Complete weird tales of.., p.454
Complete Weird Tales of Robert W Chambers, page 454
Colonel Mallett thought: “The acquisitive beast is striking attitudes on his fool of a son’s account.”
Mr. Tappan’s small iron-gray eyes bored two holes through the inward motives of Mr. Grandcourt, and his mouth tightened till the seamed lips were merely a line.
“I think, Magnelius,” said Colonel Mallett coldly, “that it is, perhaps, the sense of our committee that the time has practically arrived for some change — perhaps radical change — in the — in the — ah — the hitherto exceedingly wise regulations — —”
“May I have real lace?” cried Geraldine— “Oh, I beg your pardon, Colonel Mallett, for interrupting, but I was perfectly crazy to know what you were going to say.”
Other people have been crazier and endured more to learn what hope the verdict of ponderous authority might hold for them.
Colonel Mallett, a trifle ruffled at the interruption, swallowed several times and then continued without haste to rid himself of a weighty opinion concerning the début and the petticoats of the Half Moon’s ward. He might have made the child happy in one word. It took him twenty minutes.
Concurring opinions were then solemnly delivered by every director in turn except Mr. Tappan, who spoke for half an hour, doggedly dissenting on every point.
But the days of the old régime were evidently numbered. He understood it. He looked across at the crackled portrait of his old friend Anthony Seagrave; the faded, painted features were obliterated in a bar of slanting sunlight.
So, concluding his dissenting opinion, and having done his duty, he sat down, drawing the skirts of his frock-coat close around his bony thighs. He had done his best; his reward was this child’s hatred — which she already forgot in the confused delight of her sudden liberation.
Dazed with happiness, to one after another Geraldine courtesied and extended the narrow childlike hand of amity — even to him. Then, as though treading on invisible pink clouds, she floated out and away up-stairs, scarcely conscious of passing her brother on the stairway, who was now descending for his turn before the altar of authority.
When Scott returned he appeared to be unusually red in the face. Geraldine seized him ecstatically:
“Oh, Scott! I am to come out, after all — and I’m to have my quarterly, and gowns, and everything. I could have hugged Mr. Grandcourt — the dear! I was so frightened — frightened into rudeness — and then that beast of a Tappan scared me terribly. But it is all right now — and what did they promise you, poor dear?”
Scott’s face still remained flushed as he stood, hands in his pockets, head slightly bent, tracing with the toe of his shoe the carpet pattern.
“You want to know what they promised me?” he asked, looking up at his sister with an unpleasant laugh. She poured a few drops of cologne onto a lump of sugar, placed it between her lips, and nodded:
“They did promise you something — didn’t they?”
“Oh, certainly. They promised to make it hot for me if I ever again borrowed money on notes.”
“Scott! did you do that?”
“Give my note? Certainly. I needed money — I’ve told old tabby Tappan so again and again. In a year I’ll have all the money I need — so what’s the harm if I borrow a little and promise to pay when I’m of age?”
Geraldine considered a moment: “It’s curious,” she reflected, “but do you know, Scott, I never thought of doing that. It never occurred to me to do it! Why didn’t you tell me?”
“Because,” said her brother with an embarrassed laugh, “it’s not exactly a proper thing to do, I believe. Anyway, they raised a terrible row about it. Probably that’s why they have at last given me a decent quarterly allowance; they think it’s safer, I suppose — and they’re right. The stingy old fossils.”
The boyish boast, the veiled hint of revolt and reprisal vaguely disturbed Geraldine’s sense of justice.
“After all,” she said, “they have meant to be kind. They didn’t know how, that’s all. And, Scott, do let us try to be better now. I’m ashamed of my rudeness to them. And I’m going to be very, very good to Kathleen and not do one single thing to make her unhappy or even to bother Mr. Tappan.... And, oh, Scott! my silks and laces! my darling clothes! All is coming true! Do you hear? And, Scott! Naïda and Duane are back and I’m dying to see them. Duane is twenty-three, think of it!”
She seized him and spun him around.
“If you don’t hug me and tell me you’re fond of me, I shall go mad. Tell me you’re fond of me, Scott! You do love me, don’t you?”
He kissed his sister with preoccupied toleration: “Whew!” he said, “your breath reeks of cologne!
“As for me,” he added, half sullenly, “I’m going to have a few things I want, now.... And do a few things, too.”
But what these things were he did not specify. Nor did Geraldine have time to speculate, so occupied was she now with preparations for the wonderful winter which was to come true at last — which was already beginning to come true with exciting visits to that magic country of brilliant show-windows which, like an enchanted city by itself, sparkles from Madison Square to the Plaza between Fourth Avenue and Broadway.
Into this sparkling metropolitan zone she hastened with Kathleen; all day long, week after week, she flitted from shop to shop, never satisfied, always eager to see, to explore. Yet two things Kathleen noticed: Geraldine seemed perfectly happy and contented to view the glitter of vanity fair without thought of acquiring its treasures for herself; and, when reminded that she was there to buy, she appeared to be utterly ignorant of the value of money, though a childhood without it was supposed to have taught her its rarity and preciousness.
The girl’s personal tastes were expensive; she could linger in ecstasy all the morning over piles of wonderful furs without envy, without even thinking of them for herself; but when Kathleen mentioned the reason of their shopping, Geraldine always indicated sables as her choice, any single piece of which would have required half her yearly allowance to pay for.
And she was for ever wishing to present things to Kathleen; silks that were chosen, model gowns that they examined together, laces, velvets, jewels, always her first thought seemed to be that Kathleen should have what they both enjoyed looking at so ardently; and many a laughing contest they had as to whether her first quarterly allowance should be spent upon herself or her friends.
On the surface it would appear that unselfishness was the key to her character. That was impossible; she had lived too long alone. Yet Geraldine was clearly not acquisitive; though, when she did buy, her careless extravagance worried Kathleen. Spendthrift — in that she cared nothing for the money value of anything — her bright, piquant, eager face was a welcome sight to the thrifty metropolitan shopkeeper at Christmas-tide. A delicate madness for giving obsessed her; she bought a pair of guns for Scott, laces and silks for Kathleen, and for the servants everything she could think of. Nobody was forgotten, not even Mr. Tappan, who awoke Christmas morning to gaze grimly upon an antique jewelled fob all dangling with pencils and seals. In the first flush of independence it gave her more pleasure to give than to acquire.
Also, for the first time in her life, she superintended the distribution of her own charities, flying in the motor with Kathleen from church to mission, eager, curious, pitiful, appalled, by turns. Sentiment overwhelmed her; it was a new kind of pleasure.
One night she arose shivering from her warm bed, and with ink and paper sat figuring till nearly dawn how best to distribute what fortune she might one day possess, and live an exalted life on ten dollars a week.
Kathleen found her there asleep, head buried in the scattered papers, limbs icy to the knees; and there ensued an interim of bronchitis which threatened at one time to postpone her début.
But the medical profession of Manhattan came to the rescue in battalions, and Geraldine was soon afoot, once more drifting ecstatically among the splendours of the shops, thrilling with the nearness of the day that should set her free among unnumbered hosts of unknown friends.
Who would these unknown people turn out to be? What hearts were at that very moment destined to respond in friendship to her own?
Often lying awake, nibbling her scented lump of sugar, the darkness reddening, at intervals, as embers of her bedroom fire dropped glowing to the hearth, she pictured to herself this vast, brilliant throng awaiting to welcome her as one of them. And her imagination catching fire, through closed lids she seemed to see heavenly vistas of youthful faces — a thousand arms outstretched in welcome; and she, advancing, eyes dim with happiness, giving herself to this world of youth and friendship — crossing the threshold — leaving for ever behind her the past with its loneliness and isolation.
It was of friendships she dreamed, and the blessed nearness of others, and the liberty to seek them. She promised herself she would never, never again permit herself to be alone. She had no definite plans, except that. Life henceforth must be filled with the bright shapes of comrades. Life must be only pleasure. Never again must sadness come near her. A miraculous capacity for happiness seemed to fill her breast, expanding with the fierce desire for it, until under the closed lids tears stole out, and there, in the darkness, she held out her bare arms to the world — the kind, good, generous, warm-hearted world, which was waiting, just beyond her threshold, to welcome her and love her and companion her for ever.
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CHAPTER III. THE THRESHOLD
SHE AWOKE TIRED; she had scarcely closed her eyes that night. The fresh odour of roses filled her room when her maid arrived with morning gifts from Kathleen and Scott.
She lay abed until noon. They started dressing her about three. After that the day became unreal to her.
Manhattan was conventionally affable to Geraldine Seagrave, also somewhat curious to see what she looked like. Fifth Avenue and the neighbouring side streets were jammed with motors and carriages on the bright January afternoon that Geraldine made her bow, and the red and silver drawing-rooms, so famous a generation ago, were packed continually.
What people saw was a big, clumsy house expensively overdecorated in the appalling taste of forty years ago, now screened by forests of palms and vast banks of flowers; and they saw a number of people popularly identified with the sort of society which newspapers delight to revere; and a few people of real distinction; and a young girl, noticeably pale, standing beside Kathleen Severn and receiving the patronage of dowagers and beaux, and the impulsive clasp of fellowship from fresh-faced young girls and nice-looking, well-mannered young fellows.
The general opinion seemed to be that Geraldine Seagrave possessed all the beauty which rumour had attributed to her as her right by inheritance, but the animation of her clever mother was lacking. Also, some said that her manners still smacked of the nursery; and that, unless it had been temporarily frightened out of her, she had little personality and less charm.
Nothing, as a matter of fact, had been frightened out of her; for weeks she had lived in imagination so vividly through that day that when the day really arrived it found her physically and mentally unresponsive; the endless reiteration of names sounded meaninglessly in her ears, the crowding faces blurred. She was passively satisfied to be there, and content with the touch of hands and the pleasant-voiced formalities of people pressing toward her from every side.
Afterward few impressions remained; she remembered the roses’ perfume, and a very fat woman with a confusing similarity of contour fore and aft who blocked the lines and rattled on like a machine-gun saying dreadfully frank things about herself, her family, and everybody she mentioned.
Naïda Mallett, whom she had not seen in many years, she had known immediately, and now remembered. And Naïda had taken her white-gloved hand shyly, whispering constrained formalities, then had disappeared into the unreality of it all.
Duane, her old playmate, may have been there, but she could not remember having seen him. There were so many, many youths of the New York sort, all dressed alike, all resembling one another — many, many people flowing past her where she stood submerged in the silken ebb eddying around her.
These were the few hazy impressions remaining — she was recalling them now while dressing for her first dinner dance. Later, when her maid released her with a grunt of Gallic disapproval, she, distraite, glanced at her gown in the mirror, still striving to recall something definite of the day before.
“Was Duane there?” she asked Kathleen, who had just entered.
“No, dear.... Why did you happen to think of Duane Mallett?”
“Naïda came.... Duane was such a splendid little boy.... I had hoped — —”
Mrs. Severn said coolly:
“Duane isn’t a very splendid man. I might as well tell you now as later.”
“What in the world do you mean, Kathleen?”
“I mean that people say he was rather horrid abroad. Some women don’t mind that sort of thing, but I do.”
“Horrid? How?”
“He went about Europe with unpleasant people. He had too much money — and that is ruinous for a boy. I hate to disillusion you, but for several years people have been gossipping about Duane Mallett’s exploits abroad; and they are not savoury.”
“What were they? I am old enough to know.”
“I don’t propose to tell you. He was notoriously wild. There were scandals. Hush! here comes Scott.”
“For Heaven’s sake, pinch some colour into your cheeks!” exclaimed her brother; “we’re not going to a wake!”
And Kathleen said anxiously: “Your gown is perfection, dear; are you a trifle tired? You do look pale.”
“Tired?” repeated Geraldine— “not in the least, dearest.... If I seem not to be excited, I really am, internally; but perhaps I haven’t learned how to show it.... Don’t I look well? I was so preoccupied with my gown in the mirror that I forgot to examine my face.”
Mrs. Severn kissed her. “You and your gown are charming. Come, we are late, and that isn’t permitted to débutantes.”
It was Mrs. Magnelius Grandcourt who was giving the first dinner and dance for Geraldine Seagrave. In the cloak-room she encountered some very animated women of the younger married set, who spoke to her amiably, particularly a Mrs. Dysart, who said she knew Duane Mallett, and who was so friendly that a bit of colour warmed Geraldine’s pallid cheeks and still remained there when, a few minutes later, she saluted her heavily jewelled hostess and recognised in her the fat fore-and-aft lady of the day before.
Mrs. Magnelius Grandcourt, glittering like a South American scarab, detained her with the smallest and chubbiest hands she had ever seen inside of gloves.
“My dear, you look ghastly,” said her hostess. “You’re probably scared to death. This is my son, Delancy, who is going to take you in, and I’m wondering about you, because Delancy doesn’t get on with débutantes, but that can’t be helped. If he’s pig enough not to talk to you, it wouldn’t surprise me — and it’s just as well, too, for if he likes anybody he compromises them, but it’s no use your ever liking a Grandcourt, for all the men make rotten husbands — I’m glad Rosalie Dysart threw him over for poor Jack Dysart; it saved her a divorce! I’d get one if I could; so would Magnelius. My husband was a judge once, but he resigned because he couldn’t send people up for the things he was doing himself.”
Mrs. Grandcourt, still gabbling away, turned to greet new arrivals, merely switching to another subject without interrupting her steady stream of outrageous talk. She was celebrated for it — and for nothing else.
Geraldine, bewildered and a little horrified, looked at her billowy, bediamonded hostess, then at young Delancy Grandcourt, who, not perceptibly abashed by his mother’s left-handed compliments, lounged beside her, apparently on the verge of a yawn.
“My mother says things,” he explained patiently; “nobody minds ‘em.... Shall we exchange nonsense — or would you rather save yourself until dinner?”
“Save myself what?” she asked nervously.
“The nuisance of talking to me about nothing. I’m not clever.”
Geraldine reddened.
“I don’t usually talk about nothing.”
“I do,” he said. “I never have much to say.”
“Is that because you don’t like débutantes?” she asked coldly.
“It’s because they don’t care about me.... If you would talk to me, I’d really be grateful.”
He flushed and stepped back awkwardly to allow room for a slim, handsome man to pass between them. The very ornamental man did not pass, however, but calmly turned toward Geraldine, and began to talk to her.
She presently discovered his name to be Dysart; and she also discovered that Mr. Dysart didn’t know her name; and, for a moment after she had told him, surprise and a confused sense of resentment silenced her, because she was quite certain now that they had never been properly presented.
That negligence of conventions was not unusual in this new world she was entering, she had already noticed; and this incident was evidently another example of custom smilingly ignored. She looked up questioningly, and Dysart, instantly divining the trouble, laughed in his easy, attractive fashion — the fashion he usually affected with women.
“You seemed so fresh and cool and sweet all alone in this hot corner that I simply couldn’t help coming over to hear whether your voice matched the ensemble. And it surpasses it. Are you going to be resentful?”
“I’m too ignorant to be — or to laugh about it as you do.... Is it because I look a simpleton that you come to see if I really am?”
“Are you planning to punish me, Miss Seagrave?”
“I’m afraid I don’t know how.”
“Fate will, anyway, unless I am placed next you at dinner,” he said with his most reassuring smile, and rose gracefully.
“I’m going to fix it,” he added, and, pushing his way toward his hostess, disappeared in the crush.
Later young Grandcourt reappeared from the crush to take her in. Every table seated eight, and, sure enough, as she turned involuntarily to glance at her neighbour on the right, it was Dysart’s pale face, cleanly cut as a cameo, that met her gaze. He nodded back to her with unfeigned satisfaction at his own success.
