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Quayle said, “They’ll read your mind and embarrass you just for the fun of it. They ought to be—taught better.”
Burkhalter blinked in the sunlight. “Well, Mr. Quayle, it’s this way. A Baldy’s got his problems, too. He’s got to orient himself to a world that isn’t telepathic; and I suppose a lot of Baldies rather feel that they’re letting their specialization go to waste. There are jobs a man like me is suited for—”
“Man!” He caught the scrap of thought from Quayle. He ignored it, his face as always a mobile mask, and went on.
“Semantics have always been a problem, even in countries speaking only one tongue. A qualified Baldy is a swell interpreter. And, though there aren’t any Baldies on the detective forces, they often work with the police. It’s rather like being a machine that can do only a few things.”
“A few things more than humans can,” Quayle said.
Sure, Burkhalter thought, if we could compete on equal footing with nontelepathic humanity. But would blind men trust one who could see? Would they play poker with him? A sudden, deep bitterness put an unpleasant taste in Burkhalter’s mouth. What was the answer? Reservations for Baldies? Isolation? And would a nation of blind men trust those with vision enough for that? Or would they be dusted off—the sure cure, the check-and-balance system that made war an impossibility.
He remembered when Red Bank had been dusted off, and maybe that had been justified. The town was getting too big for its boots, and personal dignity was a vital factor: you weren’t willing to lose face as long as a dagger swung at your belt. Similarly, the thousands upon thousands of little towns that covered America, each with its peculiar specialty—helicopter manufacture for Huron and Michigan, vegetable fanning for Conoy and Diego, textiles and education and art and machines—each little town had a wary eye on all the others. The science and research centers were a little larger; nobody objected to that, for technicians never made war except under pressure; but few of the towns held more than a few hundred families. It was check-and-balance in most efficient degree; whenever a town showed signs of wanting to become a city—thence, a capital, thence, an imperialistic empire—it was dusted off. Though that had not happened for a long while. And Red Bank might have been a mistake.
Geopolitically it was a fine setup; sociologically it was acceptable, but brought necessary changes. There was subconscious swashbuckling. The rights of the individual had become more highly regarded as decentralization took place. And men learned.
They learned a monetary system based primarily upon barter. They learned to fly; nobody drove surface cars. They learned new things, but they did not forget the Blowup, and in secret places near every town were hidden the bombs that could utterly and fantastically exterminate a town, as such bombs had exterminated the cities during the Blowup.
And everybody knew how to make those bombs. They were beautifully, terribly simple. You could And the ingredients anywhere and prepare them easily. Then you could take your helicopter over a town, drop an egg overside—and perform an erasure.
Outside of the wilderness malcontents, the maladjusted people found in every race, nobody kicked. And the roaming tribes never raided and never banded together in large groups—for fear of an erasure.
The artisans were maladjusted too, to some degree, but they weren’t antisocial, so they lived where they wanted and painted, wrote, composed, and retreated into their own private worlds. The scientists, equally maladjusted in other lines, retreated to their slightly larger towns, banding together in small universes, and turned out remarkable technical achievements.
And the Baldies—found jobs where they could.
No nontelepath would have viewed the world environment quite as Burkhalter did. He was abnormally conscious of the human element, attaching a deeper, more profound significance to those human values, undoubtedly because he saw men in more than the ordinary dimensions. And also, in a way—and inevitably—he looked at humanity from outside.
Yet he was human. The barrier that telepathy had raised made men suspicious of him, more so than if he had had two heads—then they could have pitied. As it was—
As it was, he adjusted the scanner until new pages of the typescript came flickering into view above. “Say when,” he told Quayle.
Quayle brushed back his gray hair. “I feel sensitive all over,” he objected. “After all, I’ve been under a considerable strain correlating my material.”
“Well, we can always postpone publication.” Burkhalter threw out the suggestion casually, and was pleased when Quayle didn’t nibble. He didn’t like to fail, either.
“No. No, I want to get the thing done now.”
“Mental catharsis—”
“Well, by a psychologist, perhaps. But now by—”
“—a Baldy. You know that a lot of psychologists have Baldy helpers. They get good results, too.”
Quayle turned on the tobacco smoke, inhaling slowly. “I suppose . . . I’ve not had much contact with Baldies. Or too much—without selectivity. I saw some in an asylum once. I’m not being offensive, am I?”
“No,” Burkhalter said. “Every mutation can run too close to the line. There were lots of failures. The hard radiations brought about one true mutation: hairless telepaths, but they didn’t all hew true to the line. The mind’s a queer gadget—you know that. It’s a colloid balancing, figuratively, on the point of a pin. If there’s any flaw, telepathy’s apt to bring it out. So you’ll find that the Blowup caused a hell of a lot of insanity. Not only among the Baldies, but among the other mutations that developed then. Except that the Baldies are almost always paranoidal.”
“And dementia praecox,” Quayle said, finding relief front his own embarrassment in turning the spotlight on Burkhalter.
“And d. p. Yeah. When a confused mind acquires the telepathic instinct—a hereditary bollixed mine!—it can’t handle it all. There’s disorientation. The paranoia group retreat into their own private worlds, and the d. p.’s simply don’t realize that this world exists. There are distinctions, but I think that’s a valid basis.”
“In a way,” Quayle said, “it’s frightening. I can’t think of any historcial parallel.”
“No.”
“What do you think the end of it will be?”
“I don’t know,” Burkhalter said thoughtfully. “I think we’ll be assimilated. There hasn’t been enough time yet. We’re specialized in a certain way, and we’re useful in certain jobs.”
“If you’re satisfied to stay there. The Baldies who won’t wear wigs—”
“They’re so bad-tempered I expect they’ll all be killed off in duels eventually,” Burkhalter smiled. “No great loss. The rest of us, we’re getting what we want—acceptance. We don’t have horns or halos.”
Quayle shook his head. “I’m glad, I think, that I’m not a telepath. The mind’s mysterious enough anyway, without new doors opening. Thanks for letting me talk. I think I’ve got part of it talked out, anyway. Shall we try the script again?”
“Sure,” Burkhalter said, and again the procession of pages flickered on the screen above them. Quayle did seem less guarded; his thoughts were more lucid, and Burkhalter was able to get at the true meanings of many of the hitherto muddy statements. They worked easily, the telepath dictating rephrasings into his dictograph, and only twice did they have to hurdle emotional tangles. At noon they knocked off, and Burkhalter, with a friendly nod, took the dropper to his office, where he found some calls listed on the visor. He ran off repeats, and a worried look crept into his blue eyes.
He talked with Dr. Moon in a booth at luncheon. The conversation lasted so long that only the induction cups kept the coffee hot, but Burkhalter had more than one problem to discuss. And he’d known Moon for a long time. The fat man was one of the few who were not, he thought, subconsciously repelled by the fact that Burkhalter was a Baldy.
“I’ve never fought a duel in my life, Doc. I can’t afford to.”
“You can’t afford not to. You can’t turn down the challenge, Ed. It isn’t done.”
“But this fellow Reilly—I don’t even know him.”
“I know of him,” Moon said. “He’s got a bad temper. Dueled a lot.”
Burkhalter slammed his hand down on the table. “It’s ridiculous. I won’t do it!”
“Well,” Moon said practically, “Your wife can’t fight him. And if Ethel’s been reading Mrs. Reilly’s mind and gossiping, Reilly’s got a case.”
“Don’t you think we know the dangers of that?” Burkhalter asked in a low voice. “Ethel doesn’t go around reading minds any more than I do. It’d be fatal—for us. And for any other Baldy.”
“Not the hairless ones. The ones who won’t wear wigs. They—”
“They’re fools. And they’re giving all the Baldies a bad name. Point one, Ethel doesn’t read minds; she didn’t read Mrs. Reilly’s. Point two, she doesn’t gossip.”
“La Reilly is obviously an hysterical type,” Moon said. “Word got around about this scandal, Whatever it was, and Mrs. Reilly remembered she’d seen Ethel lately. She’s the type who needs a scapegoat anyway. I rather imagine she let word drop herself, and had to cover up so her husband wouldn’t blame her.”
“I’m not going to accept Reilly’s challenge,” Burkhalter said doggedly.
“You’ll have to.”
“Listen, Doc, maybe—”
“What?”
“Nothing. An idea. It might work. Forget about that; I think I’ve got the right answer. It’s the only one, anyway. I can’t afford t duel and that’s flat.”
“You’re not a coward.”
“There’s one thing Baldies are afraid of,” Burkhalter said, “and that’s public opinion. I happen to know I’d kill Reilly. That’s the reason why I’ve never dueled in my life.”
Moon drank coffee. “Hm-m-m. I think—”
“Don’t. There was something else. I’m wondering if I ought to send Al off to a special school.”
“What’s wrong with the kid?”
“He’s turning out to be a beautiful delinquent. His teacher called me this morning. The playback was something to hear. He’s talking funny and acting funny. Playing nasty little tricks on his friends—if he has any left by now.”
“All kids are cruel.”
“Kids don’t know what cruelty means. That’s why they’re cruel; they lack empathy. But Al’s getting—” Burkhalter gestured helplessly. “He’s turning into a young tyrant. He doesn’t seem to give a care about anything, according to his teacher.”
“That’s not too abnormal, so far.”
“That’s not the worst. He’s become very egotistical. Too much so.
I don’t want him to turn into one of the wigless Baldies you were mentioning.” Burkhalter didn’t mention the other possibility: paranoia, insanity.
“He must pick things up somewhere. At home? Scarcely, Ed. Where else does he go?”
“The usual places. He’s got a normal environment.”
“I should think,” Moon said, “that a Baldy would have unusual opportunities in training a youngster. The mental rapport—eh?”
“Yeah. But—I don’t know. The trouble is,” Burkhalter said almost inaudibly, “I wish to God I wasn’t different. We didn’t ask to be telepaths. Maybe it’s all very wonderful in the long run, but I’m one person, and I’ve got my own microcosm. People who deal in long-term sociology are apt to forget that. They can figure out the answers, but it’s every individual man—or Baldy—who’s got to fight his own personal battle while he’s alive. And it isn’t as clear-cut as a battle. It’s worse; it’s the necessity of watching yourself every second, of fitting yourself into a world that doesn’t want you.”
Moon looked uncomfortable. “Are you being a little sorry for yourself, Ed?”
Burkhalter shook himself. “I am, Doc. But I’ll work it out.”
“We both will,” Moon said, but Burkhalter didn’t really expect much help from him. Moon would be willing, but it was horribly different for an ordinary man to conceive that a Baldy was—the same. It was the difference that men looked for, and found.
Anyway, he’d have to settle matters before he saw Ethel again. He could easily conceal the knowledge, but she would recognize a mental barrier and wonder. Their marriage had been the more ideal because of the additional rapport, something that compensated for an inevitable, half-sensed estrangement from the rest of the world.
“How’s ‘Psychohistory’ going?” Moon asked after a while.
“Better than I expected. I’ve got a new angle on Quayle. If I talk about myself, that seems to draw him out. It gives him enough confidence to let him open his mind to me. We may have those first chapters ready for Oldfield, in spite of everything.”
“Good. Just the same, he can’t rush us. If we’ve got to shoot out books that fast, we might as well go back to the days of semantic confusion. Which we won’t!”
“Well,” Burkhalter said, getting up, “I’ll smoosh along. See you.”
“About Reilly—”
“Let it lay.” Burkhalter went out, heading for the address his visor had listed. He touched the dagger at his belt. Dueling wouldn’t do for Baldies, but—
A greeting thought crept into his mind, and, under the arch that led into the campus, he paused to grin at Sam Shane, a New Orleans area Baldy who affected a wig of flaming red. They didn’t bother to talk.
Personal question, invoking mental, moral and physical well-being.
A satisfied glow. And you, Burkhalter? For an instant Burkhalter half-saw what the symbol of his name meant to Shane.
Shadow of trouble.
A warm, willing anxiousness to help. There was a bond between Baldies.
Burkhalter thought: But everywhere I’d go there’d be the same suspicion. We’re freaks.
More so elsewhere, Shane thought. There are a lot of us in Modoc Town. People are invariably more suspicious where they’re not in daily contact with—Us.
The boy—
I’ve trouble too, Shane thought. It’s worried me. My two girls—
Delinquency?
Yes.
Common denominators?
Don’t know. More than one of Us have had the same trouble with our kids.
Secondary characteristic of the mutation? Second generation emergence?
Doubtful, Shane thought, scowling in his mind, shading his concept with a wavering question. We’ll think it over later. Must go.
Burkhalter sighed and went on his way. The houses were strung out around the central industry of Modoc, and he cut through a park toward his destination. It was a sprawling curved building, but it wasn’t inhabited, so Burkhalter filed Reilly for future reference, and, with a glance at his timer, angled over a hillside toward the school. As he expected, it was recreation time, and he spotted Al lounging under a tree, some distance from his companions, who were involved in a pleasantly murderous game of Blowup.
He sent his thought ahead.
The Green Man had almost reached the top of the mountain. The hairy gnomes were pelting on his trail, most unfairly shooting sizzling light-streaks at their quarry, but the Green Man was agile enough to dodge. The rocks were leaning—“Al.”
—inward, pushed by the gnomes, ready to—
“Al!” Burkhalter sent his thought with the word, jolting into the boy’s mind, a trick he very seldom employed, since youth was practically defenseless against such invasion.
“Hello, Dad.” Al said, undisturbed. “What’s up?”
“A report from your teacher.”
“I didn’t do anything.”
“She told me what is was. Listen, kid. Don’t start getting any funny ideas in your head.”
“I’m not.”
“Do you think a Baldy is better or worse than a non-Baldy?”
Al moved his feet uncomfortably. He didn’t answer.
“Well,” Burkhalter said, “the answer is both and neither. And here’s why. A Baldy can communicate mentally, but he lives in a world where most people can’t.”
“They’re dumb,” Al opined.
“Not so dumb, if they’re better suited to their world than you are. You might as well say a frog’s better than a fish because he’s an amphibian.” Burkhalter briefly amplified and explained the terms telepathically.
“Well . . . oh, I get it, all right.”
“Maybe,” Burkhalter said slowly, “what you need is a swift kick in the pants. That thought wasn’t so hot. What was it again?”
Al tried to hide it, blanking out. Burkhalter began to lift the barrier, an easy matter for him, but stopped. Al regarded his father in a most unfilial way—in fact, as a sort of boneless fish. That had been clear.
“If you’re so egotistical,” Burkhalter pointed out, “maybe you can see it this way. Do you know why there aren’t any Baldies in key positions?”
“Sure I do,” Al said unexpectedly. “They’re afraid.”
“Of what, then?”
“The—” That picture had been very curious, a commingling of something vaguely familiar to Burkhalter. “The non-Baldies.”
“Well, if we took positions where we could take advantage of our telepathic function, non-Baldies would be plenty envious—especially if we were successes. If a Baldy even invented a better mousetrap, plenty of people would say he’d stolen the idea from some non-Baldy’s mind. You get the point?”
“Yes, Dad.” But he hadn’t. Burkhalter sighed and looked up. He recognized one of Shane’s girls on a nearby hillside, sitting alone against a boulder. There were other isolated figures here and there. Far to the east the snowy rampart of the Rockies made an irregular pattern against blue sky.
“Al,” Burkhalter said, “I don’t want you to get a chip on your shoulder. This is a pretty swell world, and the people in it are, on the whole, nice people. There’s a law of averages. It isn’t sensible for us to get too much wealth or power, because that’d militate against us—and we don’t need it anyway. Nobody’s poor. We find our work, we do it, and we’re reasonably happy. We have some advantages non-Baldies don’t have; in marriage, for example. Mental intimacy is quite as important as physical. But I don’t want you to feel that being a Baldy makes you a god. It doesn’t. I can still,” he added thoughtfully, “spank it out of you, in case you care to follow out that concept in your mind at the moment.”
Burkhalter blinked in the sunlight. “Well, Mr. Quayle, it’s this way. A Baldy’s got his problems, too. He’s got to orient himself to a world that isn’t telepathic; and I suppose a lot of Baldies rather feel that they’re letting their specialization go to waste. There are jobs a man like me is suited for—”
“Man!” He caught the scrap of thought from Quayle. He ignored it, his face as always a mobile mask, and went on.
“Semantics have always been a problem, even in countries speaking only one tongue. A qualified Baldy is a swell interpreter. And, though there aren’t any Baldies on the detective forces, they often work with the police. It’s rather like being a machine that can do only a few things.”
“A few things more than humans can,” Quayle said.
Sure, Burkhalter thought, if we could compete on equal footing with nontelepathic humanity. But would blind men trust one who could see? Would they play poker with him? A sudden, deep bitterness put an unpleasant taste in Burkhalter’s mouth. What was the answer? Reservations for Baldies? Isolation? And would a nation of blind men trust those with vision enough for that? Or would they be dusted off—the sure cure, the check-and-balance system that made war an impossibility.
He remembered when Red Bank had been dusted off, and maybe that had been justified. The town was getting too big for its boots, and personal dignity was a vital factor: you weren’t willing to lose face as long as a dagger swung at your belt. Similarly, the thousands upon thousands of little towns that covered America, each with its peculiar specialty—helicopter manufacture for Huron and Michigan, vegetable fanning for Conoy and Diego, textiles and education and art and machines—each little town had a wary eye on all the others. The science and research centers were a little larger; nobody objected to that, for technicians never made war except under pressure; but few of the towns held more than a few hundred families. It was check-and-balance in most efficient degree; whenever a town showed signs of wanting to become a city—thence, a capital, thence, an imperialistic empire—it was dusted off. Though that had not happened for a long while. And Red Bank might have been a mistake.
Geopolitically it was a fine setup; sociologically it was acceptable, but brought necessary changes. There was subconscious swashbuckling. The rights of the individual had become more highly regarded as decentralization took place. And men learned.
They learned a monetary system based primarily upon barter. They learned to fly; nobody drove surface cars. They learned new things, but they did not forget the Blowup, and in secret places near every town were hidden the bombs that could utterly and fantastically exterminate a town, as such bombs had exterminated the cities during the Blowup.
And everybody knew how to make those bombs. They were beautifully, terribly simple. You could And the ingredients anywhere and prepare them easily. Then you could take your helicopter over a town, drop an egg overside—and perform an erasure.
Outside of the wilderness malcontents, the maladjusted people found in every race, nobody kicked. And the roaming tribes never raided and never banded together in large groups—for fear of an erasure.
The artisans were maladjusted too, to some degree, but they weren’t antisocial, so they lived where they wanted and painted, wrote, composed, and retreated into their own private worlds. The scientists, equally maladjusted in other lines, retreated to their slightly larger towns, banding together in small universes, and turned out remarkable technical achievements.
And the Baldies—found jobs where they could.
No nontelepath would have viewed the world environment quite as Burkhalter did. He was abnormally conscious of the human element, attaching a deeper, more profound significance to those human values, undoubtedly because he saw men in more than the ordinary dimensions. And also, in a way—and inevitably—he looked at humanity from outside.
Yet he was human. The barrier that telepathy had raised made men suspicious of him, more so than if he had had two heads—then they could have pitied. As it was—
As it was, he adjusted the scanner until new pages of the typescript came flickering into view above. “Say when,” he told Quayle.
Quayle brushed back his gray hair. “I feel sensitive all over,” he objected. “After all, I’ve been under a considerable strain correlating my material.”
“Well, we can always postpone publication.” Burkhalter threw out the suggestion casually, and was pleased when Quayle didn’t nibble. He didn’t like to fail, either.
“No. No, I want to get the thing done now.”
“Mental catharsis—”
“Well, by a psychologist, perhaps. But now by—”
“—a Baldy. You know that a lot of psychologists have Baldy helpers. They get good results, too.”
Quayle turned on the tobacco smoke, inhaling slowly. “I suppose . . . I’ve not had much contact with Baldies. Or too much—without selectivity. I saw some in an asylum once. I’m not being offensive, am I?”
“No,” Burkhalter said. “Every mutation can run too close to the line. There were lots of failures. The hard radiations brought about one true mutation: hairless telepaths, but they didn’t all hew true to the line. The mind’s a queer gadget—you know that. It’s a colloid balancing, figuratively, on the point of a pin. If there’s any flaw, telepathy’s apt to bring it out. So you’ll find that the Blowup caused a hell of a lot of insanity. Not only among the Baldies, but among the other mutations that developed then. Except that the Baldies are almost always paranoidal.”
“And dementia praecox,” Quayle said, finding relief front his own embarrassment in turning the spotlight on Burkhalter.
“And d. p. Yeah. When a confused mind acquires the telepathic instinct—a hereditary bollixed mine!—it can’t handle it all. There’s disorientation. The paranoia group retreat into their own private worlds, and the d. p.’s simply don’t realize that this world exists. There are distinctions, but I think that’s a valid basis.”
“In a way,” Quayle said, “it’s frightening. I can’t think of any historcial parallel.”
“No.”
“What do you think the end of it will be?”
“I don’t know,” Burkhalter said thoughtfully. “I think we’ll be assimilated. There hasn’t been enough time yet. We’re specialized in a certain way, and we’re useful in certain jobs.”
“If you’re satisfied to stay there. The Baldies who won’t wear wigs—”
“They’re so bad-tempered I expect they’ll all be killed off in duels eventually,” Burkhalter smiled. “No great loss. The rest of us, we’re getting what we want—acceptance. We don’t have horns or halos.”
Quayle shook his head. “I’m glad, I think, that I’m not a telepath. The mind’s mysterious enough anyway, without new doors opening. Thanks for letting me talk. I think I’ve got part of it talked out, anyway. Shall we try the script again?”
“Sure,” Burkhalter said, and again the procession of pages flickered on the screen above them. Quayle did seem less guarded; his thoughts were more lucid, and Burkhalter was able to get at the true meanings of many of the hitherto muddy statements. They worked easily, the telepath dictating rephrasings into his dictograph, and only twice did they have to hurdle emotional tangles. At noon they knocked off, and Burkhalter, with a friendly nod, took the dropper to his office, where he found some calls listed on the visor. He ran off repeats, and a worried look crept into his blue eyes.
He talked with Dr. Moon in a booth at luncheon. The conversation lasted so long that only the induction cups kept the coffee hot, but Burkhalter had more than one problem to discuss. And he’d known Moon for a long time. The fat man was one of the few who were not, he thought, subconsciously repelled by the fact that Burkhalter was a Baldy.
“I’ve never fought a duel in my life, Doc. I can’t afford to.”
“You can’t afford not to. You can’t turn down the challenge, Ed. It isn’t done.”
“But this fellow Reilly—I don’t even know him.”
“I know of him,” Moon said. “He’s got a bad temper. Dueled a lot.”
Burkhalter slammed his hand down on the table. “It’s ridiculous. I won’t do it!”
“Well,” Moon said practically, “Your wife can’t fight him. And if Ethel’s been reading Mrs. Reilly’s mind and gossiping, Reilly’s got a case.”
“Don’t you think we know the dangers of that?” Burkhalter asked in a low voice. “Ethel doesn’t go around reading minds any more than I do. It’d be fatal—for us. And for any other Baldy.”
“Not the hairless ones. The ones who won’t wear wigs. They—”
“They’re fools. And they’re giving all the Baldies a bad name. Point one, Ethel doesn’t read minds; she didn’t read Mrs. Reilly’s. Point two, she doesn’t gossip.”
“La Reilly is obviously an hysterical type,” Moon said. “Word got around about this scandal, Whatever it was, and Mrs. Reilly remembered she’d seen Ethel lately. She’s the type who needs a scapegoat anyway. I rather imagine she let word drop herself, and had to cover up so her husband wouldn’t blame her.”
“I’m not going to accept Reilly’s challenge,” Burkhalter said doggedly.
“You’ll have to.”
“Listen, Doc, maybe—”
“What?”
“Nothing. An idea. It might work. Forget about that; I think I’ve got the right answer. It’s the only one, anyway. I can’t afford t duel and that’s flat.”
“You’re not a coward.”
“There’s one thing Baldies are afraid of,” Burkhalter said, “and that’s public opinion. I happen to know I’d kill Reilly. That’s the reason why I’ve never dueled in my life.”
Moon drank coffee. “Hm-m-m. I think—”
“Don’t. There was something else. I’m wondering if I ought to send Al off to a special school.”
“What’s wrong with the kid?”
“He’s turning out to be a beautiful delinquent. His teacher called me this morning. The playback was something to hear. He’s talking funny and acting funny. Playing nasty little tricks on his friends—if he has any left by now.”
“All kids are cruel.”
“Kids don’t know what cruelty means. That’s why they’re cruel; they lack empathy. But Al’s getting—” Burkhalter gestured helplessly. “He’s turning into a young tyrant. He doesn’t seem to give a care about anything, according to his teacher.”
“That’s not too abnormal, so far.”
“That’s not the worst. He’s become very egotistical. Too much so.
I don’t want him to turn into one of the wigless Baldies you were mentioning.” Burkhalter didn’t mention the other possibility: paranoia, insanity.
“He must pick things up somewhere. At home? Scarcely, Ed. Where else does he go?”
“The usual places. He’s got a normal environment.”
“I should think,” Moon said, “that a Baldy would have unusual opportunities in training a youngster. The mental rapport—eh?”
“Yeah. But—I don’t know. The trouble is,” Burkhalter said almost inaudibly, “I wish to God I wasn’t different. We didn’t ask to be telepaths. Maybe it’s all very wonderful in the long run, but I’m one person, and I’ve got my own microcosm. People who deal in long-term sociology are apt to forget that. They can figure out the answers, but it’s every individual man—or Baldy—who’s got to fight his own personal battle while he’s alive. And it isn’t as clear-cut as a battle. It’s worse; it’s the necessity of watching yourself every second, of fitting yourself into a world that doesn’t want you.”
Moon looked uncomfortable. “Are you being a little sorry for yourself, Ed?”
Burkhalter shook himself. “I am, Doc. But I’ll work it out.”
“We both will,” Moon said, but Burkhalter didn’t really expect much help from him. Moon would be willing, but it was horribly different for an ordinary man to conceive that a Baldy was—the same. It was the difference that men looked for, and found.
Anyway, he’d have to settle matters before he saw Ethel again. He could easily conceal the knowledge, but she would recognize a mental barrier and wonder. Their marriage had been the more ideal because of the additional rapport, something that compensated for an inevitable, half-sensed estrangement from the rest of the world.
“How’s ‘Psychohistory’ going?” Moon asked after a while.
“Better than I expected. I’ve got a new angle on Quayle. If I talk about myself, that seems to draw him out. It gives him enough confidence to let him open his mind to me. We may have those first chapters ready for Oldfield, in spite of everything.”
“Good. Just the same, he can’t rush us. If we’ve got to shoot out books that fast, we might as well go back to the days of semantic confusion. Which we won’t!”
“Well,” Burkhalter said, getting up, “I’ll smoosh along. See you.”
“About Reilly—”
“Let it lay.” Burkhalter went out, heading for the address his visor had listed. He touched the dagger at his belt. Dueling wouldn’t do for Baldies, but—
A greeting thought crept into his mind, and, under the arch that led into the campus, he paused to grin at Sam Shane, a New Orleans area Baldy who affected a wig of flaming red. They didn’t bother to talk.
Personal question, invoking mental, moral and physical well-being.
A satisfied glow. And you, Burkhalter? For an instant Burkhalter half-saw what the symbol of his name meant to Shane.
Shadow of trouble.
A warm, willing anxiousness to help. There was a bond between Baldies.
Burkhalter thought: But everywhere I’d go there’d be the same suspicion. We’re freaks.
More so elsewhere, Shane thought. There are a lot of us in Modoc Town. People are invariably more suspicious where they’re not in daily contact with—Us.
The boy—
I’ve trouble too, Shane thought. It’s worried me. My two girls—
Delinquency?
Yes.
Common denominators?
Don’t know. More than one of Us have had the same trouble with our kids.
Secondary characteristic of the mutation? Second generation emergence?
Doubtful, Shane thought, scowling in his mind, shading his concept with a wavering question. We’ll think it over later. Must go.
Burkhalter sighed and went on his way. The houses were strung out around the central industry of Modoc, and he cut through a park toward his destination. It was a sprawling curved building, but it wasn’t inhabited, so Burkhalter filed Reilly for future reference, and, with a glance at his timer, angled over a hillside toward the school. As he expected, it was recreation time, and he spotted Al lounging under a tree, some distance from his companions, who were involved in a pleasantly murderous game of Blowup.
He sent his thought ahead.
The Green Man had almost reached the top of the mountain. The hairy gnomes were pelting on his trail, most unfairly shooting sizzling light-streaks at their quarry, but the Green Man was agile enough to dodge. The rocks were leaning—“Al.”
—inward, pushed by the gnomes, ready to—
“Al!” Burkhalter sent his thought with the word, jolting into the boy’s mind, a trick he very seldom employed, since youth was practically defenseless against such invasion.
“Hello, Dad.” Al said, undisturbed. “What’s up?”
“A report from your teacher.”
“I didn’t do anything.”
“She told me what is was. Listen, kid. Don’t start getting any funny ideas in your head.”
“I’m not.”
“Do you think a Baldy is better or worse than a non-Baldy?”
Al moved his feet uncomfortably. He didn’t answer.
“Well,” Burkhalter said, “the answer is both and neither. And here’s why. A Baldy can communicate mentally, but he lives in a world where most people can’t.”
“They’re dumb,” Al opined.
“Not so dumb, if they’re better suited to their world than you are. You might as well say a frog’s better than a fish because he’s an amphibian.” Burkhalter briefly amplified and explained the terms telepathically.
“Well . . . oh, I get it, all right.”
“Maybe,” Burkhalter said slowly, “what you need is a swift kick in the pants. That thought wasn’t so hot. What was it again?”
Al tried to hide it, blanking out. Burkhalter began to lift the barrier, an easy matter for him, but stopped. Al regarded his father in a most unfilial way—in fact, as a sort of boneless fish. That had been clear.
“If you’re so egotistical,” Burkhalter pointed out, “maybe you can see it this way. Do you know why there aren’t any Baldies in key positions?”
“Sure I do,” Al said unexpectedly. “They’re afraid.”
“Of what, then?”
“The—” That picture had been very curious, a commingling of something vaguely familiar to Burkhalter. “The non-Baldies.”
“Well, if we took positions where we could take advantage of our telepathic function, non-Baldies would be plenty envious—especially if we were successes. If a Baldy even invented a better mousetrap, plenty of people would say he’d stolen the idea from some non-Baldy’s mind. You get the point?”
“Yes, Dad.” But he hadn’t. Burkhalter sighed and looked up. He recognized one of Shane’s girls on a nearby hillside, sitting alone against a boulder. There were other isolated figures here and there. Far to the east the snowy rampart of the Rockies made an irregular pattern against blue sky.
“Al,” Burkhalter said, “I don’t want you to get a chip on your shoulder. This is a pretty swell world, and the people in it are, on the whole, nice people. There’s a law of averages. It isn’t sensible for us to get too much wealth or power, because that’d militate against us—and we don’t need it anyway. Nobody’s poor. We find our work, we do it, and we’re reasonably happy. We have some advantages non-Baldies don’t have; in marriage, for example. Mental intimacy is quite as important as physical. But I don’t want you to feel that being a Baldy makes you a god. It doesn’t. I can still,” he added thoughtfully, “spank it out of you, in case you care to follow out that concept in your mind at the moment.”
