Delphi complete works of.., p.312
Delphi Complete Works of William Dean Howells, page 312
“Yes, I understand that,” said Lemuel. “I couldn’t help it, at first. But I’ve got to see it all in a different light since then. I know that you meant the best by me. I know now that what I wrote wasn’t worth anything, and just how you must have looked at it. I didn’t know some things then that I do now; and since I have got to know a little more I have understood better what you meant by all you said.”
“I am very glad,” said Sewell, with sincere humility, “that you have kept no hard feeling against me.”
“Oh, not at all. It’s all right now. I couldn’t explain very well that I hadn’t come to the city just to be in the city, but because I had to do something to help along at home. You didn’t seem to understand that there wa’n’t anything there for me to take hold of.”
“No, I’m afraid I didn’t, or wouldn’t quite understand that; I was talking and acting, I’m afraid, from a preconceived notion.” Lemuel made no reply, not having learned yet to utter the pleasant generalities with which city people left a subject; and after a while Sewell added, “I am glad to have seen your face so often at church. You have been a great deal in my mind, and I have wished to do something to make your life happy, and useful to you in the best way, here, but I haven’t quite known how.” At this point Sewell realised that it was nearly eight months since Lemuel had come to Boston, and he said contritely, “I have not made the proper effort, I’m afraid; but I did not know exactly how to approach you. You were rather a difficult subject,” he continued, with a smile in which Lemuel consented to join, “but now that we’ve come to a clearer understanding—” He broke off and asked, “Have you many acquaintances in Boston?”
Lemuel hesitated, and cleared his throat, “Not many.”
Something in his manner prompted the minister to say, “That is such a very important thing for young men in a strange place. I wish you would come oftener to see us, hereafter. Young men, in the want of companionship, often form disadvantageous acquaintances, which they can’t shake off afterwards, when they might wish to do so. I don’t mean evil acquaintance; I certainly couldn’t mean that in your case; but frivolous ones, from which nothing high or noble can come — nothing of improvement or development.”
Lemuel started at the word and blushed. It was Berry’s word. Sewell put his own construction on the start and the blush.
“Especially,” he went on, “I should wish any young man whom I was interested in to know refined and noble woman.” He felt that this was perhaps in Lemuel’s case too much like prescribing port wine and carriage exercise to an indigent patient, and he added, “If you cannot know such women, it is better to know none at all. It is not what women say or do, so much as the art they have of inspiring a man to make the best of himself. The accidental acquaintances that young people are so apt to form are in most cases very detrimental. There is no harm in them of themselves, perhaps, but all irregularity in the life of the young is to be deplored.”
“Do you mean,” asked Lemuel, with that concreteness which had alarmed Sewell before, “that they ought to be regularly introduced?”
“I mean that a young girl who allowed a young man to make her acquaintance outside of the — the — social sanctions — would be apt to be a silly or romantic person, at the best. Of course, there are exceptions. But I should be very sorry if any young man I knew — no; why shouldn’t I say you, at once? — should involve himself in any such way. One thing leads to another, especially with the young; and the very fact of irregularity, of romance, of strangeness in an acquaintance, throws a false glamour over the relation, and appeals to the sentiments in an unwarranted degree.”
“Yes, that is so,” said Lemuel.
The admission stimulated Sewell in the belief that he had a clue in his hand which it was his duty to follow up. “The whole affair loses proportion and balance. The fancy becomes excited, and some of the most important interests — the very most important interests of life — are committed to impulse.” Lemuel remained silent, and it seemed the silence of conviction. “A young man is better for knowing women older than himself, more cultivated, devoted to higher things. Of course, young people must see each other, must fall in love and get married; but there need be no haste about such things. If there is haste — if there is rashness, thoughtlessness — there is sure to be unhappiness. Men are apt to outgrow their wives intellectually, if their wives’ minds are set on home and children, as they should be, and allowance for this ought to be made, if possible. I would rather that in the beginning the wife should be the mental superior. I hope it will be several years yet before you think seriously of such things, but when the time comes, I hope you will have seen some young girl — there are such for every one of us — whom it is civilisation and enlightenment, refinement, and elevation, simply to know. On the other hand, a silly girl’s influence is degrading and ruinous. She either drags those attached to her down to her own level; or she remains a weight and a clog upon the life of a man who loves her.”
“Yes,” said Lemuel, with a sigh which Sewell interpreted as that of relief from danger recognised in time.
He pursued eagerly. “I could not warn any one too earnestly against such an entanglement.”
Lemuel rose and looked about with a troubled glance. Sewell continued: “Any such marriage — a marriage upon any such conditions — is sure to be calamitous; and if the conditions are recognised beforehand, it is sure to be iniquitous. So far from urging the fulfilment of even a promise, in such a case, I would have every such engagement broken, in the interest of humanity — of morality — —”
Mrs. Sewell came into the room, and gave a little start of surprise, apparently not mixed with pleasure, at seeing Lemuel. She had never been able to share her husband’s interest in him, while insisting upon his responsibility; she disliked him not logically, but naturally, for the wrong and folly which he had been the means of her husband’s involving himself in; Miss Vane’s kindliness toward Lemuel, which still survived, and which expressed itself in questions about him whenever she met the minister, was something that Mrs. Sewell could not understand. She now said, “Oh! Mr. Barker!” and coldly gave him her hand. “Have you been well? Must you go?”
“Yes, thank you. I have got to be getting back. Well, good evening.” He bowed to the Sewells.
“You must come again to see me,” said the minister, and looked at his wife.
“Yes, it has been a very long time since you were here,” Mrs. Sewell added.
“I haven’t had a great deal of time to myself,” said Lemuel, and he contrived to get himself out of the room.
Sewell followed him down to the door, in the endeavour to say something more on the subject his wife had interrupted, but he only contrived to utter some feeble repetitions. He came back in vexation, which he visited upon Lemuel. “Silly fellow!” he exclaimed.
“What has he been doing now?” asked Mrs. Sewell, with reproachful discouragement.
“Oh, I don’t know! I suspect that he’s been involving himself in some ridiculous love affair!” Mrs. Sewell looked a silent inculpation. “It’s largely conjecture on my part, of course, — he’s about as confiding as an oyster! — but I fancy I have said some things in a conditional way that will give him pause. I suspect from his manner that he has entangled himself with some other young simpleton, and that he’s ashamed of it, or tired of it, already. If that’s the case, I have hit the nail on the head. I told him that a foolish, rash engagement was better broken than kept. The foolish marriages that people rush into are the greatest bane of life!”
“And would you really have advised him, David,” asked his wife, “to break off an engagement if he had made one?”
“Of course I should! I — —”
“Then I am glad I came in in time to prevent your doing anything so wicked.”
“Wicked?” Sewell turned from his desk, where he was about to sit down, in astonishment.
“Yes! Do you think that nobody else is to be considered in such a thing? What about the poor, silly girl if he breaks off with her? Oh, you men are all alike! Even the best! You think it is a dreadful thing for a young man to be burdened with a foolish love affair at the beginning of his career; but you never think of the girl whose whole career is spoiled, perhaps, if the affair is broken off! Hasn’t she any right to be considered?”
“I should think,” said Sewell, distinctly daunted, “that they were equally fortunate, if it were broken off.”
“O my dear, you know you don’t think anything of the kind! If he has more mind than she has, and is capable of doing something in the world, he goes on and forgets her; but she remembers him. Perhaps it’s her one chance in life to get married — to have a home. You know very well that in a case of that kind — a rash engagement, as you call it — both are to blame; and shall one do all the suffering? Very probably his fancy was taken first, and he followed her up, and flattered her into liking him; and now shall he leave her because he’s tired of her?”
“Yes,” said Sewell, recovering from the first confusion which his wife’s unexpected difference of opinion had thrown him into, “I should think that was the very best reason in the world why he should leave her. Would his marrying make matters worse or better if he were tired of her? As for wickedness, I should feel myself guilty if I did not do my utmost to prevent marriages between people when one or other wished to break their engagement, and had not the moral courage to do so. There is no more pernicious delusion than that one’s word ought to be kept in such an affair, after the heart has gone out of it, simply because it’s been given.”
“David!”
But Sewell was not to be restrained. “I am right about this, Lucy, and you know it. Half the miserable marriages in the world could be prevented, if there were only some frank and fearless adviser at hand to say to the foolish things that if they no longer fully and freely love each other they can commit no treason so deadly as being true to their word. I wish,” he now added, “that I could be the means of breaking off every marriage that the slightest element of doubt enters into beforehand. I should leave much less work for the divorce courts. The trouble comes from that crazy and mischievous principle of false self-sacrifice that I’m always crying out against. If a man has ceased to love the woman he has promised to marry — or vice versa — the best possible thing they can do, the only righteous thing, is not to marry.”
Mrs. Sewell could not deny this. She directed an oblique attack from another quarter, as women do, while affecting not to have changed her ground at all. “Very well, then, David, I wish you would have nothing to do with that crazy and mischievous principle yourself. I wish you would let this ridiculous Barker of yours alone from this time forth. He has found a good place, where he is of use, and where he is doing very well. Now I think your responsibility is fairly ended. I hope you won’t meddle with his love affairs, if he has any; for if you do, you will probably have your hands full. He is very good looking, and all sorts of silly little geese will be falling in love with him.”
“Well, so far his love troubles are purely conjectural,” said Sewell with a laugh. “I’m bound to say that Barker himself didn’t say a word to justify the conjecture that he was either in love or wished to be out of it. However, I’ve given him some wholesome advice which he’ll be all the better for taking, merely as a prophylactic, if nothing else.”
“I am tired of him,” sighed Mrs. Sewell. “Is he going to keep perpetually turning up, in this way? I hope you were not very pressing with him in your invitations to him to call again?”
Sewell smiled. “You were not, my dear.”
“You let him take too much of your time. I was so provoked, when I heard you going on with him, that I came down to put an end to it.”
“Well, you succeeded,” said Sewell easily. “Don’t you think he’s greatly improved in the short time he’s been in the city?”
“He’s very well dressed. I hope he isn’t extravagant.”
“He’s not only well dressed, but he’s beginning to be well spoken. I believe he’s beginning to observe that there is such a thing as not talking through the nose. He still says, ‘I don’t know as,’ but most of the men they turn out of Harvard say that; I’ve heard some of the professors say it.”
Mrs. Sewell was not apparently interested in this.
XXII.
That night Lemuel told Mrs. Harmon that she must not expect him to do anything thenceforward but look after the accounts and the general management; she must get a head-waiter, and a boy to run the elevator. She consented to this, as she would have consented to almost anything else that he proposed.
He had become necessary to the management of the St. Albans in every department; and if the lady boarders felt that they could not now get on without him, Mrs. Harmon was even more dependent.
With her still nominally at the head of affairs, and controlling the expenses as a whole, no radical reform could be effected. But there were details of the outlay in which Lemuel was of use, and he had brought greater comfort into the house for less money. He rejected her old and simple device of postponing the payment of debt as an economical measure, and substituted cash dealings with new purveyors. He gradually but inevitably took charge of the storeroom, and stopped the waste there; early in his administration he had observed the gross and foolish prodigality with which the portions were sent from the carving-room, and after replacing Mrs. Harmon’s nephew there, he established a standard portion that gave all the needed variety, and still kept the quantity within bounds. It came to his taking charge of this department entirely, and as steward he carved the meats, and saw that nothing was in a way to become cold before he opened the dining-room doors as head-waiter.
His activities promoted the leisure which Mrs. Harmon had always enjoyed, and which her increasing bulk fitted her to adorn. Her nephew willingly relinquished the dignity of steward. He said that his furnaces were as much as he wanted to take care of; especially as in former years, when it had begun to come spring, he had experienced a stress of mind in keeping the heat just right, when the ladies were all calling down the tubes for more of it or less of it, which he should now be very glad not to have complicated with other cares. He said that now he could look forward to the month of May with some pleasure.
The guests, sensibly or insensibly, according to their several temperaments, shared the increased ease that came from Lemuel’s management. The service was better in every way; their beds were promptly made, their rooms were periodically swept; every night when they came up from dinner they found their pitchers of ice-water at their doors. This change was not accomplished without much of that rebellion and renunciation which was known at the St. Albans as kicking. Chambermaids and table-girls kicked, but they were replaced by Lemuel, who went himself to the intelligence office, and pledged the new ones to his rule beforehand. There was even some kicking among the guests, who objected to the new portions, and to having a second bill sent them if the first remained unpaid for a week; but the general sense of the hotel was in Lemuel’s favour.
He had no great pleasure in the reform he had effected. His heart was not in it, except as waste and disorder and carelessness were painful to him. He suffered to promote a better state of things, as many a woman whose love is for books or pictures or society suffers for the perfection of her housekeeping, and sacrifices her taste to achieve it. He would have liked better to read, to go to lectures, to hear sermons; with the knowledge of Mr. Evans’s life as an editor and the incentive of a writer near him, he would have liked to try again if he could not write something, though the shame of his failure in Mr. Sewell’s eyes had burned so deep. Above all, since he had begun to see how city people regarded the kind of work he had been doing, he would have liked to get out of the hotel business altogether, if he could have been sure of any other.
As the spring advanced his cares grew lighter. Most of the regular boarders went away to country hotels and became regular boarders there. Their places were only partially filled by transients from the South and West, who came and went, and left Lemuel large spaces of leisure, in which he read, or deputed Mrs. Harmon’s nephew to the care of the office and pursued his studies of Boston, sometimes with Mr. Evans, — whose newspaper kept him in town, and who liked to prowl about with him, and to frequent the odd summer entertainments, — but mostly alone. They became friends after a fashion, and were in each other’s confidence as regarded their opinions and ideas, rather than their history; now and then Evans dropped a word about the boy he had lost, or his wife’s health, but Lemuel kept his past locked fast in his breast.
The art-students had gone early in the summer, and Berry had left Boston for Wyoming at the end of the spring term of the law-school. He had not been able to make up his mind to pop before Miss Swan departed, but he thought he should fetch it by another winter; and he had got leave to write to her, on condition, he said, that he should conduct the whole correspondence himself.
Miss Carver had left Lemuel dreaming of her as an ideal, yet true, with a slow, rustic constancy, to Statira. For all that had been said and done, he had not swerved explicitly from her. There was no talk of marriage between them, and could not be; but they were lovers still, and when Miss Carver was gone, and the finer charm of her society was unfelt, he went back to much of the old pleasure he had felt in Statira’s love. The resentment of her narrow-mindedness, the shame for her ignorance passed; the sense of her devotion remained.
‘Manda Grier wanted her to go home with her for part of the summer, but she would not have consented if Lemuel had not insisted. She wrote him back ill-spelt, scrawly little letters, in one of which she told him that her cough was all gone, and she was as well as ever. She took a little more cold when she returned to town in the first harsh September weather, and her cough returned, but she said she did not call it anything now.
