“Minnie,” John said, “there’s something I meant to say — —”

  “Oh, John,” I cried, and I flung my arms round his neck. It all came with such a flood of surprise.

  “All I meant, Minn — —” John went on, but I checked him.

  “Oh, don’t, John, don’t say anything more,” I said. “It’s just too perfect.” Then I rose and seized him by the wrist. “Come,” I said, “come to Mother,” and I rushed him along the path.

  As soon as Mother saw us come in hand in hand in this way, she guessed everything. She threw both her arms round John’s neck and fairly pinned him against the wall. John tried to speak, but Mother wouldn’t let him. “I saw it all along, John,” she said. “Don’t speak. Don’t say a word. I guessed your love for Minn from the very start. I don’t know what I shall do without her, John, but she’s yours now; take her.” Then Mother began to cry and I couldn’t help crying too. “Take him to Father,” Mother said, and we each took one of John’s wrists and took him to Father on the back verandah. As soon as John saw Father he tried to speak again— “I think I ought to say,” he began, but Mother stopped him. “Father,” she said, “he wants to take our little girl away. He loves her very dearly, Alfred,” she said, “and I think it our duty to let her go, no matter how hard it is, and oh, please Heaven, Alfred, he’ll treat her well and not misuse her, or beat her,” and she began to sob again.

  Father got up and took John by the hand and shook it warmly.

  “Take her, boy,” he said. “She’s all yours now, take her.”

  So John and I were engaged, and in due time our wedding day came and we were married. I remember that for days and days before the wedding day John seemed very nervous and depressed; I think he was worrying, poor boy, as to whether he could really make me happy and whether he could fill my life as it should be filled. But I told him that he was not to worry, because I meant to be happy, and was determined just to make the best of everything.

  Father stayed with John a good deal before the wedding day, and on the wedding morning he went and fetched him to the church in a closed carriage and had him there all ready when we came. It was a beautiful day in September, and the church looked just lovely. I had a beautiful gown of white organdie with tulle at the throat, and I carried a great bunch of white roses, and Father led John up the aisle after me.

  I remember that Mother cried a good deal at the wedding, and told John that he had stolen her darling and that he must never misuse me or beat me. And I remember that the clergyman spoke very severely to John, and told him he hoped he realized the responsibility he was taking and that it was his duty to make me happy. A lot of our old friends were there, and they all spoke quite sharply to John, and all the women kissed me and said they hoped I would never regret what I had done, and I just kept up my spirits by sheer determination, and told them that I had made up my mind to be happy and that I was going to be so.

  So presently it was all over and we were driven to the station and got the afternoon train for New York, and when we sat down in the compartment among all our bandboxes and flowers, John said, “Well, thank God, that’s over.” And I said, “Oh, John, an oath! on our wedding day, an oath!” John said, “I’m sorry, Minn, I didn’t mean — —” but I said, “Don’t, John, don’t make it worse. Swear at me if you must, but don’t make it harder to bear.”

  * * * * *

  We spent our honeymoon in New York. At first I had thought of going somewhere to the great lonely woods, where I could have walked under the great trees and felt the silence of nature, and where John should have been my Viking and captured me with his spear, and where I should be his and his alone and no other man should share me; and John had said all right. Or else I had planned to go away somewhere to the seashore, where I could have watched the great waves dashing themselves against the rocks. I had told John that he should be my cave man, and should seize me in his arms and carry me whither he would. I felt somehow that for my development I wanted to get as close to nature as ever I could — that my mind seemed to be reaching out for a great emptiness. But I looked over all the hotel and steamship folders I could find and it seemed impossible to get good accommodation, so we came to New York. I had a great deal of shopping to do for our new house, so I could not be much with John, but I felt it was not right to neglect him, so I drove him somewhere in a taxi each morning and called for him again in the evening. One day I took him to the Metropolitan Museum, and another day I left him at the Zoo, and another day at the aquarium. John seemed very happy and quiet among the fishes.

  So presently we came back home, and I spent many busy days in fixing and arranging our new house. I had the drawing-room done in blue, and the dining-room all in dark panelled wood, and a boudoir upstairs done in pink and white enamel to match my bedroom and dressing-room. There was a very nice little room in the basement next to the coal cellar that I turned into a “den” for John, so that when he wanted to smoke he could go down there and do it. John seemed to appreciate his den at once, and often would stay down there so long that I had to call to him to come up.

  When I look back on those days they seem very bright and happy. But it was not very long before a change came. I began to realize that John was neglecting me. I noticed it at first in small things. I don’t know just how long it was after our marriage that John began to read the newspaper at breakfast. At first he would only pick it up and read it in little bits, and only on the front page. I tried not to be hurt at it, and would go on talking just as brightly as I could, without seeming to notice anything. But presently he went on to reading the inside part of the paper, and then one day he opened up the financial page and folded the paper right back and leant it against the sugar-bowl.

  I could not but wonder whether John’s love for me was what it had been. Was it cooling? I asked myself. And what was cooling it? It hardly seemed possible, when I looked back to the wild passion with which he had proposed to me on the garden bench, that John’s love was waning. But I kept noticing different little things. One day in the spring-time I saw John getting out a lot of fishing tackle from a box and fitting it together. I asked him what he was going to do, and he said that he was going to fish. I went to my room and had a good cry. It seemed dreadful that he could neglect his wife for a few worthless fish.

  So I decided to put John to the test. It had been my habit every morning after he put his coat on to go to the office to let John have one kiss, just one weeny kiss, to keep him happy all day. So this day when he was getting ready I bent my head over a big bowl of flowers and pretended not to notice. I think John must have been hurt, as I heard him steal out on tiptoe.

  Well, I realized that things had come to a dreadful state, and so I sent over to Mother, and Mother came, and we had a good cry together. I made up my mind to force myself to face things and just to be as bright as ever I could. Mother and I both thought that things would be better if I tried all I could to make something out of John. I have always felt that every woman should make all that she can out of her husband. So I did my best first of all to straighten up John’s appearance. I shifted the style of collar he was wearing to a tighter kind that I liked better, and I brushed his hair straight backward instead of forward, which gave him a much more alert look. Mother said that John needed waking up, and so we did all we could to wake him up. Mother came over to stay with me a good deal, and in the evenings we generally had a little music or a game of cards.

  About this time another difficulty began to come into my married life, which I suppose I ought to have foreseen — I mean the attentions of other gentlemen. I have always called forth a great deal of admiration in gentlemen, but I have always done my best to act like a lady and to discourage it in every possible way. I had been innocent enough to suppose that this would end with married life, and it gave me a dreadful shock to realize that such was not the case. The first one I noticed was a young man who came to the house, at an hour when John was out, for the purpose, so he said at least, of reading the gas meter. He looked at me in just the boldest way and asked me to show him the way to the cellar. I don’t know whether it was a pretext or not, but I just summoned all the courage I had and showed him to the head of the cellar stairs. I had determined that if he tried to carry me down with him I would scream for the servants, but I suppose something in my manner made him desist, and he went alone. When he came up he professed to have read the meter and he left the house quite quietly. But I thought it wiser to say nothing to John of what had happened.

  There were others too. There was a young man with large brown eyes who came and said he had been sent to tune the piano. He came on three separate days, and he bent his ear over the keys in such a mournful way that I knew he must have fallen in love with me. On the last day he offered to tune my harp for a dollar extra, but I refused, and when I asked him instead to tune Mother’s mandoline he said he didn’t know how. Of course I told John nothing of all this.

  Then there was Mr. McQueen, who came to the house several times to play cribbage with John. He had been desperately in love with me years before — at least I remember his taking me home from a hockey match once, and what a struggle it was for him not to come into the parlour and see Mother for a few minutes when I asked him; and, though he was married now and with three children, I felt sure when he came to play cribbage with John that it meant something. He was very discreet and honourable, and never betrayed himself for a moment, and I acted my part as if there was nothing at all behind. But one night, when he came over to play and John had had to go out, he refused to stay even for an instant. He had got his overshoes off before I told him that John was out, and asked him if he wouldn’t come into the parlour and hear Mother play the mandoline, but he just made one dive for his overshoes and was gone. I knew that he didn’t dare to trust himself.

  Then presently a new trouble came. I began to suspect that John was drinking. I don’t mean for a moment that he was drunk, or that he was openly cruel to me. But at times he seemed to act so queerly, and I noticed that one night when by accident I left a bottle of raspberry vinegar on the sideboard overnight, it was all gone in the morning. Two or three times when McQueen and John were to play cribbage, John would fetch home two or three bottles of bevo with him and they would sit sipping all evening.

  I think he was drinking bevo by himself, too, though I could never be sure of it. At any rate he often seemed queer and restless in the evenings, and instead of staying in his den he would wander all over the house. Once we heard him — I mean Mother and I and two lady friends who were with us that evening — quite late (after ten o’clock) apparently moving about in the pantry. “John,” I called, “is that you?” “Yes, Minn,” he answered, quietly enough, I admit. “What are you doing there?” I asked. “Looking for something to eat,” he said. “John,” I said, “you are forgetting what is due to me as your wife. You were fed at six. Go back.”

  He went. But yet I felt more and more that his love must be dwindling to make him act as he did. I thought it all over wearily enough and asked myself whether I had done everything I should to hold my husband’s love. I had kept him in at nights. I had cut down his smoking. I had stopped his playing cards. What more was there that I could do?

  * * * * *

  So at last the conviction came to me that I must go away. I felt that I must get away somewhere and think things out. At first I thought of Palm Beach, but the season had not opened and I felt somehow that I couldn’t wait. I wanted to get away somewhere by myself and just face things as they were. So one morning I said to John, “John, I think I’d like to go off somewhere for a little time, just to be by myself, dear, and I don’t want you to ask to come with me or to follow me, but just let me go.” John said, “All right, Minn. When are you going to start?” The cold brutality of it cut me to the heart, and I went upstairs and had a good cry and looked over steamship and railroad folders. I thought of Havana for a while, because the pictures of the harbour and the castle and the queer Spanish streets looked so attractive, but then I was afraid that at Havana a woman alone by herself might be simply persecuted by attentions from gentlemen. They say the Spanish temperament is something fearful. So I decided on Bermuda instead. I felt that in a beautiful, quiet place like Bermuda I could think everything all over and face things, and it said on the folder that there were always at least two English regiments in garrison there, and the English officers, whatever their faults, always treat a woman with the deepest respect.

  So I said nothing more to John, but in the next few days I got all my arrangements made and my things packed. And when the last afternoon came I sat down and wrote John a long letter, to leave on my boudoir table, telling him that I had gone to Bermuda. I told him that I wanted to be alone: I said that I couldn’t tell when I would be back — that it might be months, or it might be years, and I hoped that he would try to be as happy as he could and forget me entirely, and to send me money on the first of every month.

  * * * * *

  Well, it was just at that moment that one of those strange coincidences happen, little things in themselves, but which seem to alter the whole course of a person’s life. I had nearly finished the letter to John that I was to leave on the writing-desk, when just then the maid came up to my room with a telegram. It was for John, but I thought it my duty to open it and read it for him before I left. And I nearly fainted when I saw that it was from a lawyer in Bermuda — of all places — and it said that a legacy of two hundred thousand dollars had been left to John by an uncle of his who had died there, and asking for instructions about the disposition of it.

  A great wave seemed to sweep over me, and all the wicked thoughts that had been in my mind — for I saw now that they were wicked — were driven clean away. I thought how completely lost poor old John would feel if all this money came to him and he didn’t have to work any more and had no one at his side to help and guide him in using it.

  I tore up the wicked letter I had written, and I hurried as fast as I could to pack up a valise with John’s things (my own were packed already, as I said). Then presently John came in, and I broke the news to him as gently and as tenderly as I could about his uncle having left him the money and having died. I told him that I had found out all about the trains and the Bermuda steamer, and had everything all packed and ready for us to leave at once. John seemed a little dazed about it all, and kept saying that his uncle had taught him to play tennis when he was a little boy, and he was very grateful and thankful to me for having everything arranged, and thought it wonderful.

  I had time to telephone to a few of my women friends, and they just managed to rush round for a few minutes to say good-bye. I couldn’t help crying a little when I told them about John’s uncle dying so far away with none of us near him, and I told them about the legacy, and they cried a little to hear of it all; and when I told them that John and I might not come back direct from Bermuda, but might take a run over to Europe first, they all cried some more.

  We left for New York that evening, and after we had been to Bermuda and arranged about a suitable monument for John’s uncle and collected the money, we sailed for Europe.

  All through the happy time that has followed, I like to think that through all our trials and difficulties affliction brought us safely together at last.

  THE SPLIT IN THE CABINET. OR, THE FATE OF ENGLAND

  (A POLITICAL NOVEL of the Days that Were)

  CHAPTER I.

  “THE FATE OF England hangs upon it,” murmured Sir John Elphinspoon, as he sank wearily into an armchair. For a moment, as he said “England,” the baronet’s eye glistened and his ears lifted as if in defiance, but as soon as he stopped saying it his eye lost its brilliance and his ears dropped wearily at the sides of his head.

  Lady Elphinspoon looked at her husband anxiously. She could not conceal from herself that his face, as he sank into his chair, seemed somehow ten years older than it had been ten years ago.

  “You are home early, John?” she queried.

  “The House rose early, my dear,” said the baronet.

  “For the All England Ping-Pong match?”

  “No, for the Dog Show. The Prime Minister felt that the Cabinet ought to attend. He said that their presence there would help to bind the colonies to us. I understand also that he has a pup in the show himself. He took the Cabinet with him.”

  “And why not you?” asked Lady Elphinspoon.

  “You forget, my dear,” said the baronet, “as Foreign Secretary my presence at a Dog Show might be offensive to the Shah of Persia. Had it been a Cat Show — —”

  The baronet paused and shook his head in deep gloom.

  “John,” said his wife, “I feel that there is something more. Did anything happen at the House?”

  Sir John nodded.

  “A bad business,” he said. “The Wazuchistan Boundary Bill was read this afternoon for the third time.”

  No woman in England, so it was generally said, had a keener political insight than Lady Elphinspoon.

  “The third time,” she repeated thoughtfully, “and how many more will it have to go?”

  Sir John turned his head aside and groaned.

  “You are faint,” exclaimed Lady Elphinspoon, “let me ring for tea.”

  The baronet shook his head.

  “An egg, John — let me beat you up an egg.”

  “Yes, yes,” murmured Sir John, still abstracted, “beat it, yes, do beat it.”

  Lady Elphinspoon, in spite of her elevated position as the wife of the Foreign Secretary of Great Britain, held it not beneath her to perform for her husband the plainest household service. She rang for an egg. The butler broke it for her into a tall goblet filled with old sherry, and the noble lady, with her own hands, beat the stuff out of it. For the veteran politician, whose official duties rarely allowed him to eat, an egg was a sovereign remedy. Taken either in a goblet of sherry or in a mug of rum, or in half a pint of whisky, it never failed to revive his energies.

 

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