Finitys end, p.48
Finity's End, page 48
part #7 of Company Wars Series
There wasn’t so much of the interpersonal chatter at Voyager. It mostly ran: I’m dead, I’ve got frostbite, I’m getting too old for this, and, I saw vids I haven’t seen in twenty years. You know they’ve got stuff straight from the last century? At the same time, and more useful, various department heads, also idle but for the easy reach of a handheld, put their gripe lists through channels. It was a compendium of the ship’s small disasters and suggestions, like the suggestion that the long Services shutdown was going to mean no clean towels and people should hang the others carefully and let them dry.
There was one from Molly, down in cargo. JR: thought you should know. Chad and Fletcher had an argument during burn-prep. Jeremy broke it up, on grounds of ship safety. Chad accused Fletcher in the downer artifact business. Fletcher objected. All involved went to quarters for takehold. For your information.
There were six others, of similar content, one that cited the specifics of things said and added the information that it was not just Jeremy, Fletcher, and Chad, but that Sue and Connor had been there.
That built a larger picture.
There was a note from Lyra that said she’d heard from Jeff about the near-fight, but not containing the detail about Connor and Sue.
There was, significantly, no note from any of the alleged participants, and most significantly, there was none from Jeremy, who was supposed to report any problem with Fletcher directly to him.
The artifact matter was back on his section of the deck. They hadn’t time before Esperance to do another search; and the senior staff and particularly the Old Man were going to hear about the encounter, and worry about it. And that made him angry and a little desperate.
He sent back down to Lyra: The encounter between Chad and Fletcher. Who started it?
Lyra answered, realtime: My informant didn’t say. It was in the mess hall entry, a lot of witnesses. I could venture a guess.
Don’t guess, he sent back, trying to reason with his own inclination to be mad at Fletcher for pushing it; and mad at his own junior-crew hotheads for pushing Fletcher. He didn’t know the facts, Lyra didn’t know, and the facts of a specific encounter coming from scattered reports didn’t mass enough information on the problems on A deck in general. He wished he could go to voice, for a multiple conference with Bucklin and Lyra, to see whether three heads could make any better sense of the situation with the junior crew; but ops kept jealous monopoly over the audio channels during a yellow alert, and that would be the condition until Esperance.
He keyed a query to Bucklin, instead, fired him the last five minutes’ autosave and beeped him. For Lyra:
I want you to tag Fletcher. This says nothing about my estimation of who’s in the wrong in the encounter. There’re just too many on the other side for any one person to track. He sent the I’m not happy sign, older than the Hinder Stars.
Lyra echoed it. So did Bucklin. He, Lyra, and Bucklin owned handhelds, with all the access into Finity systems that went with it; and all the accessibility of senior staff to their transmissions. Nothing in Finity command was walled off from anybody at a higher level, and there wasn’t anybody at a lower level than the juniors were. He couldn’t even discuss the theft without the chance of some senior intercepting what was going on—and he didn’t want the recurrence of the matter racketing up to the Old Man’s attention. That he couldn’t find a solution was more than frustrating: it was approaching desperation to get at the truth—and the culprit wasn’t talking.
I’m coming down there for mess, he said. It was his option, whether to be on A deck or B, and right now it sounded like a good idea to get down there as soon as the engines shut down and crew began to move about.
We could confine junior crew to quarters, Bucklin sent back.
It was certainly an idea. There was no reason junior crew had to move about during their jump-prep inertial glide. Services were shut down. There was no work to be done.
It would at least let us get clear of system, Lyra sent.
It let them keep status quo with the juniors, as far as the mass-point—where, the Old Man had warned them, senior crew might need their wits about them, with no distractions.
Good idea, he said to Lyra’s suggestion, and this time did key up the voice function, going onto intercom to every junior-assigned cabin with an official order. “This is JR,” he said. “This is a change in instructions…”
“… Junior crew is to stay in quarters until further notice. Junior officers will deliver meals to junior crew at the rest break, and I suggest you spend the time reviewing safety procedures. If you have any special needs due to the change of arrangements please indicate them to junior staff, and we will take care of them.”
“I think JR found out,” Jeremy said from the upper bunk, the ship continuing under hard push.
“Nothing happened, for God’s sake!”
“I told you!” drifted down from the bunk above.
“You told me, hell!” He recalled he was supposed to be the senior in the arrangement, and shut up, glumly so. He wished they’d get rec. Jeremy was hyped and nervous, swinging his foot over the edge with an energy he hadn’t complained of yet, but he’d been on the verge.
“You just tell them shut up, is all,” Jeremy said.
“Oh, that’d do a lot of good.”
“Well, it’s better than staring at them. They don’t like staring.”
“I don’t care what they don’t like.” He had a printout in his lap and he dragged a knee up to prop it against the force that made the page bend. “I’m reading, anyway.”
“What are you reading?”
“Physics for the hopeless,” he said. It was the manual, the long version, in the section on yellow alert. “What do they mean ‘red takeholds’?”
“They’re painted red”
“Why?”
“So you can see them. They’re all those inset hand-grips up and down the corridors, so you don’t splat all over if we move.”
“I guessed that. What’s this red alarm?”
“The klaxon. If you hear the klaxon you grab hold where you are. If it’s just a bell you have time to run to any door and bunk down, two to a bunk, or you get in the shower. If you’re carrying anything you throw it in the shower and shut the door.”
It was in the print, clearer with Jeremy’s condensed version.
“Why the shower?” Then the answer dawned on him, and he said, in unison with Jeremy: “Smaller space.”
“So you don’t fall as far,” Jeremy added cheerfully. “A meter’s better than three meters.”
“Have you ever done that?”
“Stuck it out in the shower? Yeah. One time JR and Bucklin had six in their quarters, one in each bunk, three in the shower.”
“Counting them.”
“No, Lyra and Toby snugged up on the bunk base and Toby broke his nose. Everybody was coming back from mess and the take hold sounded, and I bunked down with Angie.”
“Who’s Angie?”
“She kind of took care of me,” Jeremy said. Then added, in a slightly quieter voice: “She died.”
He’d walked into it. Damn, he thought. “I’m sorry.”
“Lot of people died,” Jeremy said. And then added with a shaky sigh: “I’m kind of tired of people dying, you know?”
What did you say? “Maybe that’s past,” he offered, best hope he could think of. “Maybe if the ship’s gone to trading for a living, then things can settle down.”
“We’re on yellow, right now.”
Jeremy’s worry was beginning to make him nervous. And he tried not to be. “Hey, we gave the Union-siders a whole bottle of Scotch. They’ve got to be in a good mood”
“I mean, you know, I didn’t think I was going to like this trading business.”
“So do you?”
“Yeah. Kind of. I didn’t think I would.”
“Neither did I. I thought being on this ship was the worst thing that could happen to me.”
“Mariner was wild,” Jeremy said with what sounded like forced cheerfulness. “Mariner was really wild.”
“Yeah,” he agreed. “It was.”
“Did you like it?”
“Yeah,” Fletcher said, and realized he actually wasn’t lying.
“I did, too,” Jeremy said. “I really did. It was the best time I ever had.”
He couldn’t exactly say that about it.
But he didn’t somehow think Jeremy was conning him, at least to the limits of Jeremy’s intentions. That ever touched him, swelled up something in his heart so that he didn’t know how to follow that remark, except to say that the time they had wasn’t over, and there wasn’t any use in their being panicked now.
“The ship doesn’t wait,” he said quietly. “Isn’t that what they said when I was late to board? The ship doesn’t wait and nothing’s ever stopped her. She’s fought Mazian’s carriers, for God’s sake. She’s not going to run scared of some skuz freighter.”
“No,” Jeremy agreed, with a nervous laugh, and sounding a little more like himself. “No, Champlain might be tough, I mean, a lot of the rimrunners are pretty good, but we’re way far better.”
“Well, then, quit worrying. What are you worried about?”
“Nothing. The takeholds and the lockdowns, this is pretty usual. This is pretty like always.” Jeremy was quiet a moment. Then, fiercely, but with the wobble back in his voice: “I’m not scared. I never was scared. I’m just kind of disgusted.”
“With what?”
“I mean, I liked the liberties we had, I mean, you know, we could go out on docks most always, and Sol Station was pretty wild.”
“I imagine it was. You’d rather be back there?”
“No,” Jeremy said faintly. “We couldn’t ever go outside Blue Sector, ever. They’d just kind of, you know, approve a couple of places we could go to, JR would, or Paul, before him. But always line-of-sight with the ship berth. Even the seniors couldn’t. They had this place set aside, we’d stay there, and we could do stuff only in Blue.”
“You mean I was conned.”
“Not ever. I mean, before Mariner that was the way it was. We got to go out of Blue a little, at Pell. Pell was pretty good. But Mariner was the best. It was really the best.”
“They’re talking about us spending a month there.”
“If it happens.”
“It’ll happen. I bet it happens.” Fletcher was determined, now, to jolly the kid out of it. “What’s your first stop? First off, when we get there, what do you want to do?”
“Dessert bar,” Jeremy said.
“For a month?”
“Every day.”
“They’ll have to rate you as cargo.”
Jeremy grinned and flung a pillow over the edge.
He flung it back. It failed to clear the level of Jeremy’s bunk. Fletcher retrieved the pillow and made two more tries at throwing it against the push.
“You’ll never make it!” Jeremy cried
“You wait!” He unbelted and carefully, joints protesting, got out of his bunk, standing on the drawers, pillow in hand. Jeremy saw him and tucked up, trying to protect himself.
“No fair, no fair!”
“You started it!” He got his arm up and slammed the pillow at Jeremy’s midsection.
“Truce!” Jeremy cried. “You’ll break your neck! Cut it out!”
“Truce,” he said, and, leaving the pillow with Jeremy, got back down into his bunk without breaking anything, a little out of breath.
“You all right?” Jeremy asked.
“Sure I’m all right. You’re the one that cheats on the V-dumps! You’re worried?”
“I don’t want you to break your neck.”
“Good. Suppose you stay in your bunk after jump, why don’t you?”
“If you don’t get up again.”
“Deal.”
He thought maybe Jeremy hadn’t expected to get snagged into that. There was silence for a while.
“Jeremy?”
“Yeah.”
“You all right up there?”
“Yeah, sure.”
There was more silence.
An uncomfortable silence. Fletcher couldn’t say why he was worried by it. He figured Jeremy was reading or listening to his music.
“So you say Esperance is supposed to be pretty good,” he said finally, looking for response out of the upper bunk. “Maybe they’ll give us some time there.”
“Yeah,” Jeremy said. “That’d be better. That’d be a lot better than Voyager. My toes still hurt.”
“You put salve on them?”
“Yeah, but they still hurt.”
“I don’t think I want to work cargo.”
“Me, either. Freeze your posterity off.”
“Yeah,” he said. The atmosphere was better then. “You got that Mariner Aquarium book?”
“I lent it.” He was disappointed. He was in a sudden mood to review station amenities. “Linda and her fish tape.”
“Yeah,” Jeremy said. There was a sudden shift from the bunk above. An upside down head, hair hanging. “You know she can’t eat fish now?”
“You’re kidding.”
“Says she sees them looking at her. I’m not sure I like fishcakes, either.”
“Downers eat them, with no trouble. Eat them raw.”
“Ugh,” Jeremy said. “Ugh. You’re kidding.”
“I thought about trying it.”
“Ugh,” was Jeremy’s judgment. The head popped back out of sight “That’s disgusting.”
The engines reached shut-down. Supper arrived fairly shortly. Bucklin brought it, and it was more than sandwiches.
It was hot. There was fruit pie.
“Shh,” Bucklin said, “Bridge crew suppers. Don’t tell anybody.”
“So why the lockdown?” Jeremy wanted to know.
But Bucklin left without a word, except to ask if they were set. And Fletcher didn’t feel inclined to borrow trouble.
They finished the dinners, tucked the containers into their bag into the under-counter pneumatic, and began their prep for the long run up to jump, music, tapes, comfortable clothing, trank, nutri-packs and preservable fruit bars.
“We’re supposed to eat lots,” Jeremy said, “if we get strung jumps.”
“You mean one after another.”
“Yessir,” Jeremy said, pulling on a fleece shirt. He still seemed nervous. Maybe, Fletcher thought, there was good reason. But they kept each others’ spirits up. He didn’t want to be scared in front of Jeremy; Jeremy didn’t want to act scared in front of him.
They tucked down for the night, let the lights dim.
In time the engines cut in, slowly swinging their bunks toward the horizontal configuration.
“Night,” Jeremy said to him.
Fletcher was conscious of night, unequivocal night, all around a ship very small against that scale.
“Behave,” he said, the way his mother had used to say it to him. “We’ll be fine.”
“Yeah,” Jeremy said. “You think Esperance’ll be like Mariner?”
“Might be. It’s pretty rich, what I hear.”
“That’s good,” Jeremy said. “That’s real good”
Then Jeremy was quiet, and to his own surprise the strong hand of acceleration was a sleep aid. There was nothing else to do. He waked with the jump warning sounding, and the bunk swinging to the inertial position.
“You got it?” Jeremy asked. “You got it?”
“No problem,” he said, reaching for the trank in the dark. Jeremy brightened the lights and he winced against the glare. He found the packet.
Count began. Bridge wanted acknowledgement and Jeremy gave it for both of them.
All accounted for.
On their way to a lonely lump of rock halfway between Voyager and the most remote station in the Alliance.
Almost in Union territory. He’d heard that…
Rain beat on the leaves, ran in small streams off the forested hills. Cylinders were failing, but Fletcher nursed them along to the last before he changed out. Hadn’t spoiled any. Hadn’t any to spare. He kept a steady pace, tracing Old River by his roar above the storm.
You get lost, he’d heard Melody say, Old River he talk loud, loud. You hear he long, long way.
And it was true. He wouldn’t have known his way without remembering that. The Base was upriver, always upriver.
Foot slipped. He went down a slope, got to his knee at the bottom. Suit was torn. He kept walking, listening to River, walking in the dark as well.
Waked lethargic in the morning, realizing he’d slept without changing out; and his fingers were numb and leaden as he tried to feel his way through the procedure. He’d not dropped a cylinder yet, or spoiled one, even with numb fingers. But he was down to combining the almost-spent with the still moderately good, and it took a while of shaking hands and short oxygen and grayed-out vision before he could get back to his feet again and walk.
He changed out three more, much sooner than he’d thought, and knew his decisions weren’t as good as before. He sat down without intending to, and took the spirit stick from his suit where he’d stashed it, and held it, looking at it while he caught his breath.
Melody and Patch were on their way by now. Feathers bound to the stick were getting wet in the rain that heralded the hisa spring, and rain was good. Spring was good, they’d go, and have a baby that wouldn’t be him.
Terrible burden he’d put on them, a child that stayed a child a lot longer than hisa infants. The child who wouldn’t grow.
He’d had to be told, Turn loose, let go, fend for yourself, Melody child.
Satin said, Go. Go walk with Great Sun.
That part he didn’t want. He wanted, like a child, his way; and that way was to stay in the world he’d prepared for.
But Satin said go. And among downers Satin was the chief, the foremost, the one who’d been out there and up there and walked with Great Sun, too.
He almost couldn’t get his feet under him. He thought, I’ve been really stupid, and now I’ve really done it and Melody can’t help. I’ll die here, on this muddy bank.
And then it seemed there was something he had to do… couldn’t remember what it was, but he had to get up. He had to get up, as long as he could keep doing that.
