Delphi complete works of.., p.1042
Delphi Complete Works of William Dean Howells, page 1042
“I don’t see how it could have been easier to prevent than to undo your error. I don’t admit it’s an error, but I call it so because you do. After all, an engagement is nothing but an open confession between two people that they are in love with each other and wish to marry. There need be no sort of pledge or promise to make the engagement binding, if there is love. It’s the love that binds.”
“Yes.”
“It bound you from your first acknowledgment of it, and unless you could deny your love now, or hereafter, it must always bind you. If you own that you still love each other, you are still engaged, no matter how much you release each other. Could you think of loving her and marrying some one else? Could she love you and marry another? There isn’t any error, unless you’ve mistaken your feeling for each other. If you have, I should decidedly say you couldn’t break your engagement too soon. In fact, there wouldn’t be any real engagement to break.”
“Of course you are right,” said Glendenning, but not so strenuously as he might.
I had a feeling that he had not put forward the main cause of his unhappiness, though he had given a true cause; that he had made some lesser sense of wrong stand for a greater, as people often do in confessing themselves; and I was not surprised when he presently added: “It is not merely the fact that she is bound in that way, and that her young life is passing in this sort of hopeless patience, but that — that — I don’t know how to put the ugly and wicked thing into words, but I assure you that sometimes when I think — when I’m aware that I know — Ah, I can’t say it!”
“I fancy I understand what you mean, my dear boy,” I said, and in the right of my ten years’ seniority I put my hand caressingly on his shoulder, “and you are no more guilty than I am in knowing that if Mrs. Bentley were not in the way there would be no obstacle to your happiness.”
“But such a cognition is of hell,” he cried, and he let his face fall into his hands and sobbed heartrendingly.
“Yes,” I said, “such a cognition is of hell; you are quite right. So are all evil concepts and knowledges; but so long as they are merely things of our intelligence, they are no part of us, and we are not guilty of them.”
“No; I trust not, I trust not,” he returned, and I let him sob his trouble out before I spoke again; and then I began with a laugh of unfeigned gayety. Something that my wife had hinted in one of our talks about the lovers freakishly presented itself to my mind, and I said, “There is a way, and a very practical way, to put an end to the anomaly you feel in an engagement which doesn’t imply a marriage.”
“And what is that?” he asked, not very hopefully; but he dried his eyes and calmed himself.
“Well, speaking after the manner of men, you might run off with Miss Bentley.”
All the blood in his body flushed into his face. “Don’t!” he gasped, and I divined that what I had said must have been in his thoughts before, and I laughed again. “It wouldn’t do,” he added, piteously. “The scandal — I am a clergyman, and my parish—”
I perceived that no moral scruple presented itself to him; when it came to the point, he was simply and naturally a lover, like any other man; and I persisted: “It would only be a seven days’ wonder. I never heard of a clergyman’s running away to be married; but they must have sometimes done it. Come, I don’t believe you’d have to plead hard with Miss Bentley, and Mrs. March and I will aid and abet you to the limit of our small ability. I’m sure that if I wrap up warm against the night air, she will let me go and help you hold the rope-ladder taut.”
X.
It was not very reverent to his cloth, or his recent tragical mood, but Glendenning was not offended; he laughed with a sheepish pleasure, and that evening he came with Miss Bentley to call upon us. The visit passed without unusual confidences until they rose to go, when she said abruptly to me: “I feel that we both owe you a great deal, Mr. March. Arthur has been telling me of your talk this afternoon, and I think that what you said was all so wise and true! I don’t mean,” she added, “your suggestion about putting an end to the anomaly!” and she and Glendenning both laughed.
My wife said, “That was very wicked, and I have scolded him for thinking of such a thing.” She had, indeed, forgotten that she had put it in my head, and made me wholly responsible for it.
“Then you must scold me too a little, Mrs. March,” said the girl, “for I’ve sometimes wondered if I couldn’t work Arthur up to the point of making me run away with him,” which was a joke that wonderfully amused us all.
I said, “I shouldn’t think it would be so difficult;” and she retorted:
“Oh, you’ve no idea how obdurate clergymen are;” and then she went on, seriously, to thank me for talking Glendenning out of his morbid mood. With the frankness sometimes characteristic of her she said that if he had released her, it would have made no difference — she should still have felt herself bound to him; and until he should tell her that he no longer cared for her, she should feel that he was bound to her. I saw no great originality in this reproduction of my own ideas. But when Miss Bentley added that she believed her mother herself would be shocked and disappointed if they were to give each other up, I was aware of being in the presence of a curious psychological fact. I so wholly lost myself in the inquiry it invited that I let the talk flow on round me unheeded while I questioned whether Mrs. Bentley did not derive a satisfaction from her own and her daughter’s mutual opposition which she could never have enjoyed from their perfect agreement. She had made a certain concession in consenting to the engagement, and this justified her to herself in refusing her consent to the marriage, while the ingratitude of the young people in not being content with what she had done formed a grievance of constant avail with a lady of her temperament. From what Miss Bentley let fall, half seriously, half jokingly, as well as what I observed, I divined a not unnatural effect of the strained relations between her and her mother. She concentrated whatever resentment she felt upon Miss Bentley, insomuch that it seemed as though she might altogether have withdrawn her opposition if it had been a question merely of Glendenning’s marriage. So far from disliking him, she was rather fond of him, and she had no apparent objection to him except as her daughter’s husband. It had not always been so; at first she had an active rancor against him; but this had gradually yielded to his invincible goodness and sweetness.
“Who could hold out against him?” his betrothed demanded, fondly, when these facts had been more or less expressed to us; and it was not the first time that her love had seemed more explicit than his. He smiled round upon her, pressing the hand she put in his arm; for she asked this when they stood on our threshold ready to go, and then he glanced at us with eyes that fell bashfully from ours.
“Oh, of course it will come right in time,” said my wife when they were gone, and I agreed that they need only have patience. We had all talked ourselves into a cheerful frame concerning the affair; we had seen it in its amusing aspects, and laughed about it; and that seemed almost in itself to dispose of Mrs. Bentley’s opposition. My wife and I decided that this could not long continue; that by-and-by she would become tired of it, and this would happen all the sooner if the lovers submitted absolutely, and did nothing to remind her of their submission.
XI.
The Conwells came home from Europe the next summer, and we did not go again to Gormanville. But from time to time we heard of the Bentleys, and we heard to our great amaze that there was no change in the situation, as concerned Miss Bentley and Glendenning. I think that later it would have surprised us if we had learned that there was a change. Their lives all seemed to have adjusted themselves to the conditions, and we who were mere spectators came at last to feel nothing abnormal in them.
Now and then we saw Glendenning, and now and then Miss Bentley came to call upon Mrs. March, when she was in town. Her mother had given up her Boston house, and they lived the whole year round at Gormanville, where the air was good for Mrs. Bentley without her apparently being the better for it; again, we heard in a roundabout way that their circumstances were not so fortunate as they had been, and that they had given up their Boston house partly from motives of economy.
There was no reason why our intimacy with the lovers’ affairs should continue, and it did not. Miss Bentley made mention of Glendenning, when my wife saw her, with what Mrs. March decided to be an abiding fealty, but without offer of confidence; and Glendenning, when we happened to meet at rare intervals, did not invite me to more than formal inquiry concerning the well-being of Mrs. Bentley and her daughter.
He was undoubtedly getting older, and he looked it. He was one of those gentle natures which put on fat, not from self-indulgence, but from want of resisting force, and the clerical waistcoat that buttoned black to his throat swayed decidedly beyond a straight line at his waist. His red-gold hair was getting thin, and though he wore it cut close all round, it showed thinner on the crown than on the temples, and his pale eyebrows were waning. He had a settled patience of look which would have been a sadness, if there had not been mixed with it an air of resolute cheerfulness. I am not sure that this kept it from being sad, either.
Miss Bentley, on her part, was no longer the young girl she was when we met on the Corinthian. She must then have been about twenty, and she was now twenty-six, but she looked thirty. Dark people show their age early, and she showed hers in cheeks that grew thinner if not paler, and in a purple shadow under her fine eyes. The parting of her black hair was wider than it once was, and she wore it smooth in apparent disdain of those arts of fluffing and fringing which give an air of vivacity, if not of youth. I should say she had always been a serious girl, and now she showed the effect of a life that could not have been gay for any one.
The lovers promised themselves, as we knew, that Mrs. Bentley would relent, and abandon what was more like a whimsical caprice than a settled wish. But as time wore on, and she gave no sign of changing, I have wondered whether some change did not come upon them, which affected them towards each other without affecting their constancy. I fancied their youthful passion taking on the sad color of patience, and contenting itself more and more with such friendly companionship as their fate afforded; it became, without marriage, that affectionate comradery which wedded love passes into with the lapse of as many years as they had been plighted. “What,” I once suggested to my wife, in a very darkling mood— “what if they should gradually grow apart, and end in rejoicing that they had never been allowed to join their lives? Wouldn’t that be rather Hawthornesque?”
“It wouldn’t be true,” said Mrs. March, “and I don’t see why you should put such a notion upon Hawthorne. If you can’t be more cheerful about it, Basil, I wish you wouldn’t talk of the affair at all.”
“Oh, I’m quite willing to be cheerful about it, my dear,” I returned; “and, if you like, we will fancy Mrs. Bentley coming round and ardently wishing their marriage, and their gayly protesting that after having given the matter a great deal of thought they had decided it would be better not to marry, but to live on separately for their own sake, just as they have been doing for hers so long. Wouldn’t that be cheerful?”
Mrs. March said that if I wished to tease it was because I had no ideas on the subject, and she would advise me to drop it. I did so, for the better part of the evening, but I could not relinquish it altogether. “Do you think,” I asked, finally, “that any sort of character will stand the test of such a prolonged engagement?”
“Why not? Very indifferent characters stand the test of marriage, and that’s indefinitely prolonged.”
“Yes, but it’s not indefinite itself. Marriage is something very distinct and permanent; but such an engagement as this has no sort of future. It is a mere motionless present, without the inspiration of a common life, and with no hope of release from durance except through a chance that it will be sorrow instead of joy. I should think they would go to pieces under the strain.”
“But as you see they don’t, perhaps the strain isn’t so great after all.”
“Ah,” I confessed, “there is that wonderful adaptation of the human soul to any circumstances. It’s the one thing that makes me respect our fallen nature. Fallen? It seems to me that we ought to call it our risen nature; it has steadily mounted with the responsibility that Adam took for it — or Eve.”
“I don’t see,” said my wife, pursuing her momentary advantage, “why they should not be getting as much pleasure or happiness out of life as most married people. Engagements are supposed to be very joyous, though I think they’re rather exciting and restless times, as a general thing. If they’ve settled down to being merely engaged, I’ve no doubt they’ve decided to make the best of being merely engaged as long as her mother lives.”
“There is that view of it,” I assented.
XII.
By the following autumn Glendenning had completed the seventh year of his engagement to Miss Bentley, and I reminded my wife that this seemed to be the scriptural length of a betrothal, as typified in the service which Jacob rendered for Rachel. “But he had a prospective father-in-law to deal with,” I added, “and Glendenning a mother-in-law. That may make a difference.”
Mrs. March did not join me in the humorous view of the affair which I took. She asked me if I had heard anything from Glendenning lately; if that were the reason why I mentioned him.
“No,” I said; “but I have some office business that will take me to Gormanville to-morrow, and I did not know but you might like to go too, and look the ground over, and see how much we have been suffering for them unnecessarily.” The fact was that we had now scarcely spoken of Glendenning or the Bentleys for six months, and our minds were far too full of our own affairs to be given more than very superficially to theirs at any time. “We could both go as well as not,” I suggested, “and you could call upon the Bentleys while I looked after the company’s business.”
“Thank you, Basil, I think I will let you go alone,” said my wife. “But try to find out how it is with them. Don’t be so terribly straightforward, and let it look as if that was what you came for. Don’t make the slightest advance towards their confidence. But do let them open up if they will.”
“My dear, you may depend upon my asking no leading questions whatever, and I shall behave with far more discretion than if you were with me. The danger is that I shall behave with too much, for I find that my interest in their affair is very much faded. There is every probability that unless Glendenning speaks of his engagement it won’t be spoken of at all.”
This was putting it rather with the indifference of the past six months than with the feeling of the present moment. Since I had known that I was going to Gormanville, the interest I denied had renewed itself pretty vividly for me, and I was intending not only to get everything out of Glendenning that I decently could, but to give him as much good advice as he would bear. I was going to urge him to move upon the obstructive Mrs. Bentley with all his persuasive force, and I had formulated some arguments for him which I thought he might use with success. I did not tell my wife that this was my purpose, but all the same I cherished it, and I gathered energy for the enforcement of my views for Glendenning’s happiness from the very dejection I was cast into by the outward effect of the Gormanville streets. They were all in a funeral blaze of their shade trees, which were mostly maples, but were here and there a stretch of elms meeting in arches almost consciously Gothic over the roadway; the maples were crimson and gold, and the elms the pale yellow that they affect in the fall. A silence hung under their sad splendors which I found deepen when I got into what the inhabitants called the residential part. About the business centre there was some stir, and here in the transaction of my affairs I was in the thick of it for a while. Everybody remembered me in a pleasant way, and I had to stop and pass the time of day, as they would have said, with a good many whom I could not remember at once. It seemed to me that the maples in front of St. Michael’s rectory were rather more depressingly gaudy than elsewhere in Gormanville; but I believe they were only thicker. I found Glendenning in his study, and he was so far from being cast down by their blazon that I thought him decidedly cheerfuller than when I saw him last. He met me with what for him was ardor; and as he had asked me most cordially about my family, I thought it fit to inquire how the ladies at the Bentley place were.
“Why, very well, very well indeed,” he answered, brightly. “It’s very odd, but Edith and I were talking about you all only last night, and wishing we could see you again. Edith is most uncommonly well. During the summer Mrs. Bentley had some rather severer attacks than usual, and the care and anxiety told upon Edith, but since the cooler weather has come she has picked up wonderfully.” He did not say that Mrs. Bentley had shared this gain, and I imagined that he had a reluctance to confess she had not. He went on, “You’re going to stay and spend the night with me, aren’t you?”
“No,” I said; “I’m obliged to be off by the four-o’clock train. But if I may be allowed to name the hospitality I could accept, I should say luncheon.”
“Good!” cried Glendenning, gayly. “Let us go and have it at the Bentleys’.”
“Far be it from me to say where you shall lunch me,” I returned. “The question isn’t where, but when and how, with me.”
He got his hat and stick, and as we started out of his door he began: “You’ll be a little surprised at the informality, perhaps, but I’m glad you take it so easily. It makes it easier for me to explain that I’m almost domesticated at the Bentley homestead; I come and go very much as if it were my own house.”
“My dear fellow,” I said, “I’m not surprised at anything in your relation to the Bentley homestead, and I won’t vex you with any glad inferences.”
“Why,” he returned, a little bashfully, “there’s no explicit change. The affair is just where it has been all along. But with the gradual decline in Mrs. Bentley — I’m afraid you’ll notice it — she seems rather to want me about, and at times I’m able to be of use to Edith, and so—”
