getting to know your dad? He wants to get to know you better. What do you think?”
His look was pensive. “I don’t know. What will happen with Hutch? He takes us everywhere, like the Astronomy Museum in Tungs… Tungs… I can’t remember the name of it.” He looked down like he was ashamed.
Instead of letting him feel bad for not knowing, I jumped in to help. “You mean Tungston Bay?”
A tiny fist pumped into the air, and I had to laugh. “Yeah! That’s it.”
“Well, what would you say if I told you that I could take you? Or how would you feel going to see cars race in real life?”
He sucked in a sharp inhale. “Really??”
“Yeah, little man. What do you think about that?” My heart was pounding against its cage as I waited for his response. I never knew how much one tiny answer from a five-year-old would play into my life.
“Can we go somewhere else, too?” Brows furrowed in the middle.
“Sure, bud.”
“There’s this place in Orlando, FL; Hot Wheels Race to win. You can join the team, and it's for kids and families. Now that we’re a family, can we go?”
Anna’s eyebrows scrunched. “Ben, why haven’t you said anything about this before?”
“You’re always working, Mama, and I know it probably costs a lot of money. Julian drives race cars, so he makes money, right?”
He swiveled his shoulders to face me. “That’s right, Ben. We could definitely go, but only if it’s okay with your mom. I’ll need to do some research first, too. How does that sound?”
He put his little hands together in a praying sign. His little lip stuck out begging. “Please, Mama, can we do it?”
Good Lord, how did she tell this kid no with that face? “Your dad and I will discuss it, okay, Ben?”
He looked over at me, hesitantly. “Can I call you dad now?”
Chapter Twelve
My. Heart. Melted. I’d only know him for a short time, but I loved this dude so much. “I would be honored if you called me dad, bud.”
“Yay!” Throwing his fist into the air again, he cheered with all the glee and over excitement of a five-year-old. “Can I tell Rex that you race cars and that you’re my dad now?”
“Ben, you can tell Rex, but for now it’s bedtime.” Anna answered for me, and, for that, I was thankful.
Little eyes looked over at me in wonder. “You gonna have breakfast with us in the morning, Dad?”
“No, Julian has to go…”
I managed to cut her off before she continued. “Absolutely. How do pancakes sound? I must say, I make some mean breakfast.”
Cocking his head at me; a smile crossed his face. Anna stood up to try and head in the way I assumed was the bathroom, but before she got too far away, she turned back, ready to say something.
I just grinned at her. “I’ll be here when you get back, and then we can talk.” She nodded once, and then turned to keep Ben going.
I couldn’t keep myself in the living room. I loved the way these two interacted, plus I wanted to know Ben’s bedtime routine if we ever got to the point of Anna letting me keep him overnight. So as quietly as I could, I snuck into the hall.
As I got to the bathroom, I heard Ben’s voice. “So, he’s really my dad?”
“Yeah, baby. He’s your daddy, and he loves you very much.”
“But I don’t understand. Rex’s dad has been around since he was a baby, right? Why hasn’t my dad? Did he not want us?”
My heart shattered as I heard the sadness in his voice. “Oh, no, honey. He loves you very much, and now that he’s home, I’m sure you two will hang out more. Are you happy?”
He didn’t respond, but I could see the nod of his head through the crack in the bathroom door. It didn’t take long to finish his bath and head to his room. I dipped down the hallway when I heard them coming out. I didn’t want them to know I’d been eavesdropping.
Doors opened and closed in his room, and I imagined she was getting him pajamas. “Hey, Mama?”
“Yeah, baby.”
“Can Dad tuck me in tonight?” I couldn’t explain the inexplicable joy I found hearing those words slip from his mouth.
“I’m sure he would love to, bud. Ace?” She called for me, and I came as quickly as possible without seeming too awkward and exuberant. I’d been standing outside the bathroom door listening to their conversation for goodness sake.
I popped my head into his room, and the scene before me had me choking in a breath. Ben sat in the middle of his twin bed while Anna sat on the corner. She smiled at me as I walked in.
“I heard someone needs tucked in around here. I wonder, whoever could that be?”
Ben giggled. “It’s me, Dad.”
“Oh, of course. Silly me.” He giggled some more as I walked toward him. I thought it would be weird, but everything seemed so natural with these two. Like, somehow, we’d always done this sort of thing.
“So, tell me how this tucking in thing works.” I said to Ben.
His eyes widened. “You mean you don’t know how to tuck me in? You’re a grown up. They’re supposed to know these things.” His laughter was adorable.
I admired Anna at that moment. She’d been doing this by herself for five years. Imagining that it hadn’t always been easy tore at me. All these years and she could’ve told me. Leaning over the bed, I pulled the blankets up to Ben’s neck and made a big ordeal of tucking him in.
The giggles started again, and, dammit, I couldn’t help the smile that broke my lips apart.
I kissed him lightly on the forehead, expecting that to also be weird, but it felt right. “Goodnight, little man. Maybe tomorrow we can do something fun together. How’s that sound?” My eyes found Anna, and, yet again, tears threatened to pour from them.
My eyes found Ben again as he nodded enthusiastically “Yes!”
I backed away from the bed and watched as Anna did the same thing I’d just done. She got up and started walking toward the door, only to turn and look at me. “You coming?” She smirked at me.
“Not yet, but I plan to be very soon.” Once we got outside of Ben’s room, I spun her and pulled her into me, letting my mouth crash into hers. She kissed me back fiercely, and it was all I could do not to go all caveman and throw her over my shoulder.
“Need you.” She whispered against my lips.
“What about the rules?” I cocked an eyebrow at her.
“Rules were meant to be broken, right?” She winked as she grabbed my hand and tried to get me to follow her. I did so freely. At the end of the hall, she stopped outside a door I assumed was hers.
She bit her lip. “You don’t have to do this if you don’t want to.”
“Oh, I fully intend to do this. Do I need to explain to you how all in I am again? I swear, I will.”
She tossed her head from side to side lightly. With her hand on the doorknob, she opened it. I let my eyes roam around the room.
It was nothing special, but it seemed so familiar. The smell of her perfume hung in the air, and I closed my eyes to breathe it in. I loved the way she smelled. A queen size bed sat against the back wall with two night stands beside it. To the left of the doorway was a dresser with a small tv on it.
Anna was a simple girl. She wasn’t like the women I’d come to know on the road. They’d screw you for your status or what you could do for them, and she would never be that person. She was way too kind. Which is why I’ve only ever been with Anna. I may be seen with different women all the time, but none of them were actually warming my bed.
Grabbing my hand, she led me into the room, and I shut the door behind me. Spinning, I pulled her into me, and, yet again, took her lips. “I can’t seem to get enough of you, babe. Tonight, I plan to make you feel like a fucking Goddess as I worship you from head to toe.
“Get naked and get on the bed. I’ve had an erection since you opened the door tonight, and I plan on fully remedying it. I want to see you sprawled out below me and waiting. The thought of you begging for my cock is driving me mad.”
She whined at me, but did as she was asked. I watched as she slowly stripped off one piece of clothing after the next and let them fall to the floor. I’d died and was currently living in a dream. I could’ve sworn on it.
When she got to her panties, she turned away from me, only sneaking a peek over her shoulder as she wiggled them down those sexy legs. “You are setting me on fire. I burn to have you beneath me.”
Turning, she winked and headed toward the bed, leaving me to follow her like a loyal dog. I didn’t mind one bit.
Before getting into bed, I stripped myself and watched her mouth drop open as she looked over my body. Her tongue slipped out to lick her lips, and I wanted to bite it. My cock was standing at attention like it always did for this woman.
Reaching out, she grabbed a hold of it and lightly pulled me toward her. Getting the hint of what she wanted, I followed her onto the bed and flipped her over. “I love this pretty face, but I really want to fuck you from behind. Hard and fast, babe. Next time, I’ll go slow, but right now, I’m barely hanging on to the last shred of my sanity.
Getting on hands and knees, ass sticking up in the air, she presented her very wet center to me. I couldn’t help myself when I leaned in to lick one solid line up her slit.
I didn’t need to do much. She was already ready, so I grabbed my cock and positioned it at her entrance. Apparently, not trying to wait for my next move, she slid herself onto my cock and started moving.
My eyes took in the heated sight before me, and I licked my lips. “Fuck, babe. My fat cock looks good stretching you out.” I pulled out slowly, then shoved back in a couple times.
It didn’t take me long to get set into a rhythm. Pretty soon, I was full on fucking her, each thrust harder than the last. She came around my cock more than once, and, the last time, I could hold back no longer.
I let myself go inside her, not giving a single fuck that we hadn’t used a condom. I wanted her knocked up again so I could watch her belly grow, so I could hold her hand as she gave birth to our second child.
No normal man would feel like this, and maybe it made me sick and twisted, but I was all in. Completely in. They were mine. I gave her a slight reprieve for a short while after we finished. It wouldn’t be long until I’d need her again, though.
She’d fallen into a peaceful sleep, and as much as I didn’t want to disturb it, I realized that tonight may be the only night I have for a while, so I needed to make the best use of my time. Cuddling was amazing, don’t get me wrong, but being inside her velvety smooth and warm cunt called to me like a long lost lover.
This time, I woke her with my tongue to her pussy. She started to moan, and I had to cover her mouth. I didn’t need Ben to hear what I was doing with his mom. Her eyes widened when she realized why I was covering her face and a rose blush tore up her cheeks.
“Gotta be quiet, baby.” She nodded, and I removed my hand from her mouth. Slowly sliding into her again, I took my time like I said I would. Each time she came, I had to cover her mouth.
I was in the middle of a thrust when we heard it. “Mama?” Turning, I spotted him in the doorway to her room.
Anna laughed when she saw the look of complete horror on my face. “What’s wrong, sweetheart?”
He rubbed his tiny hands against his eyes. “I can’t sleep.”
“Okay, buddy. Go back to bed, and I’ll be there in just a minute okay?”
“All right,” he whispered softly before turning to leave.
I let out the chuckle I’d been holding onto. “So… that happened.”
“Yep, welcome to parenthood. It’s amazing being a parent, but it also really cuts down on the amount of privacy you get. That’s not the first time he’s woken up in the middle of the night.”
“Want me to take care of it?” I asked, not entirely sure what I’d do about it but willing to try.
“No, just give me 10. I’ll be right back.” Slipping on my tee shirt, she jumped out of bed and went to Ben’s room. Feeling like a jerk, I decided to go with her, so I quickly grabbed my pants from the floor and slipped them on. I wanted to know how he was feeling and if there was anything I could do. It would definitely be an adjustment being a parent.
