Complete weird tales of.., p.579
Complete Weird Tales of Robert W Chambers, page 579
This last winter he had become a frequenter of her house on Sixty-third Street; and so carelessly assiduous, and so delightfully casual had become his attentions to that beautifully groomed widow, that his footing with her was already an intimacy, and his portrait of her, which he had given her, had been the sensation of the loan exhibition at the great Interborough Charity Bazaar.
He was neither apprehensive nor excited as he calmly finished his claret. He was to drop in there after dinner to discuss with her several candidates as architects for the New Idea Home.
So when he was entirely ready he took his hat and stick and departed in a taxicab, pleasantly suffused with a gentle glow of anticipation. He had waited many years for such an evening as this was to be. He was a patient and unmoral man. He could wait longer for Valerie, — and for the first secret blow at the happiness and threatened artistic success of Louis Neville.
So he rolled away in his taxi very comfortably, savouring his cigarette, indolently assured of his reception in a house which it would suit him perfectly to inhabit when he cared to.
Only one thing worried him a little — the short note he had received from his friend Penrhyn Cardemon, saying rather brusquely that he’d made up his mind not to have his portrait painted for five thousand dollars, and that he was going off on The Mohave to be gone a year at least.
Which pained Querida, because Cardemon had not only side-stepped what was almost a commission, but he had, also, apparently forgotten his invitation to spend the summer on The Mohave — with the understanding that Valerie West was also to be invited.
However, everything comes in its season; and this did not appear to be the season for ripe commissions and yachting enterprises; but it certainly seemed to be the season for a judicious matrimonial enterprise.
And when Mrs. Hind-Willet received him in a rose-tinted reception corner, audaciously intimate and secluded, he truly felt that he was really missing something of the pleasures of the chase, and that it was a little too easy to be acutely enjoyable.
However, when at last he had gently retained her hand and had whispered, “Alma,” and had let his big, dark, velvet eyes rest with respectful passion upon her smaller and clearer and blacker ones, something somewhere in the machinery seemed to go wrong — annoyingly wrong.
Because Mrs. Hind-Willet began to laugh — and evidently was trying not to — trying to remain very serious; but her little black eyes were glistening with tears of suppressed mirth, and when, amazed and offended, he would have withdrawn his hand, she retained it almost convulsively:
“José! I beg your pardon! — I truly do. It is perfectly horrid and unspeakable of me to behave this way; but listen, child! I am forty; I am perfectly contented not to marry again; and I don’t love you. So, my poor José, what on earth am I to do if I don’t laugh a little. I can’t weep over it you know.”
The scarlet flush faded from his olive skin. “Alma,” he began mournfully, but she only shook her head, vigorously.
“Nonsense,” she said. “You like me for a sufficient variety of reasons. And to tell you the truth I suspect that I am quite as madly in love with you as you actually are with me. No, no, José. There are too many — discrepancies — of various kinds. I have too little to gain! — to be horribly frank — and you — alas! — are a very cautious, very clever, and admirably sophisticated young man…. There, there! I am not really accusing you — or blaming you — very much…. I’d have tried the same thing in your place — yes, indeed I would…. But, José dear, if you’ll take the mature advice of fair, plump, and forty, you’ll let the lesser ambition go.
“A clever wealthy woman nearer your age, and on the edge of things — with you for a husband, ought to carry you and herself far enough to suit you. And there’d be more amusement in it, believe me…. And now — you may kiss my hand — very good-humoredly and respectfully, and we’ll talk about those architects. Shall we?”
* * * * *
For twenty-four hours Querida remained a profoundly astonished man. Examine, in retrospective, as he would, the details of the delicately adjusted machinery which for so many years had slowly but surely turned the interlocking cog-wheels of destiny for him, he could not find where the trouble had been — could discover no friction caused by neglect of lubricants; no over-oiling, either; no flaw.
Wherein lay the trouble? Based on what error was his theory that the average man could marry anybody he chose? Just where had he miscalculated?
He admitted that times changed very fast; that the world was spinning at a rate that required nimble wits to keep account of its revolutions. But his own wits were nimble, almost feminine in the rapid delicacy of their intuition — almost feminine, but not quite. And he felt, vaguely, that there lay his mistake in engaging a woman with a woman’s own weapons; and that the only chance a man has is to perplex her with his own.
The world was spinning rapidly; times changed very fast, but not as fast as women were changing in the Western World. For the self-sufficient woman — the self-confident, self-sustaining individual, not only content but actually preferring autonomy of mind and body, was a fact in which José Querida had never really ever believed. No sentimentalist does or really can. And all creators of things artistic are, basically, sentimentalists.
Querida’s almond-shaped, velvet eyes had done their share for him in his time; they were merely part of a complex machinery which, included many exquisitely adjusted parts which could produce at will such phenomena as temporary but genuine sympathy and emotion: a voice controlled and modulated to the finest nuances; a grace of body and mind that resembled inherent delicacy; a nervous receptiveness and intelligence almost supersensitive in its recognition of complicated ethical problems. It was a machinery which could make of him any manner of man which the opportunism of the particular moment required. Yet, with all this, in every nerve and bone and fibre he adored material and intellectual beauty, and physical suffering in others actually distressed him.
Now, reviewing matters, deeply interested to find the microscopic obstruction which had so abruptly stopped the machinery of destiny for him, he was modest enough and sufficiently liberal-minded to admit to himself that Alma Hind-Willet was the exception that proved this rule. There were women so constructed that they had become essentially unresponsive. Alma was one. But, he concluded that if he lived a thousand years he was not likely to encounter another.
And the following afternoon he called upon Mrs. Hind-Willet’s understudy, the blue-eyed little Countess d’Enver.
Hélène d’Enver was superintending the definite closing of her beautiful duplex apartments — the most beautiful in the great château-like, limestone building. And José Querida knew perfectly well what the rents were.
“Such a funny time to come to see me,” she had said laughingly over the telephone; “I’m in a dreadful state with skirts pinned up and a motor-bonnet over my hair, but I will not permit my maids to touch the porcelains; and if you really wish to see me, come ahead.”
He really wished to. Besides he adored her Ming porcelains and her Celedon, and the idea of any maid touching them almost gave him heart-failure. He himself possessed one piece of Ming and a broken fragment of Celedon. Women had been married for less.
She was very charming in her pinned-up skirts and her dainty head-gear, and she welcomed him and intrusted him with specimens which sent pleasant shivers down his flexible spine.
And, together, they put away many scores of specimens which were actually priceless, inasmuch as any rumour of a public sale would have excited amateurs to the verge of lunacy, and almost any psychopathic might have established a new record for madness at an auction of this matchless collection.
They breathed easier when the thrilling task was ended; but emotion still enchained them as they seated themselves at a tea-table — an emotion so deep on Hélène’s part that she suffered Querida to retain the tips of her fingers for an appreciable moment when transferring sugar to his cup. And she listened, with a smile almost tremulous, to the fascinating music of his voice, charmingly attuned and modulated to a pitch which, somehow, seemed to harmonise with the very word, Celedon.
“I am so surprised,” she said softly — but his dark eyes noted that she was still busy with her tea paraphernalia— “I scarcely know what to think, Mr. Querida—”
“Think that I love you—” breathed Querida, his dark and beautiful head very near to her blond one.
“I — am — thinking of it…. But—”
“Hélène,” he whispered musically; — and suddenly stiffened in his chair as the maid came clattering in over the rugless and polished parquet to announce Mr. Ogilvy, followed san façon by that young man, swinging a straw hat and a malacca stick.
“Sam!” said the pretty Countess, changing countenance.
“Hello, Hélène! How-do, Querida! I heard you were temporarily in town, dear lady—” He kissed a hand that was as faltering and guilty as the irresolute eyes she lifted to his.
Ten minutes later Querida took his leave. He dismissed the expensive taxi which had been devouring time outside, and walked thoughtfully away down the fashionable street.
Because the machinery had chanced to clog twice did not disturb his theory; but the trouble with him was local; he was intensely and personally annoyed, nervous, irritated unspeakably. Because, except for Valerie, these two, Alma Hind-Willet and Hélène d’Enver, were the only two socially and financially suitable women in whom he took the slightest physical interest.
There is, in all women, one moment — sometimes repeated — in which a sudden yielding to caprice sometimes overturns the logical plans laid out and inexorably followed for half a lifetime. And there was much of the feminine about Querida.
And it chanced to happen on this day — when no doubt all unsuspected and unperceived some lurking jettatura had given him the evil eye — that he passed by hazard through the block where Valerie lived, and saw her mounting the steps.
“Why, José!” she exclaimed, a trifle confused in her smiling cordiality as he sprang up the steps behind her — for Rita’s bitterness, if it had not aroused in her suspicions, had troubled her in spite of her declaration of unbelief.
He asked for a cup of tea, and she invited him. Rita was in the room when they entered; and she stood up coolly, coolly returned Querida’s steady glance and salutation with a glance as calm, as detached, and as intelligent as a surgeon’s.
Neither he nor she referred to his recent call; he was perfectly self-possessed, entirely amiable with that serene and level good-humour which sometimes masks a defiance almost contemptuous.
But Rita’s engagements required her to leave very shortly after his advent; and before she went out she deliberately waited to catch Valerie’s eye; and Valerie coloured deeply under her silent message.
Then Rita went away with a scarcely perceptible nod to Querida; and when, by the clock, she had been gone twenty minutes, Querida, without reason, without preparation, and perfectly aware of his moment’s insanity, yielded to a second’s flash of caprice — the second that comes once in the lives of all women — and now, in the ordered symmetry of his life, had come to him.
“Valerie,” he said, “I love you. Will you marry me?”
She had been leaning sideways on the back of her chair, one hand supporting her cheek, gazing almost listlessly out of the open window.
She did not stir, nor did her face alter, but, very quietly she turned her head and looked at him.
He spoke, breathlessly, eloquently, persuasively, and well; the perfect machinery was imitating for him a single-minded, ardent, honourable young man, intelligent enough to know his own mind, manly enough to speak it. The facsimile was flawless.
He had finished and was waiting, long fingers gripping the arms of his chair; and her face had altered only to soften divinely, and her eyes were very sweet and untroubled.
“I am glad you have spoken this way to me, José. Something has been said about you — in connection with Mr. Cardemon — which disturbed me and made me very sad and miserable, although I would not permit myself to believe it…. And now I know it was a mistake — because you have asked me to be your wife.”
She sat looking at him, the sadness in her eyes emphasised by the troubled smile curving her lips:
“I couldn’t marry you, José, because I am not in love with you. If I were I would do it…. But I do not care for you that way.”
For an instant some inner flare of madness blinded his brain and vision. There was, in his face, something so terrible that Valerie unconsciously rose to her feet, bewildered, almost stunned.
“I want you,” he said slowly.
“José! What in the world—”
His dry lips moved, but no articulate sound came from them. Suddenly he sprang to his feet, and out of his twisted, distorted mouth poured a torrent of passion, of reproach, of half-crazed pleading — incoherency tumbling over incoherency, deafening her, beating in upon her, till she swayed where she stood, holding her arms up as though to shield herself.
The next instant she was straining, twisting in his arms, striving to cry out, to wrench herself free to keep her feet amid the crash of the overturned table and a falling chair.
“José! Are you insane?” she panted, tearing herself free and springing toward the door. Suddenly she halted, uttered a cry as he jumped back to block her way. The low window-ledge caught him under both knees; he clutched at nothing, reeled backward and outward and fell into space.
For a second she covered her white face with both hands, then turned, dragged herself to the open window, forced herself to look out.
He lay on his back on the grass in the rear yard, and the janitor was already bending over him. And when she reached the yard Querida had opened both eyes.
Later the ambulance came, and with its surgeon came a policeman.
Querida, lying with his head on her lap, opened his eyes again:
“I was — seated — on the window-ledge,” he said with difficulty— “and overbalanced myself…. Caught the table — but it fell over…. That’s all.”
The eyes in his ghastly face closed wearily, then fluttered:
“Awfully sorry, Valerie — make such a mess — in your house.”
“Oh-h — José,” she sobbed.
After that they took him away to the Presbyterian Hospital; and nobody seemed to find very much the matter with him except that he’d been badly shocked.
But the next day all sensation ceased in his body from the neck downward.
And they told Valerie why.
For ten days he lay there, perfectly conscious, patient, good-humored, and his almond-shaped and hollow eyes rested on Valerie and Rita with a fatalistic serenity subtly tinged with irony.
John Burleson came to see him, and cried. After he left, Querida said to
Valerie:
“John and I are destined to remain near neighbours; his grief is well meant, but a trifle premature.”
“You are not going to die, José!” she said gently.
But he only smiled.
Ogilvy came, Annan came, the Countess Hélène, and even Mrs. Hind-Willet. He inspected them all with his shadowy and mysterious smile, answered them gently deep in his sunken eyes a sombre amusement seemed to dwell. But there was in it no bitterness.
Then Neville came. Valerie and Rita were absent that day but their roses filled the private ward-room with a hint of the coming summer.
Querida lay looking at Neville, the half smile resting on his pallid face like a slight shadow that faintly waxed and waned with every breath he drew.
“Well,” he said quietly, “you are the man I wished to see.”
“Querida,” he said, deeply affected, “this thing isn’t going to be permanent—”
“No; not permanent. It won’t last, Neville. Nothing does last…. unless you can tell me whether my pictures are going to endure. Are they? I know that you will be as honest with me as I was — dishonest with you. I will believe what you say. Is my work destined to be permanent?”
“Don’t you know it is?”
“I thought so…. But you know. Because, Neville, you are the man who is coming into what was mine, and what will be your own; — and you are coming into more than that, Neville, more than I ever could have attained. Now answer me; will my work live?”
“Always,” said Neville simply.
Querida smiled:
“The rest doesn’t matter then…. Even Valerie doesn’t matter…. But you may hand me one of her roses…. No, a bud, if you don’t mind — unopened.”
When it was time for Neville to go Querida’s smile had faded and the pink rose-bud lay wilted in his fingers.
“It is just as well, Neville,” he said. “I couldn’t have endured your advent. Somebody has to be first; I was — as long as I lived…. It is curious how acquiescent a man’s mind becomes — when he’s like this. I never believed it possible that a man really could die without regret, without some shadow of a desire to live. Yet it is that way, Neville…. But a man must lie dying before he can understand it.”
* * * * *
A highly tinted uncle from Oporto arrived in New York just in time to see Querida alive. He brought with him a parrot.
“Send it to Mrs. Hind-Willet,” whispered Querida with stiffening lips; “uno lavanta la caça y otro la nata.”
A few minutes later he died, and his highly coloured uncle from Oporto sent the bird to Mrs. Hind-Willet and made the thriftiest arrangement possible to transport what was mortal of a great artist to Oporto — where a certain kind of parrot comes from.
CHAPTER XVI
ON THE MORNING of the first day of June Neville came into his studio and found there a letter from Valerie:
“DEAREST: I am not keeping my word to you; I am asking you for more time; and I know you will grant it.
“José Querida’s death has had a curious effect on me. I was inclined to care very sincerely for him; I comprehended him better than many people, I think. Yet there was much in him that I never understood. And I doubt that he ever entirely understood himself.
