Complete works of hall c.., p.69
Complete Works of Hall Caine, page 69
“I go to-day to the shelter of the Catholic Church. I had long thought to return to this refuge, though I had hoped to wait until the day your happiness with Greta was complete. That, in Heaven’s purposes, was not to be, and I must leave you without a last farewell. Good-bye, dear son, and God bless and guide you. If you love me, do not grieve for me. It is from love of you I leave you. Think of me as one who is at peace, and I will bless you even in heaven. If ever the world should mock you with your mother’s name, remember that she is your mother still, and that she loved you to the last. Good-bye, dear Paul; you may never know the day when this erring and sorrowing heart will be allowed, in His infinite pity, to join the choirs above. Then, dearest, from the hour when you read this letter, think of me as dead, for I shall be dead to the world.”
Paul held the letter before him, and looked at it long with vacant eyes. Feeling itself seemed gone. Not a tear came from him, not a sigh, not one moan of an overwrought heart escaped him. All was blind, pulseless torpor. He stood there crushed and overwhelmed, a shaken, shattered man. A thousand horrors congealed within him to one deep, dead stupor.
He turned away in silence, and walked out of the house. The empty chambers seemed, as he went, to echo his heavy footsteps. He took the road back toward the vicarage, turning neither to the right nor the left, looking straight before him, and never once shifting his gaze. The road might be long, but now it fretted him no more. The night might be cold, but colder far was the heart within him. The moon might fly behind the cloud floes, and her light burst forth afresh; but for him all was blank night.
In the vicarage the slumberous fire was smoldering down. The straggle-brained guest had been lighted to his bed, and the good parson himself was carrying to his own tranquil closet a head full of the great world’s dust and noise. Greta was still sitting before the dying fire, her heart heavy with an indefinable sensation of dread.
When Paul opened the door his face was very pale and his eyes had a strange look; but he was calm, and spoke quietly. He told what had occurred, and read aloud his mother’s letter. The voice was strong in which he read it, and never a tremor told of the agony his soul was suffering. Then he sat some time without speaking, and time itself had no reckoning.
Greta scarcely spoke, and the old parson said little. What power had words to express a sorrow like this? Death had its solace; but there was no comfort for death in life.
At last Paul told Parson Christian that he wished the marriage to take place at once — to-morrow, or, at latest, the day after that. He told of their intention to leave England, of his father’s friend, and, in answer to questions, of the power of attorney drawn up in the name of his brother.
The old man was deeply moved, but his was the most unselfish of souls. He understood very little of all that was meant by what had been done, and was still to do. But he said, “God bless you and go with you!” though his own wounded heart was bleeding. Greta knelt at his chair, and kissed the tawny old face lined and wrinkled and damp now with a furtive tear. It was agreed that the marriage should take place on Friday. This was Wednesday night.
Paul rose and stepped to the door, and Greta followed him to the porch.
“It is good of you to leave all to your brother,” she said.
“We’ll not speak of it,” he answered.
“Is there not something between you?” she asked.
“Another time, darling.”
Greta recalled Hugh Ritson’s strange threat. Should she mention it to Paul? She had almost done so, when she lifted her eyes to his face. The weary, worn expression checked her. Not now; it would be a cruelty.
“I knew the answer to that omen was somewhere,” he said, “and it has come.”
He stepped over the threshold and stood one pace outside. The snow still lay under foot, crusted with frost. The wind blew strongly, and soughed in the stiff and leafless boughs. Overhead the flying moon at that moment broke through a rack of cloud. At the same instant the red glow of the fire-light found its way through the open door, and was reflected on Paul’s pallid face.
Greta gasped; a thrill passed through her. There, before her, eye to eye with her once again, was the face she saw at the Ghyll!
CHAPTER XIV.
Paul went back home, carrying with him a crushed and broken spirit He threw himself into a chair in a torpor of dejection. When the servants spoke to him, he lifted to their faces two clouded eyes, heavy with suffering, and answered their questions in few words. The maid laid the supper, and told him it was ready. When she returned to clear the cloth, the supper was untouched. Paul stepped up to his mother’s room, and sat down before the cold grate. The candle he carried with him burned out.
In the kitchen the servants of the farm and house gossipped long and bickered vigorously. “Whatever ails Master Paul?” “Crossed in love, maybe.” “Shaf on sec woman’s wit!” “Wherever has mistress gone?” “To buy a new gown, mayhap.” “Sista now how a lass’s first thowt runs on finery!” “Didsta hear nowt when you drove mistress to the rail, Reuben?” “Nay, nowt.” “Dusta say it war thee as drove to the station this afternoon.” “I wouldn’t be for saying as it warn’t.” “Wilta be meeting Master Hugh in the forenoon, Natt?” “Nay, ax Natt na questions. He’s fair tongue-tied to-neet, Natt is. He’s clattering all of it to hisself — swearing a bit, and sec as that.”
When the servants had gone to bed, and the house was quiet, Paul still sat in his mother’s abandoned room. No one but he knew what he suffered that night. He tried to comprehend the disaster that had befallen him. Why had his mother shut herself in a convent? How should her love for him require that she should leave him? To demand answers to these questions was like knocking at the door of a tomb; the voice was silent that could reply; there came no answer save the dull, heavy, hollow echo of his own uncertain knock. All was blind, dumb, insensate torpor. No outlook; no word; no stimulating pang.
His stupor was broken by a vision that for long hours of that dead night burned in his brain like molten lead. The face which Greta had seen, and which his mother must also have seen, seemed to rise up before him as he sat in that deserted chamber. He saw his own face as he might have seen it in a glass. Not even the blackness of night could conceal it. Clear as a face seen in the day it shone and burned in that dark room. He closed his eyes to shut it out, but it was still before him. It was within him. It was imprinted in features of fire on his brain. He trembled with fear, never until that hour knowing what fear was. It acted upon him like his own ghost.
He knew it was but a phantasy, but no phantasy was ever more horrible. He got up to banish it, and it stood before him face to face. He sunk down again, and it sat beside him eye to eye.
Then it changed. For a moment it faded away into a palpitating mist, and the tension of his gaze relaxed. How blessed was that moment’s respite! His thought returned to his mother. “If ever the world should mock you with your mother’s name, remember that she is your mother still, and that she loved you to the last.” Dear, sacred soul. Little fear that he should forget it! Little fear that the wise world should tarnish the fair shrine of that holy love! Tears of tenderness rose to his eyes, and in the midst of them he thought his mother sat before him. Her head was bent; an all-eating shame was crimsoning her pale cheek. Then he knew that other eyes were upon her, looking into her heart, prying deep down into her dead past, keeping open the heavy eyelids that could never sleep. He looked up; his own shadow was silently gazing down upon both of them.
Paul leaped to his feet and ran out of the room. Surely the spirit of his mother still inhabited the deserted chamber. Surely this was the shadow that had driven her away. Big drops of sweat rolled in beads from his forehead. He went out of the house. Heavy black clouds were adrift in a stormy sky; behind them, the bright moon was scudding.
He walked among the naked trees of the gaunt wood at the foot of Coledale, and listened to the short breathings of the wind among the frost-covered boughs. At every second step he gave a quick glance backward. But at last he saw the thing he looked for — it was walking with him side by side, pace for pace.
He passed slowly out of the wood, not daring now to run. The white fell rose sheer up to the grim, gray crags that hung in shaggy, snowy masses over the black seams of the ravines; and the moon’s light rested on them for an instant. Without thought or aim he began to climb. The ascent was perilous at any hour to any foot save that of a mountaineer. The exertion and the watchfulness banished the vision, and his liberated mind turned to Greta. What was life itself now without Greta’s love? Nothing but a succession of days. She was the savior of his outcast state; she was his life’s spring, whence the waters of content might flow. And a flood of emotion came over him, and in his heart he blessed her. It was then that on that gaunt headland he seemed to see her at his side. But between them, and dividing them, stalked the spectre of himself.
All to the east was dense gloom, save where the pulsating red of the smelting house burned in the distance. With no rest for his foot, Paul walked in the direction of the light, and the shadow of his face walked with him. As the wind went by him it whistled in his ear, and it sounded in that solitude like the low cry of the thing at his side.
Old Laird Fisher was at his work of wheeling the refuse of the ore from the mouth of the furnace, and shooting it down the bank. The glow of the hot stone in the iron barrow that he trundled was reflected in sharp white lights on his wrinkled face.
“Ista theer, Mister Paul?” he said, catching his breath and coughing amid the smoke, and shouting between the gusts of wind.
The slow beat of the engine and the clank of the chain of the cage in the shaft deadened the wind’s shrill whistle. The smoke from the bank shot up and swirled away like a long flight of swallows.
Standing there, the vision troubled him no longer. It had been merely a waking phantasy, bred of what Greta said she saw in the snow, and heightened by the shock to his nerves caused by his mother’s departure. The sight of Matthew helped to beat it off. His submissive face was the sign of his broken spirit. A tempest had torn up his only hold on the earth. He was but a poor naked trunk flung on the ground, without power of growth or grip of the soil. He was old and he had no hope. Yet he lived on and worked submissively. Paul’s own case was different. Destiny had dashed him in unknown seas against unseen rocks. But he was young, he had the power of life, and the stimulus of love. Yet here he was, the prey to an idle fancy, tortured by an agony of fear.
“Good-night to you, Matthew!” he shouted cheerily above the wind, and went away into the night.
He would go home and sleep the fever out of his blood; he took the road; and as he went, the monotonous engine-throb died off behind him. He passed through the village; the street was empty, and it echoed loud to the sound of his footfall. Large shadows fell about him when for an instant the moon shot clear of a cloud. A light burned in a cottage window. Poor Mrs. Truesdale’s sick life was within that sleepless chamber lingering out its last days. The wind fell to silence at one moment, and then a child’s little cry came out to him in the night.
He walked on, and plunged again into the darkness of the road beyond. The dogs were howling at the distant Ghyll. A sable cloud floated in the sky, and at its back the moon sailed. It was like black hair silvered with gray. But on one spot on the road before him the moon shone clear and white. The place fascinated him like a star. He quickened his pace until he came into the moon’s open light. Then it turned to an ashy tint; it lay over the church-yard. His father’s grave was only a few paces from the road.
What unseen power had drawn him there? Was it meant that he should understand that all the stings that fate had in store for him were to be in some unsearchable way the refuse of his father’s deed? His mind went back to the night of his father’s death. He thought of his mother’s confession — a confession more terrible to make more fearful to listen to, than a mother ever made before or a son ever heard. And now again, was the disaster of this very night a link in the chain of destiny?
Let no man compare the withering effects of a father’s curse with the blasting influence of a father’s sin. If the wrath of Providence should fail in its stern and awful retribution, the world in its mercy would not forget that the sins of the fathers must be visited upon the children.
Paul entered the lych-gate and entered the church-yard. The night dew on his cheeks was not colder than his tears as he knelt by his father’s grave. At one instant he cursed the world and the world’s cruel law. Then there stole into his heart a poison that corroded its dearest memory: he thought of his father with bitterness.
At that moment a strange awe crept over him. He knew, though still only by the eyes of his mind, that the vision had returned. He knew it was standing against the night-sky as a ghastly headstone to the grave. But when he raised his eyes what he saw was more terrible. The face was before him, but it was a dead face now. He saw his own corpse stretched out on his father’s grave.
His head fell on the cold sod. He lay like the dead on the grave of the dead. Then he knew that it was ordered above that the cloud of his father’s sin should darken his days; that through all the range and change of life he was to be the lonely slave of a sin not his own. His fate was sin-inherited, and the wages of sin is death.
Was it strange that at that moment, when all the earth seemed gloomed by the shadow of a curse that lay blackest over him — when reverence for a father’s memory and love learned at a mother’s knee were deadened by a sense of irremediable wrong — was it strange that there and then peace fell on him like a dove from heaven?
Orphaned in one hour — now, and not till now — foredoomed to writhe like a worm amid the dust of the world — the man in him arose and shook off its fear.
It was because he came to know — rude man as he was, unlettered, but strong of soul — that there is a Power superior to fate, that the stormiest sea has its Master, that the waif that is cast by the roughest wave on the loneliest shore is yet seen and known.
And the voice of an angel seemed to whisper in his heart the story of Hagar and her son; how the boy was the first-born of his father; how the second-born became the heir; how the woman and son were turned away; how they were nigh to death in the desert; and how, at last, the cry came from heaven, “God hath heard the voice of the lad where he is.”
The horror of the vision had gone. It would come back no more. Paul walked home, went up to his own room, and slept peacefully.
When he awoke the pink and yellow rose of a wintery sunrise bloomed over the head of the Eel Crags. The tinkle of the anvil came from across the vale. Sheep were bleating high up on the frost-nipped side of the fell. The echo of the ax could be heard from the wood, and the muffled lowing of the kine from the shippon in the yard behind. The harsh scrape of Natt’s clogs was on the gravel. A robin with full throat perched on the window-ledge and warbled cheerily.
Last night was gone from him for all eternity. Before him was the day, the world, and life.
CHAPTER XV.
That day — the day before the wedding — all the gossiping tongues in Newlands were cackling from morning till night. Natt had been sent round the dale with invitations addressed to statesmen, their wives, sons and daughters. Parson Christian himself made the round of the homes of the poor.
“‘The poor ye have always with you,’ but not everywhere, and not often in Cana of Galilee,” he said to Greta on setting out.
And the people of the highways and hedges were nothing loath to come in to the feast. “God luck to the weddiners!” they said, “and may they never lick a lean poddish-stick.”
There was not much work done in the valley that day. The richest heiress on the country-side was about to be married to the richest statesman in the dale. On the eve of such an event it was labor enough to drop in at the Flying Horse and discuss mathematics. The general problem was one in simple addition, namely, how much Paul Ritson would be worth when he married Greta Lowther. And more than once that day twice two made a prodigious five.
The frost continued and the roads were crisp. Heavy rains had preceded the frost, and the river that ran down the middle of the valley had overflowed the meadows to the width of a wide carriage-way. This was now a road of ice five miles long, smooth as glass, and all but as straight as an arrow.
Abraham Strong, the carpenter, had been ordered to take the wheels off a disused landau and fix instead two keels of wood beneath the axles. This improvised sledge, after it had been shod in steel by the blacksmith, was to play a part in to-morrow’s ceremony.
Early in the day Brother Peter was dispatched to the town to fetch Mr. Bonnithorne. The four miles’ journey afoot seemed to him a bigger candle than the entire game was worth.
“Don’t know as I see what the lass wants mair nor she’s got,” he told himself, grumpily, as he plodded along the road. “What call has she for a man? Hasn’t she two of ‘em as she is? I made her comfortable enough myself. But lasses are varra ficklesome.”
Mr. Bonnithorne gathered enough from Brother Peter’s “Don’t know as there’s not a wedding in t’ wind,” to infer what was afoot. Hugh Ritson was away from home, and his brother Paul was availing himself of his absence to have the marriage ceremony performed.
This was the inference with which Mr. Bonnithorne had walked from the town; but before reaching the vicarage he encountered Paul himself, who was even then on the way to his office. Few words passed between them. Indeed, the young dalesman was civil, and no more. He gave scant courtesy, but then he also gave something that was more substantial, and the severity of the lawyer’s cynicism relaxed. Paul handed Mr. Bonnithorne, without comment, the deed drawn up in London. Mr. Bonnithorne glanced at it, pocketed it, and smiled. His sense of Paul’s importance as a dangerous man sunk to nothing at that moment. They parted without more words.
