Complete weird tales of.., p.455
Complete Weird Tales of Robert W Chambers, page 455
“That’s the way to manage,” he said, “when you want a thing very much. Isn’t it, Miss Seagrave?”
“You did not ask me whether I wanted it,” she said.
“Don’t you want me here? If you don’t—” His features fell and he made a pretence of rising. His pale, beautifully sculptured face had become so fearfully serious that she coloured up quickly.
“Oh, you wouldn’t do such a thing — now! to embarrass me.”
“Yes, I would — I’d do anything desperate.”
But she had already caught the flash of mischief, and realising that he had been taking more or less for granted in tormenting her, looked down at her plate and presently tasted what was on it.
“I know you are not offended,” he murmured. “Are you?”
She knew she was not, too; but she merely shrugged. “Then why do you ask me, Mr. Dysart?”
“Because you have such pretty shoulders,” he replied seriously.
“What an idiotic reply to make!”
“Why? Don’t you think you have?”
“What?”
“Pretty shoulders.”
“I don’t think anything about my shoulders!”
“You would if there was anything the matter with them,” he insisted.
Once or twice he turned his handsome dark gaze on her while she was dissecting her terrapin.
“They tip up a little — at the corners, don’t they?” he inquired anxiously. “Does it hurt?”
“Tip up? What tips up?” she demanded.
“Your eyes.”
She swung around toward him, confused and exasperated; but no seriousness was proof against the delighted malice in Dysart’s face; and she laughed a little, and laughed again when he did. And she thought that he was, perhaps, the handsomest man she had ever seen. All débutantes did.
Young Grandcourt turned from the pretty, over-painted woman who, until that moment, had apparently held him interested when his food failed to monopolise his attention, and glanced heavily around at Geraldine.
All he saw was the back of her head and shoulders. Evidently she was not missing him. Evidently, too, she was having a very good time with Dysart.
“What are you laughing about?” he asked wistfully, leaning forward to see her face.
Geraldine glanced back across her shoulder.
“Mr. Dysart is trying to be impertinent,” she replied carelessly; and returned again to the impertinent one, quite ready for more torment now that she began to understand how agreeable it was.
But Dysart’s expression had changed; there was something vaguely caressing in voice and manner as he murmured:
“Do you know there is something almost divine in your face.”
“What did you say?” asked Geraldine, looking up from her ice in its nest of spun sugar.
“You so strenuously reject the truthful compliments I pay you, that perhaps I’d better not repeat this one.”
“Was it really more absurd flattery?”
“No, never mind....” He leaned back in his chair, absently turning the curious, heavily chiselled ring on his little finger, but every few moments his expressive eyes reverted to her. She was eating her ice with all the frank enjoyment of a schoolgirl.
“Do you know, Miss Seagrave, that you and I are really equipped for better things than talking nonsense.”
“I know that I am,” she observed.... “Isn’t this spun sugar delicious!”
“Yes; and so are you.”
But she pretended not to hear.
He laughed, then fell silent; his dreamy gaze shifted from vacancy to her — and, casually, across the room, where it settled lightly as a butterfly on his wife, and there it poised for a moment’s inexpressive examination. Scott Seagrave was talking to Rosalie; she did not notice her husband.
After that, with easy nonchalance approaching impudence, he turned to his own neglected dinner partner, Sylvia Quest, who received his tardy attentions with childish irritation. She didn’t know any better. And there was now no time to patch up matters, for the signal to rise had been given and Dysart took Sylvia to the door with genuine relief. She bored him dreadfully since she had become sentimental over him. They always did.
Lounging back through the rising haze of tobacco-smoke he encountered Peter Tappan and stopped to exchange a word.
“Dancing?” he inquired, lighting his cigarette.
Tappan nodded. “You, too, of course.” For Dysart was one of those types known in society as a “dancing man.” He also led cotillions, and a morally blameless life as far as the more virile Commandments were concerned.
He said: “That little Seagrave girl is rather fetching.”
Tappan answered indifferently:
“She resembles the general run of this year’s output. She’s weedy. They all ought to marry before they go about to dinners, anyway.”
“Marry whom?”
“Anybody — Delancy, here, for instance. You know as well as I do that no woman is possible unless she’s married,” yawned Tappan. “Isn’t that so, Delancy?” clapping Grandcourt on the shoulder.
Grandcourt said “yes,” to be rid of him; but Dysart turned around with his usual smile of amused contempt.
“You think so, too, Delancy,” he said, “because what is obvious and ready-made appeals to you. You think as you eat — heavily — and you miss a few things. That little Seagrave girl is charming. But you’d never discover it.”
Grandcourt slowly removed the fat cigar from his lips, rolled it meditatively between thick forefinger and thumb:
“Do you know, Jack, that you’ve been saying that sort of thing to me for a number of years?”
“Yes; and it’s just as true now as it ever was, old fellow.”
“That may be; but did it ever occur to you that I might get tired hearing it.... And might, possibly, resent it some day?”
For a long time Dysart had been uncomfortably conscious that Grandcourt had had nearly enough of his half-sneering, half-humourous frankness. His liking for Grandcourt, even as a schoolboy, had invariably been tinged with tolerance and good-humoured contempt. Dysart had always led in everything; taken what he chose without considering Grandcourt — sometimes out of sheer perversity, he had taken what Grandcourt wanted — not really wanting it himself — as in the case of Rosalie Dene.
“What are you talking about resenting? — my monopolising your dinner partner?” asked Dysart, smiling. “Take her; amuse yourself. I don’t want her.”
Grandcourt inspected his cigar again. “I’m tired of that sort of thing, too,” he said.
“What sort of thing?”
“Contenting myself with what you don’t want.”
Dysart lit a cigarette, still smiling, then shrugged and turned as though to go. Around them through the smoke rose the laughing clamour of young men gathering at the exit.
“I want to tell you something,” said Grandcourt heavily. “I’m an ass to do it, but I want to tell you.”
Dysart halted patiently.
“It’s this,” went on Grandcourt: “between you and my mother, I’ve never had a chance; she makes me out a fool and you have always assumed it to be true.”
Dysart glanced at him with amused contempt.
A heavy flush rose to Grandcourt’s cheek-bones. He said slowly:
“I want my chance. You had better let me have it when it comes.”
“What chance do you mean?”
“I mean — a woman. All my life you’ve been at my elbow to step in. You took what you wanted — your shadow always falls between me and anybody I’m inclined to like.... It happened to-night — as usual.... And I tell you now, at last, I’m tired of it.”
“What a ridiculous idea you seem to have of me,” began Dysart, laughing.
“I’m afraid of you. I always was. Now — let me alone!”
“Have you ever known me, since I’ve been married—” He caught Grandcourt’s eye, stammered, and stopped short. Then: “You certainly are absurd. Delancy! I wouldn’t deliberately interfere with you or disturb a young girl’s peace of mind. The trouble with you is — —”
“The trouble with you is that women take to you very quickly, and you are always trying to see how far you can arouse their interest. What’s the use of risking heartaches to satisfy curiosity?”
“Oh, I don’t have heartaches!” said Dysart, intensely amused.
“I wasn’t thinking of you. I suppose that’s the reason you find it amusing.... Not that I think there’s any real harm in you — —”
“Thanks,” laughed Dysart; “it only needed that remark to damn me utterly. Now go and dance with little Miss Seagrave, and don’t worry about my trying to interfere.”
Grandcourt looked sullenly at him. “I’m sorry I spoke, now,” he said. “I never know enough to hold my tongue to you.”
He turned bulkily on his heel and left the dining-hall. There were others, in throngs, leaving — young, eager-faced fellows, with a scattering of the usual “dancing” men on whom everybody could always count, and a few middle-aged gentlemen and women of the younger married set to give stability to what was, otherwise, a débutante’s affair.
Dysart, strolling about, booked a dance or two, performed creditably, made his peace, for the sake of peace, with Sylvia Quest, whose ignorant heart had been partly awakened under his idle investigations. But this was Sylvia’s second season, and she would no doubt learn several things of which she heretofore had been unaware. Just at present, however, her heart was very full, and life’s outlook was indeed tragic to a young girl who believed herself wildly in love with a married man, and who employed all her unhappy wits in the task of concealing it.
A load of guilt lay upon her soul; the awful fact that she adored him frightened her terribly; that she could not keep away from him terrified her still more. But most of all she dreaded that he might guess her secret.
“I don’t know why you thought I minded your not — not talking to me during dinner,” she faltered. “I was having a perfectly heavenly time with Peter Tappan.”
“Do you mean that?” murmured Dysart. He could not help playing his part, even when it no longer interested him. To murmur was as natural to him as to breathe.
She looked up piteously. “I would rather have talked to you,” she said. “Peter Tappan is only an overgrown boy. If you had really cared to talk to me—” She checked herself, flushing deeply.
O Lord! he thought, contemplating in the girl’s lifted eyes the damage he had not really expected to do. For it had, as usual, surprised him to realise, too late, how dangerous it is to say too much, and look too long, and how easy it is to awaken hearts asleep.
Dancing was to be general before the cotillion. Sylvia would have given him as many dances as he asked for; he danced once with her as a great treat, resolving never to experiment any more with anybody.... True, it might have been amusing to see how far he could have interested the little Seagrave girl — but he would renounce that; he’d keep away from everybody.
But Dysart could no more avoid making eyes at anything in petticoats than he could help the tenderness of his own smile or the caressing cadence of his voice, or the subtle, indefinite something in him which irritated men but left few women indifferent and some greatly perturbed as he strolled along on his amusing journey through the world.
He was strolling on now, having managed to leave Sylvia planted; and presently, without taking any particular trouble to find Geraldine, discovered her eventually as the centre of a promising circle of men, very young men and very old men — nothing medium and desirable as yet.
For a while, amused, Dysart watched her at her first party. Clearly she was inexperienced; she let these men have their own way and their own say; she was not handling them skilfully; yet there seemed to be a charm about this young girl that detached man after man from the passing throng and added them to her circle — which had now become a half circle, completely cornering her.
Animated, shyly confident, brilliant-eyed, and flushed with the excitement of attracting so much attention, she was beginning to lose her head a little — just a little. Dysart noticed it in her nervous laughter; in a slight exaggeration of gesture with fan and flowers; in the quick movement of her restless little head, as though it were incumbent upon her to give to every man confronting her his own particular modicum of attention — which was not like a débutante, either; and Dysart realised that she was getting on.
So he sauntered up, breaking through the circle, and reminded Geraldine of a dance she had not promised him.
She knew she had not promised, but she was quite ready to give it — had already opened her lips to assent — when a young man, passing, swung around abruptly as though to speak to her, hesitating as Geraldine’s glance encountered his without recognition.
But, as he started to move on, she suddenly knew him; and at the same moment Kathleen’s admonition rang in her ears. Her own voice drowned it.
“Oh, Duane!” she exclaimed, stretching out her hand across Dysart’s line of advance.
“You are Geraldine Seagrave, are you not?” he asked smilingly, retaining her hand in such a manner as practically to compel her to step past Dysart toward him.
“Of course I am. You might have known me had you been amiable enough to appear at my coming out.”
He laughed easily, still retaining her hand and looking down at her from his inch or two of advantage. Then he casually inspected Dysart, who, not at all pleased, returned his gaze with a careless unconcern verging on offence. Few men cared for Dysart on first inspection — or on later acquaintance; Mallett was no exception.
Geraldine said, with smiling constraint:
“It has been so very jolly to see you again.” And withdrew her hand, adding: “I hope — some time — —”
“Won’t you let me talk to you now for a moment or two? You are not going to dismiss me with that sort of come-back — after all these years — are you?”
He seemed so serious about it that the girl coloured up.
“I — that is, Mr. Dysart was going to — to—” She turned and looked at Dysart, who remained planted where she had left him, exceedingly wroth at experiencing the sort of casual treatment he had so often meted out to others. His expression was peevish. Geraldine, confused, began hurriedly:
“I thought Mr. Dysart meant to ask me to dance.”
“Meant to?” interrupted Mallett, laughing; “I mean to ask for this dance, and I do.”
Once more she turned and encountered Dysart’s darkening gaze, hesitated, then with a nervous, gay little gesture to him, partly promise, partly adieu, she took Mallett’s arm.
It was the first glimmer of coquetry she had ever deliberately displayed; and at the same instant she became aware that something new had been suddenly awakened in her — something which stole like a glow through her veins, exciting her with its novelty.
“Do you know,” she said, “that you have taken me forcibly away from an exceedingly nice man?”
“I don’t care.”
“Oh — but might I not at least have been consulted?”
“Didn’t you want to come?” he asked, stopping short. There was something overbearing in his voice and his straight, unwavering gaze.
She didn’t know how to take it, how to meet it. Voice and manner required some proper response which seemed to be beyond her experience.
She did not answer; but a slight pressure of her bare arm set him in motion again.
The phenomenon interested her; to see what control over this abrupt young man she really had she ventured a very slight retrograde arm-pressure, then a delicate touch to right, to left, and forward once more. It was most interesting; he backed up, guided right and left, and started forward or halted under perfect control. What had she been afraid of in him? She ventured to glance around, and, encountering a warmly personal interest in his gaze, instantly assumed that cold, blank, virginal mask which the majority of young girls discard at her age.
However, her long-checked growth in the arts of womanhood had already recommenced. She had been growing fast, feverishly, and was just now passing that period where the desire for masculine admiration innocently rules all else, but where the discovery of it chills and constrains.
She passed it at that moment. The next time their glances met she smiled a little. A new epoch in her life had begun.
“Where are you taking me?” she asked. “Are we not going to dance?”
“I thought we might sit out a dance or two in the conservatory — one or two — —”
“One,” she said decidedly. “Here are some palms. Why not sit here?”
There were a number of people about; she saw them, too, noted his hesitation, understood it.
“We’ll sit here,” she said, and stood smilingly regarding him while he lugged up two chairs to the most retired corner.
Slowly waving her fan, she seated herself and surveyed the room.
It is quite true that reunion after many years usually ends in constraint and indifference. If she felt slightly bored, she certainly looked it. Neither of them resembled the childish recollections or preconceived notions of the other. They found themselves inspecting one another askance, as though furtively attempting to surprise some familiar feature, some resemblance to a cherished memory.
But the changes were too radical; their eyes, looking for old comrades, encountered the unremembered eyes of strangers — for they were strangers — this tall young man, with his gray eyes, pleasantly fashioned mouth, and cleanly moulded cheeks; and this long-limbed girl, who sat, knees crossed, one long, slim foot nervously swinging above its shadow on the floor.
In spite of his youth there was in his manner, if not in his voice, something tinged with fatigue. She thought of what Kathleen had said about him; looked up, instinctively questioning him with curious, uncomprehending eyes; then her gaze wandered, became lost in smiling retrospection as she thought of Dysart, peevish; and she frankly regretted him and his dance.
