Works of grant allen, p.516
Works of Grant Allen, page 516
Mrs. Carvalho asked me often to their pretty little house in Merton Gardens, and I went; but still Ernest never in any way alluded to what had passed. Months went by, and I began to feel that I must crush that little dream entirely out of my heart — if I could. One afternoon I went in to Mrs. Carvalho’s for a cup of five-o’clock tea, and had an uninterrupted tête-à-tête with her for half an hour. We had been exchanging small confidences with one another for a while, and after a pause the old lady laid her gentle hand upon my head and stroked back my hair in such a motherly fashion. “My dear child,” she said, half-sighing, “I do wish my Ernest would only take a fancy to a sweet young girl like you.”
“Mr. Carvalho does not seem quite a marrying man,” I answered, forcing a laugh; “I notice he seldom talks to ladies, but always to men, and those of the solemnest.”
“Ah, my dear, he has had a great disappointment, a terrible disappointment,” said the mother, unburdening herself. “I can tell you all about it, for you are a Jamaican born, and though you are one of the ‘proud Palmettos’ people you are not full of prejudices like the rest of them, and so you will understand it. Before we left Jamaica he was in love with a young lady there; he never told me her name, and that is the one secret he has ever kept from me. Well, he talked to her often, and he thought she was above the wicked prejudices of race and colour; she seemed to encourage him and to be fond of his society. At last he proposed to her. Then she wrote him a cruel, cruel letter, a letter that he never showed me, but he told me what was in it; and it drove him away from the island immediately. It was a letter full of wicked reproaches about our octaroon blood, and it broke his heart with the shock of its heartlessness. He has never cared for any woman since.”
“Then does he love her still?” I asked, breathless.
“How can he? No! but he says he loves the memory of what he once thought her. He has seen her since, somewhere in London, and spoken to her; but he can never love her again. Yet, do you know, I feel sure he cannot help loving her in spite of himself; and he often goes out at night, I am sure, to watch her door, to see her come in and out, for the sake of the love he once bore her. My Ernest is not the sort of man who can love twice in a lifetime.”
“Perhaps,” I said, colouring, “if he were to ask her again she might accept him. Things are so different here in England, and he is a famous man now.”
Mrs. Carvalho shook her head slowly. “Oh no!” she answered; “he would never importune or trouble her. Though she has rejected him, he is too loyal to the love he once bore her, too careful of wounding her feelings or even her very prejudices, ever to obtrude his love again upon her notice. If she cannot love him of herself and for himself, spontaneously, he would not weary her out with oft asking. He will never marry now; of that I am certain.”
My eyes filled with tears. As they did so, I tried to brush them away unseen behind my fan, but Mrs. Carvalho caught my glance, and looked sharply through me with a sudden gleam of discovery. “Why,” she said, very slowly and distinctly, with a pause and a stress upon each word, “I believe it must have been you yourself, Miss Hazleden.” And as she spoke she held her open hand, palm outward, stretched against me with a gesture of horror, as one might shrink in alarm from a coiled rattlesnake.
“Dear Mrs. Carvalho,” I cried, clasping my hands before her, “do hear me, I entreat you; do let me explain to you how it all happened.”
“There is no explanation possible,” she answered sternly. “Go. You have wrecked a life that might otherwise have been happy and famous, and then you come to a mother with an explanation!”
“That letter was not mine,” I said boldly; for I saw that to put the truth shortly in that truest and briefest form was the only way of getting her to listen to me now.
She sank back in a chair and folded her hands faintly one above the other. “Tell me it all,” she said in a weak voice. “I will hear you.”
So I told her all. I did not try to extenuate my own weakness in writing from my mother’s dictation; but I let her see what I had suffered then and what I had suffered since. When I had finished, she drew me towards her gently, and printed one kiss upon my forehead. “It is hard to forget,” she said softly, “but you were very young and helpless, and your mother was a terrible woman. The iron has entered into your own soul too. Go home, dear, and I will see about this matter.”
We fell upon one another’s necks, the Palmettos slave-girl and I, and cried together glad tears for ten minutes. Then I wiped my red eyes dry, covered them with a double fold of my veil, and ran home hurriedly in the dusk to auntie’s. It was such a terrible relief to have got it all over.
That evening, about eleven o’clock, auntie had gone to bed, and I was sitting up by myself, musing late over the red cinders in the little back drawing-room grate. I felt as though I couldn’t sleep, and so I was waiting up till I got sleepy. Suddenly there came a loud knock and a ring at the bell, after which Amelia ran in to say that a gentleman wanted to see me in the dining-room on urgent business, and would I please come down to speak with him immediately. I knew at once it was Ernest.
The moment I entered the room, he never said a word, but he took my two hands eagerly in his, and then he kissed me fervently on the lips half a dozen times over. “And now, Edith,” he said, “we need say no more about the past, for my mother has explained it all to me; we will only think about the future.”
I have no distinct recollection what o’clock it was before Ernest left that evening; but I know auntie sent down word twice to say it was high time I went to bed, and poor Amelia looked awfully tired and very sleepy. However, it was settled then and there that Ernest and I should be married early in October.
A few days later, after the engagement had been announced to all our friends, dear Mrs. Bouverie Barton paid me a congratulatory call. “You are a very lucky girl, my dear,” she said to me kindly. “We are half envious of you; I wish we could find another such husband as Mr. Carvalho for my Christina. But you have carried off the prize of the season, and you are well worthy of him. It is a very great honour for any girl to win and deserve the love of such a man as Ernest Carvalho.”
Will you believe it, so strangely do one’s first impressions and early ideas about people cling to one, that though I had often felt before how completely the tables had been turned since we two came to England, it had not struck me till that moment that in the eyes of the world at large it was Ernest who was doing an honour to me and not I who was doing an honour to Ernest. I felt ashamed to think that Mrs. Bouverie Barton should see instinctively the true state of the case, while I, who loved and admired him so greatly, should have let the shadow of that old prejudice stand even now between me and the lover I was so proud to own. But when I took dear old Mrs. Carvalho’s hand in mine the day of our wedding, and kissed her, and called her mother for the first time, I felt that I had left the guilt and shame of slavery for ever behind me, and that I should strive ever after to live worthily of Ernest Carvalho’s love.
PAUSODYNE:
A GREAT CHEMICAL DISCOVERY.
Walking along the Strand one evening last year towards Pall Mall, I was accosted near Charing Cross Station by a strange-looking, middle-aged man in a poor suit of clothes, who surprised and startled me by asking if I could tell him from what inn the coach usually started for York.
“Dear me!” I said, a little puzzled. “I didn’t know there was a coach to York. Indeed, I’m almost certain there isn’t one.”
The man looked puzzled and surprised in turn. “No coach to York?” he muttered to himself, half inarticulately. “No coach to York? How things have changed! I wonder whether nobody ever goes to York nowadays!”
“Pardon me,” I said, anxious to discover what could be his meaning; “many people go to York every day, but of course they go by rail.”
“Ah, yes,” he answered softly, “I see. Yes, of course, they go by rail. They go by rail, no doubt. How very stupid of me!” And he turned on his heel as if to get away from me as quickly as possible.
I can’t exactly say why, but I felt instinctively that this curious stranger was trying to conceal from me his ignorance of what a railway really was. I was quite certain from the way in which he spoke that he had not the slightest conception what I meant, and that he was doing his best to hide his confusion by pretending to understand me. Here was indeed a strange mystery. In the latter end of this nineteenth century, in the metropolis of industrial England, within a stone’s-throw of Charing Cross terminus, I had met an adult Englishman who apparently did not know of the existence of railways. My curiosity was too much piqued to let the matter rest there. I must find out what he meant by it. I walked after him hastily, as he tried to disappear among the crowd, and laid my hand upon his shoulder, to his evident chagrin.
“Excuse me,” I said, drawing him aside down the corner of Craven Street; “you did not understand what I meant when I said people went to York by rail?”
He looked in my face steadily, and then, instead of replying to my remark, he said slowly, “Your name is Spottiswood, I believe?”
Again I gave a start of surprise. “It is,” I answered; “but I never remember to have seen you before.”
“No,” he replied dreamily; “no, we have never met till now, no doubt; but I knew your father, I’m sure; or perhaps it may have been your grandfather.”
“Not my grandfather, certainly,” said I, “for he was killed at Waterloo.”
“At Waterloo! Indeed! How long since, pray?”
I could not refrain from laughing outright. “Why, of course,” I answered, “in 1815. There has been nothing particular to kill off any large number of Englishmen at Waterloo since the year of the battle, I suppose.”
“True,” he muttered, “quite true; so I should have fancied.” But I saw again from the cloud of doubt and bewilderment which came over his intelligent face that the name of Waterloo conveyed no idea whatsoever to his mind.
Never in my life had I felt so utterly confused and astonished. In spite of his poor dress, I could easily see from the clear-cut face and the refined accent of my strange acquaintance that he was an educated gentleman — a man accustomed to mix in cultivated society. Yet he clearly knew nothing whatsoever about railways, and was ignorant of the most salient facts in English history. Had I suddenly come across some Caspar Hauser, immured for years in a private prison, and just let loose upon the world by his gaolers? or was my mysterious stranger one of the Seven Sleepers of Ephesus, turned out unexpectedly in modern costume on the streets of London? I don’t suppose there exists on earth a man more utterly free than I am from any tinge of superstition, any lingering touch of a love for the miraculous; but I confess for a moment I felt half inclined to suppose that the man before me must have drunk the elixir of life, or must have dropped suddenly upon earth from some distant planet.
The impulse to fathom this mystery was irresistible. I drew my arm through his. “If you knew my father,” I said, “you will not object to come into my chambers and take a glass of wine with me.”
“Thank you,” he answered half suspiciously; “thank you very much. I think you look like a man who can be trusted, and I will go with you.”
We walked along the Embankment to Adelphi Terrace, where I took him up to my rooms, and seated him in my easy-chair near the window. As he sat down, one of the trains on the Metropolitan line whirred past the Terrace, snorting steam and whistling shrilly, after the fashion of Metropolitan engines generally. My mysterious stranger jumped back in alarm, and seemed to be afraid of some immediate catastrophe. There was absolutely no possibility of doubting it. The man had obviously never seen a locomotive before.
“Evidently,” I said, “you do not know London. I suppose you are a colonist from some remote district, perhaps an Australian from the interior somewhere, just landed at the Tower?”
“No, not an Austrian” — I noted his misapprehension— “but a Londoner born and bred.”
“How is it, then, that you seem never to have seen an engine before?”
“Can I trust you?” he asked in a piteously plaintive, half-terrified tone. “If I tell you all about it, will you at least not aid in persecuting and imprisoning me?”
I was touched by his evident grief and terror. “No,” I answered, “you may trust me implicitly. I feel sure there is something in your history which entitles you to sympathy and protection.”
“Well,” he replied, grasping my hand warmly, “I will tell you all my story; but you must be prepared for something almost too startling to be credible.”
“My name is Jonathan Spottiswood,” he began calmly.
Again I experienced a marvellous start: Jonathan Spottiswood was the name of my great-great-uncle, whose unaccountable disappearance from London just a century since had involved our family in so much protracted litigation as to the succession to his property. In fact, it was Jonathan Spottiswood’s money which at that moment formed the bulk of my little fortune. But I would not interrupt him, so great was my anxiety to hear the story of his life.
“I was born in London,” he went on, “in 1750. If you can hear me say that and yet believe that possibly I am not a madman, I will tell you the rest of my tale; if not, I shall go at once and for ever.”
“I suspend judgment for the present,” I answered. “What you say is extraordinary, but not more extraordinary perhaps than the clear anachronism of your ignorance about locomotives in the midst of the present century.”
“So be it, then. Well, I will tell you the facts briefly in as few words as I can. I was always much given to experimental philosophy, and I spent most of my time in the little laboratory which I had built for myself behind my father’s house in the Strand. I had a small independent fortune of my own, left me by an uncle who had made successful ventures in the China trade; and as I was indisposed to follow my father’s profession of solicitor, I gave myself up almost entirely to the pursuit of natural philosophy, following the researches of the great Mr. Cavendish, our chief English thinker in this kind, as well as of Monsieur Lavoisier, the ingenious French chemist, and of my friend Dr. Priestley, the Birmingham philosopher, whose new theory of phlogiston I have been much concerned to consider and to promulgate. But the especial subject to which I devoted myself was the elucidation of the nature of fixed air. I do not know how far you yourself may happen to have heard respecting these late discoveries in chemical science, but I dare venture to say that you are at least acquainted with the nature of the body to which I refer.”
“Perfectly,” I answered with a smile, “though your terminology is now a little out of date. Fixed air was, I believe, the old-fashioned name for carbonic acid gas.”
“Ah,” he cried vehemently, “that accursed word again! Carbonic acid has undone me, clearly. Yes, if you will have it so, that seems to be what they call it in this extraordinary century; but fixed air was the name we used to give it in our time, and fixed air is what I must call it, of course, in telling you my story. Well, I was deeply interested in this curious question, and also in some of the results which I obtained from working with fixed air in combination with a substance I had produced from the essential oil of a weed known to us in England as lady’s mantle, but which the learned Mr. Carl Linnæus describes in his system as Alchemilla vulgaris. From that weed I obtained an oil which I combined with a certain decoction of fixed air into a remarkable compound; and to this compound, from its singular properties, I proposed to give the name of Pausodyne. For some years I was almost wholly engaged in investigating the conduct of this remarkable agent; and lest I should weary you by entering into too much detail, I may as well say at once that it possessed the singular power of entirely suspending animation in men or animals for several hours together. It is a highly volatile oil, like ammonia in smell, but much thicker in gravity; and when held to the nose of an animal, it causes immediate stoppage of the heart’s action, making the body seem quite dead for long periods at a time. But the moment a mixture of the pausodyne with oil of vitriol and gum resin is presented to the nostrils, the animal instantaneously revives exactly as before, showing no evil effects whatsoever from its temporary simulation of death. To the reviving mixture I have given the appropriate name of Anegeiric.
“Of course you will instantly see the valuable medical applications which may be made of such an agent. I used it at first for experimenting upon the amputation of limbs and other surgical operations. It succeeded admirably. I found that a dog under the influence of pausodyne suffered his leg, which had been broken in a street accident, to be set and spliced without the slightest symptom of feeling or discomfort. A cat, shot with a pistol by a cruel boy, had the bullet extracted without moving a muscle. My assistant, having allowed his little finger to mortify from neglect of a burn, permitted me to try the effect of my discovery upon himself; and I removed the injured joints while he remained in a state of complete insensibility, so that he could hardly believe afterwards in the actual truth of their removal. I felt certain that I had invented a medical process of the very highest and greatest utility.
“All this took place in or before the year 1781. How long ago that may be according to your modern reckoning I cannot say; but to me it seems hardly more than a few months since. Perhaps you would not mind telling me the date of the current year. I have never been able to ascertain it.”
“This is 1881,” I said, growing every moment more interested in his tale.
