Complete works of hall c.., p.462
Complete Works of Hall Caine, page 462
This was what she had been waiting for, praying for, eating her heart and her life out for.
“Only to see and kiss my boy! It would have been so easy to go then.”
Fatimah, who was snuffling audibly, as she straightened the eiderdown coverlet over the bed, began to hint that if her “sweet eyes” could not see her son she could send him a message.
“Perhaps I know somebody who could see it reaches him, too,” said Fatimah, in a husky whisper.
The old lady understood her instantly.
“You mean Hafiz! I always thought as much. Bring me my writing-case, quick!”
The writing-case was brought and laid open before her, and she made some effort to write a letter, but the power of life was low in her, and after a moment the shaking pen dropped from her fingers.
“Ma’aleysh, my lady!” said Fatimah soothingly. “Tell me what you wish to say. I will remember everything.”
Then the dying mother sent a few touching words as her last message to her beloved son.
“Wait! Let me think. My head is a little — just a little — Yes, this is what I wish to say, Fatimah. Tell my boy that my last thoughts were about him. Though I am sorry he took the side of the false prophet, say I am certain he did what he thought was right. Be sure you tell him I die happy, because I know I shall see him again. If I am never to see him in this world I will do so in the world to come. Say I shall be waiting for him there. And tell him it will not seem long.”
“Could you sign your name for him, my heart?” said Fatimah, in her husky voice.
“Yes, oh, yes, easily,” said the old lady, and then with an awful effort she wrote:
“Your ever-loving Mother.”
At that moment Ibrahim in his green caftan, carrying a small black bag, brought the English Chaplain into the room.
“Peace be to this house,” said the clergyman, using the words of his Church ritual, and the Egyptian nurse, thinking it was an Eastern salutation, answered, “Peace!”
The Chaplain went into the “boys’ room” to put on his surplice, and when he came out of it robed in white, and began to light the candles and prepare the vessels which he placed on the side-table, the old lady was talking to Fatimah in nervous whispers:
“His lordship?”
“Yes!”
“Do you think, my lady—”
She wanted the Consul-General to be present and was half afraid to send for him; but just at that instant the door opened again, and her pale, spiritual face lit up with a smile as she saw her husband come into the room.
The clergyman was now ready to begin, and the old lady looked timidly across the bed at the Consul-General, as if there were something she wished to ask and dare not.
“Yes, I will take the sacrament with you, Janet,” said the old man, and then the old lady’s face shone like the face of an angel.
The Consul-General took the chair by the side of the bed and the chaplain began the service:
“Almighty, ever-living God, Maker of mankind, Who dost correct those Thou dost love—”
All the time the tremendous words reverberated through the room the dying woman was praying fervently, her lips moving to her unspoken words and her eyes shining as if the Lord of Life she had always loved was with her now and she was giving herself to Him — her soul, her all.
The Consul-General was praying, too — praying for the first time to the God he did not know and had never looked to:
“If Thou art God, let her die in peace. It is all I ask — all I wish.”
Thus the two old people took the sacrament together, and when the Communion Service came to a close, the old lady looked again at the Consul-General and asked, with a little confusion, if they might sing a hymn.
The old man bent his head, and a moment later the Chaplain, after a whispered word from the dying woman, began to sing:
“Sun of my soul, Thou Saviour dear,
It is not night if Thou be near...”
At the second bar the old lady joined him in her breaking, cracking voice, and then the Consul-General, too, albeit his throat was choking him, forced himself to sing with her.
“When the soft dews of kindly sleep
My wearied eyelids gently steep...”
It was as much as the Consul-General could do to sing of a faith he did not feel, but he felt tenderly to it for his wife’s sake now, and with a great effort he went on with her to the end:
“If some poor wandering child of thine Have spurned to-day the voice divine...”
The light of another world was in the old lady’s eyes when all was over, and she seemed to be already halfway to heaven.
XVI
ALL the same there was a sweet humanity left in her, too, and when the Chaplain was gone and the side-table had been cleared, and she was left alone with her old husband, there came little gleams of the woman who wanted to he loved to the last.
“How are you now?” he asked.
“Better, so much better,’’ she said, smiling upon him, and caressing with her wrinkled hand the other wrinkled hand that lay on the eiderdown quilt.
The great’ Consul-General, sitting on the chair by the side of the bed, felt as helpless as before, as ignorant as ever of what millions of simple people know — how to talk to those they love when the wings of death are hovering over them; but the sweet old lady, with the wisdom and the courage which God gives to His own on the verge of eternity, began to speak in a lively and natural voice of the end that was coming and what was to follow it.
He was not to allow any of his arrangements to be interfered with, and, above all, the festivities appointed for the King’s Birthday were not to be disturbed.
“They must he necessary or you would not have them, especially now,” she said, “and I shall not be happy if I know that on my account they are not coming off.”
And then, with the sweet childishness which the feebleness of illness brings, she talked of the last King’s Birthday, and of the ball they had given in honour of it.
That had been in their own house, and the dancing had been in the drawing-room, and the Consul-General had told Ibrahim to set the big green arm-chair for her in the alcove, and sitting there she had seen everything. What a spectacle! Such gorgeous uniforms! Such glittering orders! Such beautiful toilettes! Ministers Plenipotentiary, Egyptian Ministers, ladies, soldiers!
The old lady’s pale face filled with light as she thought of all this, but the Consul-General dropped his head, for he knew well what was coming next.
“And, John, don’t you remember? Gordon was there that night, and Helena — dear Helena! How lovely they looked! Among all those lovely people, dear. He was wearing every one of his medals that night, you know. So tall, so brave-looking, a soldier every inch of him, and such a perfect English gentleman! Was there ever anything in the world so beautiful? And Helena, too! She wore a silvery silk, and a kind of coif on her beautiful black hair. Oh, she was the loveliest thing in all the room, I thought! And when they led the cotillon — don’t you remember they led the cotillon, dear? — I could have cried, I was so proud of them.”
The Consul-General continued to sit with his head down, listening to the old lady and saying nothing, yet seeing the scene as she depicted it and feeling again the tingling pride which he, too, had felt but permitted nobody that night to know.
After a moment the beaming face on the bed became clouded over as if that memory had brought other memories less easy to bear — dreams of happy days to come, of honours, and of children.
“Ah, well, God knows best,” she said in a tremulous voice, releasing the Consul-General’s hand and ceasing to speak.
The old man felt as if he would have to hurry out of the room without uttering another word, but as well as he could he controlled himself and said:
“You are agitating yourself, Janet. You must lie quiet now.”
“Yes, I must lie quiet now, and think of — of other things,” she answered.
He was stepping away when she called on him to turn her on her right side, for that was how she always slept, and upon the Egyptian nurse coming hurrying up to help, she said:
“No, no, not you, Fatimah — his lordship.”
Then the Consul-General put his arms about her — feeling how thin and wasted she was and how little of her was left to die — and turning her gently round he laid her back on the pillow which Fatimah had in the meantime shaken out.
While he did so her dim eyes brightened again, and stretching her white hands out of her silk nightdress, she clasped them about his neck with the last tender effort of the woman who wanted to be fondled to the last.
The strain of talking had been too much for her, and after a few minutes she sank into a restless doze in which the perspiration broke out on her forehead and her face acquired an expression of pain, for sleep knows no pretences. But at length her features became more composed and her breathing more regular, and then the Consul-General, who had been standing aside, mute with anguish, said in a low tone to Fatimah:
“She is sleeping quietly now,” and then he turned to go.
Fatimah followed him to the head of the stairs and said in her husky whisper:
“It will be all over to-night, though — you’ll see it will.”
For a moment he looked steadfastly into the woman’s eyes, and then, without answering her, he walked heavily down the stairs.
Back in the library, he stood for some time with his face to the empty fireplace. Over the mantelpiece there hung a little picture, in a black-and-gilt frame, of a brightfaced boy in an Arab fez. It was more than he could do to look at that portrait now, so he took it off its brass nail and laid it face down on the marble mantel-shelf.
Just at that moment one of his Secretaries brought in a despatch. It was the despatch from the Sirdar, sent in cipher but now written out at length. The Consul-General read it without any apparent emotion and put it aside without a word.
The hours passed slowly; the night was very long; the old man did not go to bed. Not for the first time he was asking himself searching questions about the mystery of life and death, but the great enigma was still baffling him. Could it be possible that while he had occupied himself with the mere shows and semblance of things, calling them by great names, Civilisation and Progress, that simple soul upstairs had been grasping the eternal realities?
There were questions that cut deeper even than that, and now they faced him one by one. Was it true that he had married merely in the hope of having some one to carry on his name and thus fulfil the aspirations of his pride? Had he for nearly forty years locked his heart away from the woman who had been starving for his love, and was it only by the loss of the son who was to have been the crown of his life that they were brought together in the end?
Thus the hoofs of the dark hours beat heavily on the great Proconsul’s brain, and in the awful light that came to him from an open grave the triumphs of the life behind him looked poor and small and mean.
But meantime the palpitating air of the room upstairs was full of a different spirit. The old lady had apparently awakened from her restless sleep, for she had opened her eyes and was talking in a bright and happy voice. Her cheeks were tinged with the glow of health and her whole face was filled with light.
“I knew I should see them,” she said.
“See whom, my heart?” asked Fatimah; but without answering her, the old lady, with the same rapturous expression, went on talking.
“I knew I should, and I have! I have seen both of them!”
“Whom have you seen, my lady?” asked Fatimah again; but once more the dying woman paid no heed to her.
“I saw them as plainly as I see you now, dear. It was in a place I did not know. The sun was so hot, and the room was so close. There was a rush roof and divans all round the walls. But Gordon and Helena were there together, sitting at opposite sides of a table and holding each other’s hands.”
“Allah! Allah!” muttered Fatimah, with upraised hands.
The old lady seemed to hear her, for an indulgent smile passed over her radiant face and she said in a tone of tender remonstrance:
“Don’t be foolish, Fatimah! Of course I saw him. The Lord said I should, and He never breaks His promises. ‘Help me, O God! for Christ’s sake,’ I said. ‘Shall I see my dear son again? O God! give me a sign.’ And He did! Yes, it was in the middle of the night. ‘Janet,’ said a voice, and I was not afraid. ‘Be patient, Janet. You shall see your dear boy before you die.’”
Her face was full of happy visions. The life of this world seemed to be no longer there. A kind of life from the other world appeared to reanimate the sinking woman. The near approach of eternity illumined her whole being with a supernatural light. She was dying in a flood of joy.
“Oh, how good the Lord is! It is so easy to go now! — John, you must not think I suffer any longer, because I don’t. I have no pain now, dear — none whatever.”
Then she clasped her wasted hands together in the attitude of prayer and said in a rustling whisper:
“To-night, Lord Jesus! Let it be to-night!”
After that her rapturous voice died down, and her ecstatic eyes gently closed, but an ineffable smile continued to play on her faintly tinted face, as if she were looking on the wings that were waiting to bear her away.
The Doctor came in at that moment and was told what had occurred.
“Delirium, of course,” he said. A change had come; the crisis was approaching. If the same thing happened at the supreme moment the patient was not to be contradicted; her delusion was to be indulged.
It did not happen.
In the early hours of the morning the Consul-General was called upstairs. There was a deep silence in the bedroom, as if the air had suddenly become empty and void. The day was breaking, and through the windows that looked over to the Nile the white sails of a line of boats that were gliding by seemed like the passing of angels’ wings. Sparrows were twittering in the eaves, and through the windows to the east the first streamers of the sunrise were rising in the sky.
The Consul-General approached the bed and looked down at the pallid face on the pillow. He wanted to stoop and kiss it, but he felt as if it would he a profanation to do so now. His own face was full of the majesty of suffering, for the sealed chambers of his iron soul had been broken open at last.
With his hands clasped behind his back he stood for some minutes quite motionless. Then laying one hand on the brass head-rail of the bed, he leaned over his dead wife and spoke to her as if she could hear.
“Forgive me, Janet! Forgive me,” he said in a low voice that was like a sob.
Did she hear him? Who can say she did not? Was it only a ray from the sunrise that made the Egyptian woman think that over the dead face of the careworn and weary one, whose sweet soul was even then winging its way to heaven, there passed the light of a loving smile?
XVII
WITHIN three days the softening effects on the Consul-General of Lady Nuneham’s death were lost. Out of his very bereavement and the sense of being left friendless and alone he became a harder and severer man than before. His Secretaries were more than ever afraid of him, and his servants trembled as they entered his room.
It heightened his anger against Gordon to believe that by his conduct he had hastened his mother’s end. In his absolute self-abasement there were moments when he would have found it easier to forgive Gordon if he had been a prodigal, a wastrel, prompted to do what he had done by the grossest selfishness; but deep down in some obscure depths of the father’s heart the worst suffering came of the certainty that his son had been moved by that tragic earnestness which belongs only to the greatest and noblest souls.
Still more hardening and embittering to the Consul-General than the memory of Gordon was the thought of Ishmael. It intensified his anger against the Egyptian to feel that having first by his “visionary mummery,” by his “manoeuvring and quackery,” robbed him of his son, he had now, by direct consequence, robbed him of his wife also.
All the Consul-General’s bull-necked strength, all his force of soul, was roused to fury when he thought of that. He was old and tired and he needed rest, but before he permitted himself to think of retirement, he must crush Ishmael Ameer.
Not that he allowed himself to recognise his vindictiveness. Shutting his eyes to his personal motive, he believed he was thinking of England only. Ishmael was the head-centre of an anarchical conspiracy which was using secret and stealthy weapons that were more deadly than bombs; therefore Ishmael must be put down, he must be trampled into the earth, and his movement must be destroyed.
But how?
Within a few hours after Lady Nuneham’s funeral the Grand Cadi came by night, and, with many vague accusations against “the Arab innovator,” repeated his former warning:
“I tell you again, O Excellency! if you permit that man to go on it will be death to the rule of England in Egypt.”
“Then prove what you say, prove it, prove it!”. cried the Consul-General, raising his impatient voice.
But the suave old Moslem judge either could not or would not do so. Indeed, being a Turkish official, accustomed to quite different procedure, he was at a loss to understand why the Consul-General wanted proof.
“Arrest the offender first and you’ll find evidence enough afterward,” he said.
An English statesman could not act on lines like those, so the Consul-General turned back to the despatches of the Sirdar. The last of them — the one received during the dark hours preceding his wife’s death — contained significant passages:
“If this man should develop supernatural pretensions I shall know what to do.”
Ha! There was hope in that! The charlatan element in Ishmael Ameer might carry him far if only the temptation of popular idolatry were strong enough.
Once let a man deceive himself with the idea that he was divine — nay, once let his followers delude themselves with the notion of his divinity — and a civilised government would be bound to make short work of him. ‘ Whosoever and whatsoever he might be, that man must die!
